Change of Plans :)

Done with my Christmas gifts lists for inaanaks/family/loved ones. I was very enthusiastic earlier that I saw myself writing which gift I'd like to give not only to my inaanaks and families but for most of my clan and friends. And now I was like WOAH WOAH WOAH.. This is ridiculous! LOL Am I Santa? Why would I give everyone when I really don't have any budget for that, plus HEY! I've seen the list after, I was like! HOLYMOLYGUACAMOLY! I got everyone a gift, how bout myself???? COME ON! hahaha! Didn't get myself a Birthday gift last month, now I'm not getting myself a Christmas gift AGAIN? hmmmm. Fine, lemme change my list now. LOL

Ang sarap ng weekend

I was envy with Maman and Aaron's home made burger--they call it burgasm, that's why yesterday I made my own. Went to SM Muntinlupa and bought something for burgers, spaghetti and puchero. I'll cook with my fam, Sunday's not for friends--srsly, haven't had any bday celeb with my fam. My nanay is asking me to treat them out, I refuse to do so. Mas masarap ata magbonding sa bahay, no stress. Relax na relax pa. So here's my moment with them. :)

OO alam kong trying hard kumpara dito sa baba! SHET! Pero man, shoot! SOLB SARAP PANALO!

BURGASM by Aaron and Maman

My own version of burgasm, olats sa ichura, mababaog ka naman sa lasa! YUN NA! LOL

We gonna party like it's STILL my BIRTHDAY! LOL

So what now? I've been celebrating my bday for 3 days already and wtf, I haven't accomodated all my friends yet. Not enough moolah, and hell I got no time asking everyone out. So here's my last and final celebration at Central, BF Paranaque. We had a blast! It was fun fun night! CHEERS!

KT AIZA SARAH CARMI TIMMY and RJ

At Starmart, soldiers hills. While waiting for others to arrive. We were I think 15, goodthing Eric brought a van, Rj got his honda, and Poli drove his car as well. We're good and still there's a spare spaces, mind for those who still wanna join our trip? HAH!

Yea, Totee's with us!

I know! We're having our time of our lives here!

Ordered buckets of Redhorse, tons of Badboy pichers, nachos, sisig, bituka ng manok, french fries, fish fillet, lizard, balunbalunan.. Damn how many pulutans do you guys want? LOL

How about a group pic? CHEERS!

Jay Jay with some korean chick. Yeah man, she's hoottt!

While everyone are still sober...

Brian Aizeee Jay Jay and TJ

TJ and Eric

Birthday Girls with Jay Jay the drunken master! LOL

Yup, this is a double celbration of KM and Aiza's Birthday. Her's is 25th of Nov and mine's on the 26th. At least tipid tipid pag nagpainom ;)

Sarah KT Totee Aiza and Jay Jay

Carmi and Timmy made out ;)
(oh what's new guys? hehe)

Who else had made out that night? Hmmmmm. hahaha! I told ya, basta may alak... may balak... Swakto yan men. hahahah! Wow! Let's just say...

What happens at Central, stays at Central. LOL Bora lang teh? hahaha

The BEST bud, SARAH MAE

She's the culprit why I had the means of being friends with these people. I don't regret anything though.. They are all fun and crazy people, that's why I love them. :)

On my way to getting druuuunk... LOL

Srsly, I am drunk not tipsy. I had unlimited shots of badboy and on the latter part I had glasses of Redhorse! WHEW! Since the first time I celebrated my bday, I went back to drinking beers. Shoot! I don't like the taste now, but hell yea! It's beer man, what else could we ask for that night? HEHE!

Told ya, they're getting drunk....

And another one...

Mackie! Shot pa?

We're all done and solb. While in the parking lot...

LOL I am sooo dead. haha!

Jay Jay's knocked out as well as RJ. Hah! Can't believe they were that drunk compared to us girls. We headed to KT's crib others wanna continue the session. But we failed to buy some drinks at Mightee Mart. Anong tanga pa diba? HAHAH. So yea, we called it a night. Eric brought us home. And I felt like heaven again while sleeping... hahaha! sakit sa ulo :)

Thanks everyone who came :)

:: Aiza :: Totee :: RJ :: Sarah :: Carmi :: Timmy :: KM :: Eric :: Jay Jay :: TJ :: KT :: Poli :: Macki :: PJ :: RR and Wife :: Brian :: Gajo ::

Happy Birthday to me! I swear, last na to! :D

Ilang Shat pa?

