When Jack called...

I was never a bad child, but having thoughts like cursing my parents makes it even worse, I'm not bad--Ok, I'm evil as what they are trying to imply. :(

Poor that they don't understand my point.
Thanks for the call though.. I miss you Jack.
I wish you were here.

As much as I wanted to shoulder all their financial problems at home, still I can't. I have my own bills to pay, have my own obligations to think. Why the heck we have to suffer all these consequences thinking we are all grown ups already. My 3 siblings has their own lives now, they got husbands and wife, they got kids, they have their own responsibilities that is somewhat I think bigger than what I am suffering. Being married is very very different, having a kid without a father makes it even worse. I totally understand where they're coming from, but come to think of it... I am misunderstood. They are thinking indeed I got all the pleasures in life knowing I can make more money than them. It's really annoying whenever they thought of me that way. Living in a condo wasn't my plan. And I actually don't brag about it. In fact, I was just lucky there is some girl from the internet who is very charitable to share a condo for only five thousand pesos. Do you believe it? I was actually amazed at first. So, what I did was to go for it and grab the opportunity to make my life easier travelling from home to the office.

And who fuckin says I got no responsiblities at all? That I have millions of moolahs because I'm still single and I do not have my own family to think of? Well, as far as I'm concern, I've been dealing with responsibilities for the longest time, I certainly do feel am not single at all. I help them as much as I can, but why did he drop such statement that how can I.... Errr.. I'll stop here. I love my bro. But yeah, I was hurt with what he said earlier... :(

Ok. Let me share you their point.

5K is 5K. It'll make my savings account richer every month if I'll just save it in the bank instead then live in our humble home in south.

My point is.

How can you manage commuting from one place to another, riding a bus, plus a cab after reaching megamall at night like 11pm or so. By the way, I got mugged for 3 times already while I was living in Muntinlupa then. So yeah! What can I say? Not practical and safe going back and forth from down south.

Everyone's been saying I got lots of moolahs and I'm like living happily and independently.

They don't know how hurtful it is living alone far from your loved ones and just counting days to be able to see them once or twice a week. Everybody also noticed how my pictures tell how happy I am right now even they know what's the real deal about my so-called love life and status in life. Now, I don't know how to react on that. It's a photo, what's the proper act while shooting in front of the camera? Errr.. first, you have to smile right? so what's the fuzz with all the photos i'm uploading in the net.. why people keep on asking how happy I am right now. It's just that they do not see the real emotions on my pictures, that's what they tell... what? should I frown? should I cry? You know what I mean?

Sigh..