God knows how much I am praying for this. I can't start working my ass here. I'm absolutely paranoid since yesterday. I didn't know how did I managed to sleep, for I know before that, my mind's occupied with something else. I'm very very positive and I'm very hopeful things would get better anytime soon.
I'd be grateful to know what happened yesterday. But since his dear sister wasn't able to reply on me even once, I might do the honor of discovering what the fuck really happened.
Current Status: Still crying for the result... Oh Lord, help me.
Jan 28, 2009
Jan 22, 2009
Continuation to newlysqueezed's blog
From her entry, "walang kwentang post.. stress".. My name was mentioned that I was all dressed up and obviously there's a reason behind it. Haha! Yea, it's kind of true that that day I was really up to something since I am actually hoping I will have a lunch date with somebody. Somebody, who’s been so nice and sweet to me, but for some sort of reasons I tend to say NO with his first attempt on asking me on a date. What a shame on me after I ditched him, I suddenly realize that I wanted to see him in person, really! I was disappointed then. I couldn’t fathom myself why in the hell I am afraid of seeing someone else. It doesn’t mean I’m going to cheat or something right? Probably this could be because I do respect my man so much. I couldn’t see myself enjoying some moments while him sacrificing the hell out of that place. Now, I’m thinking of how I could reply on this dude’s texts that would simply tell him, “alright, let’s do this and meet up for once”. LOL. It’s awkward for me to ask him myself for another date. This is really confusing. When was the last time I felt this feeling? That is the question which Jaydee threw to me last time. And I was stiff to answer back. He’s right! I wasn’t confusing all my life until this dude popped me a message asking for a lunch date or what. Hahaha! One of the kalokohang YM Jaydee and I had been this:
I was trying to think what to do next after our conversation then… But I didn’t bother to start the conversation. Last night, I mean, earlier, when I am waiting for my alarm, I got a text message from him…
Dude: Hey?
What a crap. Just that! I didn’t reply. LOL I don’t know how to respond. Luckily, I need to leave my celly at home. I’m going to visit my man after shift. With that, I do not need to think what to reply with his text. Silly me! I know! But the thing is… I need not to worry about me cheating on my man. After all, I am not desperate of having an affair with somebody else.
Till next time
A
J: Itext mo na kase na OO date na kayo!
A: E dude quote lang ung text nya
saken sa ngayon e
J: Ganun ba?
A: Pwede ko bang isagot sa quote e… “Yes,
sure. I’ll meet you up at lunch. 11am. See ya then ”
J: =))
hahahahahahhahah! Tado ka! Naisip mo pa un?
A: Naman! O di kaya magcompose
ako ng isang text. Tutal quote pinapadala nya .. Quote din sasagot ko.. tipong…
“Kung naturn down ka one time sa isang date…
…Pwede ka naman magtry ulit kinabukasan.
Sure! Yes na sagot nun sayo! Try mo ngayon.. Game!
J: taena! =)) nasolb mo araw ko. Gagu ka!
A: Buti naman hahahahahaha
=))
I was trying to think what to do next after our conversation then… But I didn’t bother to start the conversation. Last night, I mean, earlier, when I am waiting for my alarm, I got a text message from him…
Dude: Hey?
What a crap. Just that! I didn’t reply. LOL I don’t know how to respond. Luckily, I need to leave my celly at home. I’m going to visit my man after shift. With that, I do not need to think what to reply with his text. Silly me! I know! But the thing is… I need not to worry about me cheating on my man. After all, I am not desperate of having an affair with somebody else.
Till next time
A
Jan 20, 2009
Tips for Better Life
1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
** Aww. I'm not into wlaking. I'll pass on this. But yea.. I SMILE :) a lot.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
** I sometimes see myself sitting in silence more than 10 minutes each day. This is when I am working my ass off at the office. Would that be counted? Haha!
