Vanilla Twilight
By: Owl City
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
I got a text from him, he sent me these lyrics of Vanilla Twilight song. I got teary eyed and started crying buckets in the bus. I know I may be that crazy to show how pathetic I am, crying myself out in that effin bus, but the hell with all the people there, I swear I wanna die that night. I miss him too much. Too much that I wanna screw everything up. Speaking to him using just my head, pleading and asking how we are gonna work things out. The weather was as bad as my emotions then finally the silence broke by his text again. Something worst happened, van, his motor, plus him. BOOM.
I was thinking about you suddenly a van hit me, my bike was messed up. I was thinking I should be dead by this time, but why in the hell I'm still alive? Should I be called lucky being alive?
That's what he said. I called him up immediately. I wanna scream! I wanna help him! I wanna move out and be with him. I WANT TO BE WITH HIM! I wanna live my life loving him!
Ahhhh! Too much emotions! This is making me insane. I need to smoke. Again. Fukc LIFE!
