Weekend Update

Thursday was not so good. I woke up feeling blah last Friday. My shift started with a small fight then ends up with me calling it quits. I hate arguments, who likes it by the way? No! I mean, those non-stop random small fights--so sick. I HATE.

To cut his lil tantrums and shits, I obliged to sleep over at his crib. I don't wanna elaborate what really happened but yeah, everything/everyone including him made me so pissed. Just to end the conversation I said yes to drop off his place because that's what we planned the day before. But in mind, I am just going to get all my stuffs and eventually leave him permanently. I had enough that time. I am pissed and about to explode! I'm not even liking all the things he's doing, even he's making lambing and all. I am close to shouting at him but I still managed to control my temper. Anyhoo, we fixed the fight. Even I know this isn't working, I still hang on, not for my own sake, but for him. Don't get me wrong, he's a good man. He's a changed one actually. I'm proud to say that. But it's not enough. It's not also good to change for someone else, I'd be happier if I knew he's changing because he wants to, for himself, for his future, for his family. I know it's kind of confusing now.. Why the hell I'm still here, hanging in the situation? Well, I really can't say. I don't know how to handle this now. :( I'm not afraid though, until he whispered to me last Friday, while we were about to sleep.. "How can I start without you?" There, I had goosebumps. I didn't planned anything like this. I feel sorry for him. :( Until now, I know we're not okay.

We didn't even had dinner last Friday. After the fight, we slept til I felt my stomach aching. He woke up as well and had brekky at Sinangag Express. We both had Tosilog and Sprite. Then we went home, this time in my crib. We are going to my cousin's Wedding. Totee was a secondary sponsor. The travel time was too long for the church was located at San Mateo, Rizal. Man, I wont go there again. Srsly! The traffic was horrible.

Here's some captured moments from the Carlyn's Wed:

The wedding was okay. I pity R for driving that long. The reception was at Max's Restaurant San Mateo, Rizal. The service was awful. It made the event such a wonderful one because of the bonding. Deniñ@ Clan was really awesome family. :) After, we even went to Carleen's home to continue the happenings. Shat ng redhorse and videoke forever. I initiated to go home at 11pm. Everyone followed. We arrived home at 1:25am. It was indeed a tiring day. R slept over to my place.

The next day:
I woke up at 8am. Prepare some brekky, longganisa, jumbo hotdogs and sinangag. R cooked actually. I only gave him a hand :) When the food was ready, I called my siblings so we could eat all together. That's my fave thing on earth to eat every single meal with my fam, unfortunately my parents weren't home. They're in Bicol until Tuesday. After the brekky, my sisters and I helped each other with the dishes. It's kinda hard not having a maid now, so please to all my readers, if you know someone who's willing to be a helper, PM me, call or text me, basta inform me. We really need one. Seriously!

Kelly, Pong, R and I enjoyed watching Matanglawin in my room. At 11am, I asked R to drive me to the wet market for our Lunch. R cooked sinigang na buto-buto. :) THanks babe, for always making me fat! LOL At 4pm R left for practice/gig at the same village. And that's the moment I had my ME time. First, I went to Nai'egance Spa, for footspa and pedicure. The service was great, it costs Php 299. Not bad. Then I headed to SM Muntinlupa for facial, I went to my favorite place, Flawless to have the service, unfortunately and to my surprise the store is not there anymore :( I was very disappointed. Yes, it took me 4 mos to visit the place again. I don't have much time for pampering myself now, so I am really really upset Flawless isn't there anymore. Wondering where did they branch out? So I went to Dermstrata Skin Clinic and Spa instead. The facial there was cheaper than Forever Flawless, it costs Php435. I don't have bad things to say about the service though. I really need facial, I am contented so I wont say any bad comment.

I went home and had dinner with R again. We send my sister's family home. On the way home, R and I weren't talking at all. We both know we have a misunderstanding and we just opt not to talk about it. We don't want arguments now. I can't accomodate fights as of the moment. We slept together again. We didn't talk. We know in our hearts we are not okay. We still hugged each other while sleeping. I woke up really early a while ago, like 5:15am. Managed to prepare for work that early for I have an 8:00am meeting with my boss. R accompanied me til Buendia Station. There, we part ways. I didn't plan of leaving my celly but yes, I don't have it with me now. Prolly it's a sign and God's intention to give both of us a space to relax, and have our me time. No calling and texting all throughout the day. Let's see what's the deal til my shift ends.