Last night. I had drinks with Maman, Tony, Aaron. Matador, Redhorse, at Pilsen. Continuation daw ng bday ko. Nabitin sila nun e. sabagay ako din naman bitin nun. LOL Tae. 330am nako umuwi. Edi sige ako na ang lalake. Wala ng humpay ang kakainom. Dahil ba sa ayoko ng idle moment sa ngayon? OO. Ayoko talga. Naiisip lang kita. Napapagod ako isipin ung isa. dahil sa long weekend na to, hindi ko alam kung masaya ako o hindi dahil hindi ikaw ang kasama ko. Tinapos ko na ba ang lahat sa kanya? E pano naman ung sa isa. Magulo naman kase un e. Paparamdam. Pero ganun lang. Ok sasabihin mo, miss moko. Pero iiwan moko sa December. E bakit ganon? I hahang mo lang ako ng ganto. Ngayon pang sinasanay mo nakong anjan ka lagi sa piling ko. Araw araw magkasama tayo. Sabay hihiritan moko sa December wala ka na. Magaaral ka ba ulit o Magtratraining na? Kung dahilan mo, di nako interesado. Ngayon magugulat ka, na tatanggalin ko ang paglalambing mula sa text ko, sa pakikitungo ko sayo, sa kahit ano... Ayoko na muna.. Hindi ka naman din ata apektado. Hihiritan moko kung may masama bakong tinapay sayo? EWAN KO. HINDI KO ALAM ANG SAGOT. Kaya hindi nalang ako nagreply.

Ang lesson jan. Wag kang paparamdam kung wala kang balak na kahit ano. Pero eto ang malupit na totoong totoo...

"Basta may alak, may balak." LOL kay Bri ko nakuha yan. Tawang tawa ako. LOL

So what's up? You haven't send any message mula kaninang umaga. Edi baka ikaw na ang may masamang tinapay saken. Punyeta. Bat kelangang ganyan? Bat ikaw pa. hanep. Alam mong ako ang agrabyado dito kahit sabihin mo pang may O n i e ako. E wala na nga, I am trying to move on. Na punyeta. Ang hirap pala talaga no? Akala ko ikaw ang instrumento para kalimutan ang nakaraan ko. Hindi pala. Hindi ikaw. Nakikisawsaw ka lang ng basta basta. Tiisan ba ang labanan sa bagong larong kinasasangkutan? GORA! ganyanan pala e.

Hala lang ako. kaninang umaga pako online dito. Wala nakong nagawang iba. Pati pagkain na-i-skip ko na. Mamaya may lakad ako. Papainom nanaman pala ako sa mga ibang kabatch ng mga kaibigan ko. Marami nanamang alak. Bubuhos panigurado. Sa sandamakmak na mga barkada ko, bakit pakiramdam ko hello? nagiisa parin ako. Lintek na pagibig yan. Binabadtrip nako masyado.

Mamaya. Sa Central ata kame. Shat shat! Pasahan nanaman ng baso.

Ito na ang pinaka olats na taon for me so far.. Sana naman sa susunod na mga araw, linggo, buwan, at taon... Sana naman.. Hindi na ganto ka-olats ang buhay ko. Wala ka, wala sya. Wala lahat. Ako lang at ako lang kahit ang dami kong kaibigan..

Bloody Birthday

I had a pre birthday celeb last Nov 21 with my HS batchmates. It was cool! I miss these guys and girls. We went to Antakya then left for Aplaya. It was fun. BLOODY FUN! LOL





Thanks for those who came, sa mga hindi... Tara! shat! Bitin e... heheh

Aiza - Bithday Birthdayan lang
Carla - Tamed. In fairness. Salutatorian ka paren ng batch. Ikaw na!
Marla - Star of the night ka chong! Bongga mo lang! Kinuhanan ng video ung moment mo sa stage nung kano. TARAY!
Oge - Cinderella (what's new dude? CHOS! Aga lang. 1030pm nagbounce)
Via - Photographer! Goodjob! Tibay mo lang men. Kelan ka ba talaga tatamaan? Edi ikaw na gumawa ng redhorse kung ganon.. haha
Kai - Tamang chill si kyana neto. Apir! salamat sa pagpunta. MWah!
Chique - Eto na ang may screen name talaga! Laftrip kayo ni marla! Pero astig! dumating ka. Salamat sa pagupdate ng facebook ng 230 ng madaling araw no? Bibo mo lang e! LOL
Totee - late late, ako tuloy kumanta. Ew lang. haha
Gilbert - Akala ko ba friend mo si Gio? Asan ang discount dude? haha! CHOS!
Eli - Ayus lang chong. Ang saya naman natin e! hehe
Maman - Wasak ka nalang lagi. Ewan ko sayo!
Tobs - Looking hot pare ah! haha charing lang!
Mark - Pumayat ka talaga pare, walang biro... hehe
Fab - Akalain mo un. Salamat sa pagdrop by.. :)
Aaron - Ang bata bata mo pa. may wedding ring ka na!
Tyron - Easy lang brad. Hehehe. Salamat sa pagpunta
Yebou - YOU'RE THE BEST TL YEBOU! mwah!

