Have been in a long relationship for the longest time. I admit, everything wasn't perfect then. But I was happy indeed! happy figuring out if this journey we are dealing is really for the both of us, if it's really worth it to hang on or stay, if we are really destined together. We used to have fights and petty quarels before. For the longest time, I felt that I was the only one who's giving such love that everyone is looking for until the destiny find its way where he could finally feel how much i am giving or how much I am suffering.
My life was an open book to all those who know me well, wasn't my idea to make it too open though, it's really an open book for those who witnessed what's happening. It's actually hard to keep the situation within myself or with the immediate family members only, somewhat we knew everything will be spilled out as time goes by. It was no good to tell everyone about it. Because the scenario was too sentitive to share yet, eventually I came out from my acting drama that i was feeling OKAY and GOOD at that time. It happened that I can no longer take what's going on so I opt to share it with my folks. Luckily and with all the blessings from the Lord, they understood where I am coming from at that time. Knowing my rents, you won't figure out how did i manage to explain everything without them seeing becoming hysterical. :)
We are just like those normal boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. He's my best bud and my shock absorber in all aspects. Sometimes, I do have these urge of looking beyond our relationship. Yes! We get along, but I always have these thoughts of him not thinking about our future or even getting married soon. He doesn't have any idea about it since, yeah! I don't wanna pressure him as well as I don't want to get disappointed at some point. So, what happened for the longest time was only me whose hoping of walking through the isle together with all the important people in my life including him waiting for me beside his folks at the front of the priest.
People keep on giving advices whenever I am having doubts of my feelings. A lot from his friends told me to get rid of him because what his doing were not so good not only by the law but also in the eyes of The Great One above. A lot from my girl friends were telling me to break up with me. Their reasons? They got tons! and this page won't be enough for the list. :D I was frustrated then, but then again, as they say, "At the end of the day, it'll be my call". Sure!
So there, that's why I'm here still hanging around. Nothing to do but frown. hahaha! that's a lyrics from a song. Seriously though, I stick with him, because I love him dearly and the same goes with him. I know he loves me. he really does. We're very positive about it.
For so many reasons I love this man, not only because he makes me smile, but because I think he's the ONE. (naks!) not only because he treated me nice, but because I can see my future with him. I got to have this picture of my future living with him in one roof and we got kids. :) I love this man, because he completes me. :)
There are some ways to figure out you are still inlove:
♥ if you couldn't stay home without him by your side.
♥ if you still put a smile in your face regardless of what's going on with your relationship.
♥ if you don't allow wrong things he's been up to.
♥ if you are willing to risk hard things for the sake of love.
♥ if the kilig is still there despite all the situation going on.
I must say, these could also be cause of stupidity. (toinks!) BUT we have to consider things such these for us to know if we are in the right track though:
♥ if both parties are willing to compromise whenever problem occurs.
♥ if both parties are following some of THE RULES.
♥ if both of you are considerate.
♥ if God is still at the center of your relationship
some pointers to consider if you would want to break up with your partner.
♥ if you're no longer happy with the situation
♥ if you are just forcing yourself to do the deed just for the sake of doing it.
♥ if you no longer learn something new with each other.
I could be a love guru at times, but I tell you I'm still in the midst of my searching. Searching for for rights answers to sooo many questions in my mind.
I am inlove with the word LOVE. get it? yeah! am so much inlove. And I am loving the feeling :) I do hope we'll end with each other. :) I do hope I wouldn't hear again the i-told-you-so sermon part from my friends and folks!
*keep my fingers cross*
Happy weekend everyone :)