I arrived really early here in the office, like 7:20am. Goodjob for me! The meeting was cancelled. It's okay. :) I hope my shift will turn out good :)

For now, I thank him for driving us in my cousin's wedding. Let's talk some other time. Take care of yourself. :) By the way, while I was sleeping next to him, I had a bad bad dream. I hope it wont happen. Really :(

Trip to Olonggapo with HS Girlfriends

We left Manila at around 10pm last May 6. I am going to surprise Anna with the guests I brought for her. :) Anna's going to be Mrs. Mary Anne Teaño Javier-Panotes the next day. I am happy for her decision. It's always been her call.

The travel was crazy. It took us 4 long hours. The road was so dark and fuck there's no street signs or something that would give us an idea where the fuck we are already. We headed on the wrong road. We finally asked for help. So we enroute going to Olonggapo and called Anna we feel we are arriving soon. She has to fetch us so she could accompany us in the hotel where we are goin to check in. Olonggapo is unbelievable. Before reaching the place, we had to pass tons of toll gates and its freackin' annoying! haha magkakalapit na toll? bat di nalang pinagisa? Yung totoo? So yeah, we arrived Petron to pee and there Anna and her soon to be hubby arrived and fetched us.

Anna is currently 4 months pregnant. She's still the same. We were friends since Kinder and the last time we met was I guess 2001 pa. So yea, we miss her tons! With me was Carla, Chique, Pane, Essang and the fiance, Ambet. Anna was surprised! She even wanted to sleep over in our room. Come on! she's getting married the next day, she has to rest and be ready for her big day..

So here's our first pic as we arrived the hotel


We were starving so we asked if they are offering some food in the middle of the dawn. Unfortunely not, so we have to call for Jollibee. That's the nearest fast food chain in the hotel. Kaloka that everyone left their own toothbrush! LOL While we were still on the road, we were teasing Pane because she got no tooth brush... Yun pala. Ako, Carla, and Essang left ours. HAHAHHA! Tanga lang!

The food arrived. Then we hit the sack!

I got up first at 830am. My tummy's aching and yea I have to smoke LOL. Everyone got up except for Ambet. It took 2 hours prolly for Essang to finish everything! She did my make up. Thanks for that! We are off to Anna's Reception and meet her parents! I miss them dearly!

Some pics are with Essang's cam pa. She's still prolly taking a rest as of this moment because the plane just landed in Canada. So here are some of the picture's from Chique's cam.


We left at 4pm I guess. Traffic was terrible going home. Imagine us no sleeping during the travel time. Puro chika lang at bargasan. Maloloka ka sa pagkakaibigang ito puro barahan pero miss na miss naman ang isa't isa. We decided to go for a massage since our body's needs it really! Carla phoned The Mandarin Spa in Alabang Town Center and reserved rooms for all of us. Before reaching Alabang, you wont imagine us, Carla, Chique, Pane and I pushing Carla's car in the middle of skyway! Hell yea! hahahaha! Funny! In fairness the car started for I guess 3 mins only. We headed to the car and continue the loong travel.

At The Mandarin Spa, here's the scenario


600 plus 100 tip for the massuese was absolutely worth it! :) I love ♥ I'll go back there.. for sure :)

It was nice hanging out with my HS friends. I miss them again. Hope to have some fun fun moment with them once again. Sayang we didn't have the time to hit the beach though.

Grab now!

Finally, Don and Bernadine... Happilly Ever After

Don and Bernadine's been a couple for 14 years I guess. They are trully meant for each other. I'm happy for them and I wish them more more babies coz they got a pretty genes! LOL Here's a Arpil 20 Event, important moment for my friend, Don. Congratulations dude! Goodjob! :) Stay inlove! ♥♥♥

The Stunning Bride: Bernadine Portillo - Dela Rosa

Look at Don and his mom there, they really look so happy and excited. Super kinilabutan ako nung oras na to. Parang ang sarap sarap ng feeling..

..And there's the happy couple, very inl♥ve

Us Girls at the Church

Yosi break outside the church while waiting for the pictorial. These are my batchmates since elementary days. Because of Don's wed, we had a mini reunion. Cute.

At the reception. Blue Leaf, The Fort. Marla, Oge, Carla, Chen, Aiza and Essang

Matured na kame no? Dalagang dalaga na. Chen is already engaged. The three of us, marla, Carla and I--Single.. Forever? haha!

