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I've been waiting for the right time to publish this new entry. It's been a while since I had an update about life. A lot of things has been goin on lately, even before Bora getaway... Like weeks weeks before that. I don't know if I'm really feeling happy about my feelings or my current status shit. I don't even know if I'm in the right path. It's just that, I wasn't expecting these things will happen. But, the least I could do now is to go with the flow and make the most out of it til the day we could say .... it's over. Not that I have any idea when would that be. I just don't wanna think this has to end. Coz obviously, I'm loving it! Nevertheless, if I'm to think of the real relationship I'm into, I could probably say... I need some space, I need this time, I need to rest for a while and I need to get out from it and hopefully I could really say, FINALLY! I'm done! Whew!

That was kind of harsh. :( Of course, I really don't mean what I said on the latter part. The fact that while writing this, I am a bit annoyed with myself. Why do I have to trash out all the good and bad memories we have had knowing that I am talking about the man of my life, the one and only person I wanna be with for the rest of my life, the reason why I still keep the faith and the reason why I wanna start my day right. Sigh :( This is very very frustrating. I don't wanna sound like I'm regretting every single shit we've been through. Thing is, there are times, really, :( we just need to stop and think about our own self. SELFISH? Oh yes! I've never been like that. For the fuckin longest time... Haaaay :(

People were surprised when they knew I am currently (how do you call this?) infatuated (i guess) with a new dude. *blush* You know the feeling of sleeping every night holding your celly with a big smile in your face while thinking a lot of "what might have beens"? Sigh.. This new dude is a good catch. A big fish prolly. LOL. Literally? GIANT! LOL. he's waaaay too far from my man. He has this extra sweetness that sometimes annoys me in a way. He lessen the mushiness now though. HAH! As requested. LOL! Now, I can say, he is a part of my everyday life. He never fails to send I miss yous and I love yous. I know it's too soon to feel that, I don't know.. and I don't care if he's just making fun of me. I careless! TAPOS! I keep on tellin him to control his feelings though. Since yea, I am very vocal about my feelings for my real man, you know, I'm super duper madly in love with Scofield. HAH! Suddenly, my attention diverted to this guy which made my situation crazier than before. I know how much I do love my man, I consider him my life, but then again, posible pala to. Seryoso. Hindi ko akalain :( I am happy though, I don't wanna end this shit but til when we'll continue this love affair?

I am beggining to miss his voice, his smiles, his laughs, his pambobola, his pagaangas, his presence... :( If this is what they call falling in love... I think I'm getting there.. :(