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
** check!
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
** OK. will try to practice this.
5. Play more games.
** Like what? I dont have PSP> How's that? LOL
6. Read more books than you did the previous year.
** Err. Am not a book worm. sorry.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
** Meditation (X) Yoga (X) Prayer (CHECK)
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
** I would love to do this! :)
9. Dream more while you are awake.
** TRUE!
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
** Wow! Tell me about it! ;)
11. Drink plenty of water.
** AMEN!
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
** For me? Make it 5 :D
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
** Err... DND. BIR Mode. LOL
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
** Oh Ok.. Sorry babe, I was just reminding you things that should not be done in future, that's why I keep on reminding you bout it. :) Aryt, let's forget about everything in the past. Let's start all over again... :)
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
** Great! I'll try to practice this one too.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
** AMEN!
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
** HAHAH! I'm on a diet. I'll pass. haha
18. Smile and laugh more.
** SURE :))
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
** Haters, take the EXIT Door!
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
** But ofcourse! I'm a big JOKE right?? LOL
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
** APIR
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
** Hmm? Totee? hahaha.. I'll think about it first. ;)
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
** Oh ok. I didn't know this is not good. Prolly what is up with this number is that... mind your own business! Just that!
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
** I know!
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
** :) ok.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
** I told ya!
27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
** Hopefully!
28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
** Weh? hahaha! di ren!
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
** Correct! Trash 'em
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
** BOW
31. The best is yet to come.
** I know!
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
** yea. and mind you... be fabulous! :)
33. Do the right thing!
** C'mon! you know this is not easy..
34. Call your family often.
** I always do. :)
35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
** I am.
36. Each day give something good to others.
** Sure.. From now on..
37. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
** Ok. I'll try..
38. Share this with someone you care about
** AKEI. :)
** Aww. I'm not into wlaking. I'll pass on this. But yea.. I SMILE :) a lot.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
** I sometimes see myself sitting in silence more than 10 minutes each day. This is when I am working my ass off at the office. Would that be counted? Haha!
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
** check!
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
** OK. will try to practice this.
5. Play more games.
** Like what? I dont have PSP> How's that? LOL
6. Read more books than you did the previous year.
** Err. Am not a book worm. sorry.
7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
** Meditation (X) Yoga (X) Prayer (CHECK)
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
** I would love to do this! :)
9. Dream more while you are awake.
** TRUE!
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
** Wow! Tell me about it! ;)
11. Drink plenty of water.
** AMEN!
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
** For me? Make it 5 :D
13. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
** Err... DND. BIR Mode. LOL
14. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
** Oh Ok.. Sorry babe, I was just reminding you things that should not be done in future, that's why I keep on reminding you bout it. :) Aryt, let's forget about everything in the past. Let's start all over again... :)
15. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
** Great! I'll try to practice this one too.
16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
** AMEN!
17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
** HAHAH! I'm on a diet. I'll pass. haha
18. Smile and laugh more.
** SURE :))
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
** Haters, take the EXIT Door!
20. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
** But ofcourse! I'm a big JOKE right?? LOL
21. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
** APIR
22. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
** Hmm? Totee? hahaha.. I'll think about it first. ;)
23. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
** Oh ok. I didn't know this is not good. Prolly what is up with this number is that... mind your own business! Just that!
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
** I know!
25. Forgive everyone for everything.
** :) ok.
26. What other people think of you is none of your business.
** I told ya!
27. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
** Hopefully!
28. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
** Weh? hahaha! di ren!
29. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
** Correct! Trash 'em
30. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
** BOW
31. The best is yet to come.
** I know!
32. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
** yea. and mind you... be fabulous! :)
33. Do the right thing!
** C'mon! you know this is not easy..
34. Call your family often.
** I always do. :)
35. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
** I am.
36. Each day give something good to others.
** Sure.. From now on..
37. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
** Ok. I'll try..
38. Share this with someone you care about
** AKEI. :)
Jan 17, 2009
one day..
When all I could do is to pamper myself...
After shift, I headed to NuStyle Salon for some pampering. My plan is to have a good massage from ate who has the greatest gift from God in taking care of people's body aches. It turned out me having ...
BODY SCRUB
BODY MASSAGE
LOREAL PROTEIN HAIR TREATMENT
I went home 4:30pm. It was long hours, fine with me. I was able to relax. :)
After shift, I headed to NuStyle Salon for some pampering. My plan is to have a good massage from ate who has the greatest gift from God in taking care of people's body aches. It turned out me having ...