Their first dance. Love Song by: 311. Onie's fave song as well. :(

Our boys with the newly wed. Suddenly I miss Onie. :( that's his friends kase. :(

Table number 2 guests plus the newly wed

Muntik nakong matalo dito. Buti nalang. Talong Contest. LOL

Girls plus Ely at the reception, yosi break as usual

I was trully happy for Don and Bernadine. Finally, the long wait is over, now I'm thinking when is my big day? Haaay..

I should be saying "I do" last April 10

Yes, me and O are supposed to be getting married last Sat. It was our 10th year Anniversary. It's in our plan to get married that day. :( But I didn't even had a glance of his face that time. :( Wasn't able to visit him. It was intentionally done. :( I don't want to celebrate it anyway. Why would I right? why would we have to make fool of ourselves. We're not together now. We are having our own lives already. But for some sort of reasons.... I couldn't resist but I cried... once again.. :(

I was alone last sat in our home. I didn't get up from bed all day. A lot of things are running in my mind. It's my big sister's birthday as well. Nothing special happened. I was starving so I look for something to fill in my stomach. Then I smoked outside. It was 530pm then. I was looking at the sky, talking to O. Asking how is he doin on this day? And then I asked God on what's the status of my life. What will happen next? It's been 3 years and 3 mos now. Still, O's there. Having the darkest side of his life. Suddenly I realized the sky is dark already. Ambilis ng oras. Gabi na pala. I got inside and took a bath. Meanwhile, R called in my celly.. He's outside our home. I let him enter the house.

He cheered me up. We had a good laugh and had a cute conversation. He left early since his uncle's already waiting for him. We didn't even had a chance to had dinner together. We talked about what happened last Friday night also. He was so sorry of what he did. I don't know, but yea, we're still talking over the phone everyday. We'll see what could happen next.

At night, I was watching Greta on the telly, Carla sent me msg. She wanted to have a last full show--Babe, i love you. So, being so emo that night, I opted to watch movie instead.

It wasn't good though.

I hate that day. april 10, 2010 sucks bigtime! :(

Dressing up.. I LOVE

That's why I always want to go to any event because I want to dress up. HEHEHE.

Me and Totee posing. I know she looks ATE than me. hehehe


Me super tired to death but had a heart to smile for the cam. LOL

This an uber late post. :) We went to my boyf's eldest sister's wedding. Since I don't have a date, Totee accompanied me then. It was kinda tiring for I wore my 3.5 inches heels. Dang! Haha!

I forgot the name of the church, but it is located near MOA. The reception was at Sofitel Philippine Plaza. The place was damn amazing, really!


On the way to church, with us were Jeuno and Rina


With little Onie, Rafael Antonio Matias. :)


With KM and the ring bearer ;)


That's Shiela (maid of honor with a fabulous gown), Raf and KM (Another maid of honor)

I fell inlove with Sofitel, really. KM told me I could get a 50% discount from her sis. So I did ask Shiela about it. She oblidged. :) What an angel! :) LOVELY!

I need this

How do I you call it? A cap? Hat? hair dresser? I dunno, but yes, I need it to finish my attire on Sept 9. I don't need any fancy stuff, I do hope it's affordable coz I'm going to use it only once. :)

Happy Pill

I need to buy a dress for a special occassion. Please help me choosing. It's gonna be a wedding day. :)

Forever 21 - Price: $24

This is my pick. Aisa said, it's soo me. I love the color and I love the simplicity. I know it's hot, that's why I love it. :) Forever 21 - Price: $22

With this, I'm not sure. I like it but I wont wear it in a wedding. I just wanna have a piece of this :)
Forever 21 - Price: $16
I like this as well, but prolly I would wear this to other occassion, say anniversary? Whatchathink? :)
Forever 21 - Price: $14
Cute right? I wanted to have this as well. If I'm gonna wear it in a wedding, it'll be better if it's not white. I'd rather choose blue, royal blue. The linings will still be in black :)
Forever 21 - Price: $22
This one is soo nice. I love it. I wanna wear it now! :)
Forever 21 - Price: $10
I won't wear this in a wedding, I just want to add this in my dress collection. :)
Forever 21 - Price: $24
I'll prolly wear this on January 1st. It's so cute and sexy for New Year's eve. :)
Forever 21 - Price: $10
This one, I would wear this for malling, or having a nice coffee at starbs with my boyf on a weekend :)

