Apr 29, 2009

WTF

You know how I feel after I read your letter? I was pissed and shocked. Well I'm still mad while writing this crap. I don't want to argue about this, but I think we need to work this out or rather let's call it quits. I don't want to make it really big issue, because for me, it's nothing really. But ofcourse I got your point, you're upset, you're disappointed, you're hurt, you feel betrayed. FINE--I knew it! But, I just want to explain my side though you're not interested anymore. You're clueless how it feels alone here in my world. Could you just think that I won't be in this situation if you are outside with me? Look, you've seen how I am being a martyr girlfriend when you were out. You see how I loved and cared for you so much way back then. Did you even hear anything about shitty stuffs about me flirting with other men? I've been so fuckin' faithful with you that I almost end up loving only you disregarding myself. Now, you're there. You're life's fucked up and I want to remind you, you are ruining my godamn life! The hell with you threat me! Lakas ng loob mong sabihin mga salitang to:

"Pag ako lumaya, mabalibalitaan ko lang na ginagago moko aiza, hinding hindi ka magiging masaya habang nabubuhay ako!"

Sana bago mo sinulat yang mga salitang yan, milyong beses mo muna pinagisipan. Dahil hindi mo alam kung gano pinasakit nyan ang ulo ko at puso ko. Hindi maganda ang mga katagang yan. Even now, I still don't believe na nasulat mo yan saken. You are unbelievable. You seem to think only about yourself. What the hell is wrong with you! Kung makasumpa ka, parang napakalinis mo. Ikaw na tong Diyos para husgahan ang pagkatao ko. Of all the people, you're the last person I would think na masasabi saken yang mga salitang yan. You made me think about our future (kung meron nga ba?), You made me think AGAIN, if I'm willing to risk for the f'n last time, You made me think if I'll accept you as my husband in the future. Kung ngayon palang na ikaw natong anjan at di ko iniiwan e may gana ka ng sumapain ako ng ewan ko sang banda mo kinuha lakas mo para masabi yan. Ibang klase ka! I told you this before. You are the only person who makes me sad and happy at the same time. Ang tindi tindi mo.

This relationship seem to be going nowhere. Ok. I admit, I'm madly deeply inlove with you. Now I'm thinking BAKEEEEEEET?

Still, I hope the best for your case. I hope makalaya ka na.