I went home 4:30pm. It was long hours, fine with me. I was able to relax. :)
Jan 16, 2009
Sad
Lately, shopping's been my hobby to avoid thinking about me being alone literally. I am trying my best to deal with the fact that I can not take waiting for him this long. Every time I travel my way to the office, I often imagine things about the past, present and the future. I kinda got goosebumps every time I foresee what might have been if I ditched him right then when we had a row last 2 years, or what could have been if we’re really meant for each other and will get married right after he’ll be dismissed. A lot of things going on in my mind, that sometimes, I opt to not think about because it makes me sick and will might be the reason why I couldn’t make it for work. Sad, that I couldn’t open it to anyone now because I just don’t want to. I have this feeling that people are all fed up with all my rants and I couldn’t afford losing them because they were all sick and tired of me. So, I’d rather keep it within myself and burst it here in my personal space. Lucky me, I found my very own best friend here in the cyber world—BlogSpot. I am so much in pain right now. I do not know what to do to overcome this feeling. I want to die sometimes just to end up the routine I’ve been dealing with for the past 2 years of my life. I wish one day, I’ll just stop ranting about this shit.
Jan 15, 2009
missing piece
I miss you babe so much that yesterday, I found myself bursting into tears and whispering your name. I wished you were here beside me. I wasn't able to sleep well.
Miss you so much. :(
Miss you so much. :(
Jan 12, 2009
What's up?
353 days...
I still have lots of counting days ahead before the next year. 2008 has been actually a stressful year for me. It wasn't that bad. There's still some things I am thankful for. Last year, the house I bought was already finished and ready to occupy. That is the biggest achievement I have so far. Also, I experienced living far from my 'rents, and I still opted to come back home for I know, I still can't live on my own. It's pretty difficult especially I'm dealing with a serious problem about my love life and I do not have anyone to turn to during my down moments. So I'd rather live with my folks than being alone and crazy. LOL. Last year, babe was too serious about getting married, he has plans on his plate and he didn't know I am secretly beggining to plan on my dream wedding as well. It was difficult indeed because it wasn't a joke for us that he is in hell while I am dealing my so-called life in the real world. So, even we are eager to get married and all, we can't do anything but to stay calm and ready ourselves for the final destination.
I have so many plans right now and I am happy that I think I'm on the right track. Though I still don't have any planner yet (SUPER LOL) still I jot down everything so I could see Im on the right track.
Now, I wanted to take life seriously. As a matter of fact I am trying to be more consistent now. WOW! This is a big change for me. Working so hard and being really responsible with work is very very biggie deal for me. I dont actually say, I'm a ridiculous employee but what I'm saying is that, I am quite lazy about work and stuffs. You get what I mean? So, I began to feel more responsible since January. HAH! As of now, I don't have absents yet, even I had colds and cough last week. ;) nice!
OK. I'll stop here. Juday's on TV in Deal or No Deal. Waaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!
Congratulations! She won P1,000,030. Beat that? Hayyy... kung sino mayayaman sila pang nananalo ng ganyan. hehe
Anyhow, I tried looking for the YES! Magazine all over the metro, it's really out of stock. Good thing, Onie has a copy. He gave me his. Thanks babe. Love you much for this! :) I had a peek to Papi's houses, from Tagaytay Highlands, to Corintians, to QC and I forgot the other one. Plus his luxurious cars. Name it! Gosh! Really can't believe he's that rich. Babe was really amazed at the same time inspired with the whole thing. He's now dreaming of having something like that. Why not? hehe.
So, we're near the middle of the month and I am so excited with the payday! LOL hahahaha I don't have any cash now. I miss malls, st. francis sq, and I miss pigging out. LOL. I need to save and continue my promise of saving money this year. I am still thinking of having another way of earning moolah. Hmmm. Any suggestions?
So there yah go, what I have on my invisible planner (LOL) for next week is to visit Flawless, for my facial, some spa near our house for footspa, pedicure, manicure, and hotoil [this is package for only 500 good deal right? ;)] and NUSTYLE salon for body massage (250 another awesome deal, i tell you, soobrang sarap ng massage here and the place was so cozy. LOVES) or I will try their other package, body scrub and body massage (2 hours) for only 600! I can't wait! Know what? This is the only gift I gave myself since November, a birthday/christmas gift to myself. PAMPERING! yah, just that? no new gadget thing for me. I'm not into that anyway. I told myself to visit flawless, noname salon, and NUSTYLE salon, consistently every month or twice. ;) . Of course, I'll still stick with my budget. ;)
Earlier, I visited Onie and I had fun. Until now, I still smell his fragrance and I can't wait to see him again. I miss him dearly.