Gosh, I want to buy every piece. It's so addicting! Last Sunday, I went to Pasig and got all my stuffs there. I miss my dresses and other shoes. Now I'm wearing the yellow pumps. :) I just realized I got tons of clothes and shoes. Before they all went to my closet, my sisters raid my stuffs first, they got 2 each. Since I gave up old stuffs, time to update my closet :) hahahahha (kaso nagtitipid nga pala ako. LOL) eeeeeeeeeeeee, I wanna have evrything. I emailed my kuya to buy me those stuffs. Kahit 2 lang sa knila, I'll pay for them if necessary :) E pero Jack, pabirthday, pachristmas, panew year mo nalang saken yan! hehehhe :) LOVES!

Someone's getting married...

So, I need a pair of shoes...

I'm going nuts with these shoes... I love them all!

They tied the knot... FINALLY!

I was a bride's maid from She and Arman's Wedding. got teary-eyed and all. It was a wonderful wedding indeed. and here's my pictures.









Congratulations Arman and She! You made it! The wedding was so perfect! Best wishes! We'll miss you for sure! :)

I'm so jealous

I know I'm being so praning about wedding stuffs. I just couldn't help myself, but feel jealous about this. Check this out.

Doug Kramer's marriage proposal to Cheska Garcia

AND finally ..

The wedding

So lovely, soo cute, soooo sweet! :(

How was my Vacation?

It was holiday in the states yesterday, so meaning I got no work and it was a yey for me since I am actually begging for a vacation. After my last shift last week, I headed off to my friend's house near my crib for we are going to have my friend's bridal shower party.. I went there even without sleep at all. :) That party was fairly alright knowing we planned it for only a month I suppose. A month that we only had prolly 3 proper days to talk about it. We admit it. We were not even ready for it. But since we knew Sheryl will not stay here for long and we do not actually know when she'll come back, the option would be, do it now or never... so we opted the first one. :)

It was successful though but not as glamorous as what other bride's maids has to prepare for most of the brides. We admited we had a ver very short time to discuss everything and we lack budget so we kinda had a hard time preparing for it.

To sum it up, everything went well. Pics will be uploaded anytime soon after Sheryl or Gen upload it in their Multiply account.

After the party, I went home together with Aileen. I was really dog tired so yeah we slept right away. I was awaken by her phone. Her bf was calling then. It was 10:00 am then we decided to eat brekky. I prepared, meatloaf and 2 eggs (ooppsy, I need to replace my housemate's eggs then LOL), and rice plus apple juice. While eating, I played "My Bestfriend's Girlfriend" movie in the DVD player. It was my 2nd time watching that mushy movie. I texted Gen and ask her if she wanted to attend mass in the evening. She said yes. So we did. Attended mass at 6:30pm and met up with Martin afterwhich. We went to Gateway Mall. Thanks to them, I had a chance going there. Was my first time. haha! What can I do, I was from down south before, I have no means of going there. Geni wanted to watch this tagalog movie starring Richard Guttierez and KC Concepcion entitled, "For The First Time" LOL I don't know where it came from, but I had this unique title I had in mind that I already forgot now. hehe. So, the movie was okay. I fell inlove with Richard because he was so gwapo! lol I was actually imagining him staring at me and talking to me about US. LOL may about us? fuck! LOve stories really make me sick! :( The movie ended at 10pm.

So the heavy rain stopped, so it made me going to down south. I went to Onie's and continue my vacation with him. We had good times indeed. Time for catching up and time to discuss once again the beauty of life ahead of us. We were so excited about our life after his case. In fact, we made stories about it. I left Onie Monday evening and went to my sister's crib near to his place.

I rested well and had a chance playing with my fave nephew Kelly.
I rested well but I still want another day with my fam. I got no chance visiting our house at Muntinlupa. I just don't want to visit my folks now. :( Maybe next week, when my mood permits me.
I rested well but I still want another day bumming around.

Redhorse and The Big Buzz

After mass I had a get together with my friends to celebrate one's birthday. This guy is suppose to be my bestfriend's boo-soon-to-be-husband-on-the-next-month-this-year. Sigh. I didn't expect this coming anytime soon. I wasn't prepared. I thought I am going to become a mother first before her. Until now, the thing they announced wasn't able to sink in in my system. But hey, I'm super happy for them. But I can't just imagine this is happening. and I can't just help myself but to envy them. :(

It is somewhat true... that I hate happy couples!

For some reasons, I hate myself hating them.