Yes, me and O are supposed to be getting married last Sat. It was our 10th year Anniversary. It's in our plan to get married that day. :( But I didn't even had a glance of his face that time. :( Wasn't able to visit him. It was intentionally done. :( I don't want to celebrate it anyway. Why would I right? why would we have to make fool of ourselves. We're not together now. We are having our own lives already. But for some sort of reasons.... I couldn't resist but I cried... once again.. :(
I was alone last sat in our home. I didn't get up from bed all day. A lot of things are running in my mind. It's my big sister's birthday as well. Nothing special happened. I was starving so I look for something to fill in my stomach. Then I smoked outside. It was 530pm then. I was looking at the sky, talking to O. Asking how is he doin on this day? And then I asked God on what's the status of my life. What will happen next? It's been 3 years and 3 mos now. Still, O's there. Having the darkest side of his life. Suddenly I realized the sky is dark already. Ambilis ng oras. Gabi na pala. I got inside and took a bath. Meanwhile, R called in my celly.. He's outside our home. I let him enter the house.
He cheered me up. We had a good laugh and had a cute conversation. He left early since his uncle's already waiting for him. We didn't even had a chance to had dinner together. We talked about what happened last Friday night also. He was so sorry of what he did. I don't know, but yea, we're still talking over the phone everyday. We'll see what could happen next.
At night, I was watching Greta on the telly, Carla sent me msg. She wanted to have a last full show--Babe, i love you. So, being so emo that night, I opted to watch movie instead.
It wasn't good though.
I hate that day. april 10, 2010 sucks bigtime! :(