I won't forget that night. Bloody night. Pero keri lang. Masaya naman chong! Salamat! CHEERS!

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Sana - Updharmadown
Nilibot na ang buong mundo
Di pa rin ako nakukuntento
Makakahanap ng ipapalit
Nang walang babala
Lumipas ay nagbabalik pala

Nalilito na ako hindi na dapat gan'to
Nakaraan ay natapos at napagdaanan na
Bakit na sisindak pa sa t'wing naaalala
Matatauhan na wala ka na pala

Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong pait ang matamis at aking susubukan
Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan

Hindi nga nagtagal ang pagpapanggap na 'to
Kaliwa at kanan harap at likod ano mang anggulo
Titigan ay bumibigay ako

Damdamin ay kay bigat
Naisip na ang lahat
Wala na ba talaga akong magagawa pa

Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong tamis ang mapait at aking iiwasan
Walang silbi ang narito
'Di mo na kailangan

Wala na bang makakapantay at di na ba dapat pang maghintay
Ako lang ba ang nagkasala?
Kumakapit sa natitirang sana.

Kung babalik ka pa hanggang kailan kaya?
Ako dito mag aabang na magdutong na ang patlang
Ang kulang ay mapupunan wala nang makahahadlang
Wala na yatang hihigit sa pangungulila ko
Iba na bang nagbibigay ng mga kailangan mo?

Oh sana
Kay higpit ng kapit sa unan kagabi ko
Oh sana
Inaasam muling makatabi at mahalik sana

26 -- Big Box vs Tiny Lil Box

You know I'm working on a graveyard shift, and when I say graveyard, this actually implies around 3am or so... Meaning I'm gonna be celebrating the first few hours of my birthday on the road. :)

So yea, here's what happened last Nov 26.

Woke up with my phone ringing at exactly 12 midnight.. Of course I'm in a snoozing mode then.. T a t u greeted me and said "ako ba unang grumit sayo?" Then I'm like, "hindi ako sure. Bago pa man nagring phone ko, madami ng text akong di pa nababasa.." He was telling me, what he did was quite different from others since yeah, he did it at exactly 12 midnight. Fine with me. Mushy throne is all yours! :D

So I went to sleep again and tried hitting the shower after an hour. I received tons of birthday greetings and a million thanks to all who rememebered my day. :) THANK YOU SO MUCH. In the office, we planned to have a nice breakfast, but then again.. Everyone is so busy that we can't even try to pee. So I bought a yellowcab pizza for everyone. HAH! Too wise that the pizza arrived when most of the people ended their shifts and went home. :) Ooopsie. Sorry. HAHA!

Let me give you some side stories before my bday.. Martin texted askin what's my wish aside from my ultimate wish which is O n i e's freedom.. So I replied.. If I won't be able to have that ultimate wish, I wish for "the one" to come by really soon.. So he replied.. "Hirap naman sige tulog nako. I'll meet you at 6am."

Came 6am, I'm in the middle of a meeting, Martin's texting me he's already at starbs. I couldn't go out of my boss' office so I said, I'll be a lil late. I drop by in starbs Emerald ave. at 7am. He gave me a kiss, a caramel frappe and a pack of mild seven cigar. I thought it was just it, then he handed me a big white box, literally big that I thought it was a wedding gown pero mini mini. LOL So I was touched. it didn't ended there. He gave me a note, before I opened the box. The note says...



SO OK. He zipped down his jacket and there I saw a pink ribbon around his neck. OK. I don't know how should I react on that, but yeah I understood he was telling me... He's "the one". I felt a bit kilig.. But at the back of my mind.. I wish, I really really wish.. It was O n i e who I am talking with :( In all fairness with Martin, he didn't gave up on me since SHE-MARTIN-AIZA issue. MARTIN will always have a space in my heart. He's a best bud, a husband material, and very very very nice guy, whom I can't imagine hurting once again for the nth time. He don't deserve me at all. I'm a sick bastard girl who's madly inlove with a certain prisoner and doesn't have the guts to stand by her own and face the fuckin' reality. I can not promise Martin that he could trust on me if ever we'll give another chance with our relationship. So yea, right now? I don't want to elaborate to what's goin on..

