Boring Sunday

Am super bored, I was awaken today by the bell from the door because of some maintenance from the building who wanted to give such survey list. It was pathetic indeed seeing it's already 11am and I'm still sleeping deeply. Then I turned to the phone and ring my folks. Telling them I won't be able to go home today, instead will stay in the condo for I have to be in the office really early. Then I managed to cook for my brunch. :) Porckchop, 2 hotdogs, and 1 longganisa. It will be nicer if I'll eat these with you today. I went to my room, shut the door, turned on the telly & inserted Gossip Girl S1 and munched every piece of my food. Then I remembered, we don't have mineral water from the ref. So I called the delivery man to drop me 1 galon of water. So, I continued my meal. It was 3:30 pm when I thought of you again. I glance through our pictures left to my bed and started talking to you really crazy. I miss you babe. I really do hope I can text you everytime I wanted to see you more often. I had this imagination of your presence ringing the bell, walking upstairs and surprising me with yellowcab and coke. But then again, I knew it was just a perfect day dreaming. :( I went down for smoke and suddenly small droplets of rain started to fall through my face. I hate rain. It makes me more lonely :(. Then, I sat in the lobby couch and saw you passing by the glass door. You were just happy holding your car keys, wearing you old get up. trasher look, nice white shirt, baston cargo pants, and vans sneakers. God, I just miss your old look.. This feeling started killing me until I texted Gen where she was to break my perfect day dreaming. She's at Alimall and having her hair done.

I'm 24 now, turning 25 this year, living alone and having 2 jobs at a time. Meaning, I could live by my own and YES I'm ready to have my own family with you. Apparently, you are not available at the moment so I better stay here and continue what I'm doing for the longest time--to wait!

What we had last Friday-Saturday was really a blast! I felt complete though. Waking in the morning right next to you is somewhat part of my dreams. So, I was fulfilled and contented at that time.

Now, my tears just started to fall and I can't help it. It's 4pm now. I think I should better be going and take a bath. I'll attend mass today and I'll talk to our dear Lord about my prayers. I hope He'll hear what I'm saying. I don't wanna get tired of praying, waiting and loving you babe. Since January last year, I have this single prayer that I use to recite day and night, Wanna hear it from me?

"That is for you to get your freedom and be with me for the rest of or lives"

Once that prayer will come true, from then on, I'll have different prayer to recite and that will be different story to reminisce...

I love you babe. I miss you so much.

- Madamme :(