PS. Please continue to pray for me and my babe. We needed it so much. Thanks to all. :)
LSS: "How sweet it is to be loved by you.." :)
I still have lots of counting days ahead before the next year. 2008 has been actually a stressful year for me. It wasn't that bad. There's still some things I am thankful for. Last year, the house I bought was already finished and ready to occupy. That is the biggest achievement I have so far. Also, I experienced living far from my 'rents, and I still opted to come back home for I know, I still can't live on my own. It's pretty difficult especially I'm dealing with a serious problem about my love life and I do not have anyone to turn to during my down moments. So I'd rather live with my folks than being alone and crazy. LOL. Last year, babe was too serious about getting married, he has plans on his plate and he didn't know I am secretly beggining to plan on my dream wedding as well. It was difficult indeed because it wasn't a joke for us that he is in hell while I am dealing my so-called life in the real world. So, even we are eager to get married and all, we can't do anything but to stay calm and ready ourselves for the final destination.
I have so many plans right now and I am happy that I think I'm on the right track. Though I still don't have any planner yet (SUPER LOL) still I jot down everything so I could see Im on the right track.
Now, I wanted to take life seriously. As a matter of fact I am trying to be more consistent now. WOW! This is a big change for me. Working so hard and being really responsible with work is very very biggie deal for me. I dont actually say, I'm a ridiculous employee but what I'm saying is that, I am quite lazy about work and stuffs. You get what I mean? So, I began to feel more responsible since January. HAH! As of now, I don't have absents yet, even I had colds and cough last week. ;) nice!
OK. I'll stop here. Juday's on TV in Deal or No Deal. Waaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!
Congratulations! She won P1,000,030. Beat that? Hayyy... kung sino mayayaman sila pang nananalo ng ganyan. hehe
Anyhow, I tried looking for the YES! Magazine all over the metro, it's really out of stock. Good thing, Onie has a copy. He gave me his. Thanks babe. Love you much for this! :) I had a peek to Papi's houses, from Tagaytay Highlands, to Corintians, to QC and I forgot the other one. Plus his luxurious cars. Name it! Gosh! Really can't believe he's that rich. Babe was really amazed at the same time inspired with the whole thing. He's now dreaming of having something like that. Why not? hehe.
So, we're near the middle of the month and I am so excited with the payday! LOL hahahaha I don't have any cash now. I miss malls, st. francis sq, and I miss pigging out. LOL. I need to save and continue my promise of saving money this year. I am still thinking of having another way of earning moolah. Hmmm. Any suggestions?
So there yah go, what I have on my invisible planner (LOL) for next week is to visit Flawless, for my facial, some spa near our house for footspa, pedicure, manicure, and hotoil [this is package for only 500 good deal right? ;)] and NUSTYLE salon for body massage (250 another awesome deal, i tell you, soobrang sarap ng massage here and the place was so cozy. LOVES) or I will try their other package, body scrub and body massage (2 hours) for only 600! I can't wait! Know what? This is the only gift I gave myself since November, a birthday/christmas gift to myself. PAMPERING! yah, just that? no new gadget thing for me. I'm not into that anyway. I told myself to visit flawless, noname salon, and NUSTYLE salon, consistently every month or twice. ;) . Of course, I'll still stick with my budget. ;)
Earlier, I visited Onie and I had fun. Until now, I still smell his fragrance and I can't wait to see him again. I miss him dearly.
PS. Please continue to pray for me and my babe. We needed it so much. Thanks to all. :)
LSS: "How sweet it is to be loved by you.." :)
Jan 4, 2009
NEW year, NEW template, FIRST post
Happy 2009 everyone!
So how was my holiday vacation (if you could call it that way)?
It was fine indeed, as expected. Nothing special was happened, except for the two reunions I attended. Christmas with my Deniña fam and New Year with my Britanico clan.
My Deniña clan
That's my Nanay's family
That's me and my sisters with our coolest LOLA
I visited my man last Dec 31. I stayed there for two hours only. I just wanna be with him before the new year starts.
I do not have anything in mind to blog... A while ago I was too excited to rant here, it faded when I started creating an account in Facebook. LOL. aryt. I'll finish first this shit.
Later. :)
So how was my holiday vacation (if you could call it that way)?
It was fine indeed, as expected. Nothing special was happened, except for the two reunions I attended. Christmas with my Deniña fam and New Year with my Britanico clan.
I visited my man last Dec 31. I stayed there for two hours only. I just wanna be with him before the new year starts.
I do not have anything in mind to blog... A while ago I was too excited to rant here, it faded when I started creating an account in Facebook. LOL. aryt. I'll finish first this shit.
Later. :)
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