Fast forward...
Here's a sneak peek with Martin's gift. It's lovely! It's awesome! AND IT'S MANGO! Thanks buddy!






So I went home after my shift ends at 12nn. T a t u and I watched New Moon. It was all good. I'm with "Team Jacob" LOL because of the 8 packs man. I was totally drooling.... LOL Then we had some sticks of yosi at the nearby store pagpasok sa village. We hang out there, it started raining kase. OLATS. So I went home. Everyone greeted me and saw martin's gift. Meanwhile, K M arrived accompanied by tata. They were holding a cake, 2 balloons, the green one has a print of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and the red one says.. "I LOVE YOU", a love letter and a tiny box.

Here's a sneak peek again:




I saw this coming already, but told him I would not accept any ring on my birthday if he's really planning to give one. Come on! We are on a break then what? Askin me to marry him with his situation? Well, to tell you the truth... I'm a bit annoyed because it wasn't him who gave the tiny lil box. I'll be hypocrite if I tell ya I didn't like it at all. Of course I was touched, felt really kilig and all, the only prob is that... The man doesn't exist right that moment. OK let me give you some descriptions about this ring. It's not a fancy engagement ring all girls wanted to have. It has an imprint of A I Z A and O N I E. I dont like it really.. What I wanted to have is something like this....


OR THIS...


Ok hahahha. I'm just being brat here. I know those are too much but yea, every girl deserves an engagement ring like that. :) I'm not planning of wearing the ring O n i e gave, my parents were joking me around about it though. Engaged na daw ako. Hehe. I just told them, how in the world would that happen, if we're on a break. :) hehe

I watched tv with my siblings until I saw myself wearing the ring till I fell asleep. :) Naexperience ko rin palang maengage for 8 hours. :)

My Birthday wasn't that special. I wasn't happy at all.

Kalokohan

Yan ang sabi sa tarot ko for today.

Surprises, unexpected encounters, intuition, easy-going conviviality – it’s all there to make this a perfect day in your romantic life. Whether you live as a couple or on your own, this wonderful day will bring you plenty of happiness. Under the aegis of Judgement and the Pope you might well receive a proposal from your loved one today – or a declaration of friendship. Your career is on the up and you may demand a change of status or even – why not – a move abroad. The World offers new opportunities and Judgment grants you greater responsibility and discipline. Keep an ear to the ground for new proposals you could take on, because they could contribute to your personal fulfillment in the professional arena.

Matagal tagal narin akong hindi nagchecheck ng tarot ko. Sa pagkaburaot ko sa mundo, naisipan kong aba onga no, nalimutan ko ng dati akong naging fan neto. Bakit hindi natin tignan kung talagang nagtutugma kung ano mga pinagsasabi ng punyetang tarot nato.

HANGGANG SA.....
Ayan! Lumabas na ginagago nga lang ako nyan. Pinasasabik at pinakikilig lang ako dati. Minsan pinangingiti dahil mistulang totoo lahat ng sinasabi nya. Pero ngayon? Ano? Ako pa ba gagaguhin ng tarot na yan? Lahat ng sinabi nya maganda e. E ni walang magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Ni isa, wala. Ni kakapiranggot, ipinagkait. Kahit ang ngumiti, parang ipinagdamot narin saken.

Kaya wag na kayong maniwala sa mga kashitang mga ganyan. Niloloko lang kayo nyan. Parang ako, minsan nya rin akong naloko.

someday

Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you

Someday someday

Good times starts now

I screwed up many times in my 25 years of my life and now I'm gonna tell everyone that I screwed the holy shit out of my life once again! Yeah, we're done! We're through! We're finish! All the dramas, all the fucking shits happened with my godamn life's now over! FINALLY! (Well, I'm just talking with myself here, I'm not sure if he ever knows what the fuck I'm feeling right now) I already told her sis though, I mean come on! Everyone's telling me what to do. Even her sis told me she'll completely understand if I'll ditch her bro. For God sake! 2009's almost over. Then, what now?

No argues. Full of hard feelings. This is what I'm trying to avoid before that the endless love I have for him will turn out disaster one day. HATRED. I've been cursing him million times in my head right this moment! You, sonofabiiitch! I f*ckin' hate you for making my life soooo miserable! I was sooo effin blind before! I still want you to get out of that holy shit soon though. I'll see when I fuckin see you!

Now I got some great news! I'll be having a party on Sat in Central BBQ Grill, BF, Parañaque! Come with me and let's fuck up the night! CHEERS!