Feb 8, 2010

Wag mokong iwan...

Yan ang sinabi mo bago natin ibaba ang telepono.

Gusto kong sundin ka. pero ano nalang ang buhay na gusto mong mangyari habang kasama moko. I've told you this so many times. It's not always about happy life. We have to face the reality babe. Yea, I'm happy when you're around. I feel so contented when we're together. I feel the joy I am looking for. We are actually having the best time of our lives. But, it's not what I really want if we'll look into the deepest side of this relationship. What we have is for short term basis. You don't have any plans at all. What you're trying to show me is the present. Just that. No plans and all that. We can not continue this with that godamn scenario. You told me that's you. You're actually trying to show me the real you. OK i get it. I can accept the fact that you are totally ruined. Your life is such a mess--What I see, is what I get. Babe, you can't say I'm afraid to enter such life like yours. My past was worst than you ever thought of. I was in hell and I somewhat embraced it with my whole heart and soul. My past didn't become a hindrance for me and ex to continue what life's treating us. I didn't gave up easily. I didn't stop. What I'm trying to imply here is that... You can't say I can't handle this situation you are into right now. You're saying you're such a waste, you're full of crap, and I'm just the only right thing happened in your life. That came from you and I suggest you should grab this opportunity since I'm still around. Help yourself. Try to fix yourself. I can't do this alone. You need to compromise. Things aren't that easy. No one said living life is godamn easy. This is your second chance babe. I'm not doing this for this fucked up relationship. I'm doing this to help you. This is for you. I'm not even thinking of myself anymore. I'm used to it anyway. I know I can handle myself. I know you need someone like me, but for the love of God, help yourself. No one could fix yourself but YOU. I'm just one of the instruments here in earth to help you. It's not yet the end of the world. God is still giving you chances. Grab 'em. I hope you've learned tons of lessons from your past. I can't fix this alone. You have to be with me..

Let's do this one step at a time. Stand up and face the world. Fight and live life to the fullest. We could be happy at the same time functional. Do not just sit and relax. There's so much into this world that we need to encounter. We're just in our half of our lives. Or prolly we haven't started yet.

You can always count on me. I can stay as long as you want me to, but please try to show me you're willing to compromise. I've done my part babe. Do yours. From there, let's see what will happen next. I hope you really mean when you say you love me.

Think about this cliche:
Kailangan moko kase mahal moko, o mahal moko dahil kailangan moko?

I'll give you time to think. Get back to me when you're ready... I'm just a text away. You know where to find me babe... :)

Miss you too.