04.10.2009

I had enough posts about you and me. Seems that I am just doing this for the sake of making this day as special as I want it to be. Last year, say December 2008, I was thinking how would I make our 9th year really really special. It's not suppose to be like how we celebrate our monthsaries. In fairness with you, you never never fail to greet me every 10th of the month since we started this relationship. You even make time and give effort to make me feel special. Unfortunately, all the good memories ended when you left. It's hard when all I can do is to greet you by mind. I don't know how to describe this f'n feeling, but yea, somehow I am getting used to it. Living without you is like living in hell. I would not want to elaborate on things, since you already knew how much I am suffering. So, tell me I'm being mushy here, but I'll give you some deatils on how I'd like to celebrate this day. That is---if time and the situation permits us. SIGH

If we are in a normal world. This must be the scenario:
April 9, 2009 - My man's definitely drunk together with friend's celebrating some dude's birthday. yea. every single day, he got a friend who celebrates bday! haha! I'm used to it, dont worry. It's cool though, I dont bother fighting over it, coz it's non-sense that he'll bring up thousands of names which I don't know. It's pretty obvious he's making up some dude's name, to tell you frankly, I dont give a damn, to whether he is lying or not, it's just that, he's a guy, he loves alcohol, violence, drugs, girls, and shits. So I'm OK with it! LOL crazy me? NAMAN! Hindi lang siguro talaga ako mahigpit. E kaya nga nagkaganto e. YUN!

So there, meaning he couldn't afford to get up early and surprise me for whatever plans he has in mind the next day. LOL better yet, i'll do the honor. :)

April 10, 2009 (6am) - I'll manage to bring him cafe mocha all the way from starbucks northgate alabang. Paborito ni matias java chip frappe e since laseng sya, kelangan nya ng hot. :) i mean. extra hot.

I'll wake him up greeting him with a smooch, coffee at the right hand and his car keys on the left. :) will let him drive going to some place that has breezy air, and coconut trees. A place that is very very far from the city. I don't have anything specific in mind yet, but I'd like to go to a place which we could just use his car so there will be no hassle when it comes to transpo. malamang batangas to? yea could be. anywhere. basta kasama ko sya. YUN! We'll check in then and let him take a shower. Di pa sya naliligo e. LOL I'll go out and buy some stuff that i could cook, probably sinigang. Yun lang naman ang alam ko e. haha! Ipagluluto ko si matias. then we'll start to converse! lagi naman e. Di kame nagsawang magkwentuhan. Ang sayang kausap nun. Parang ako lang! haha After which, we'll go by the shore with redhorse on our hands. LOL. may redhorse naman pala. and the story continues there..

Happy 9th year Anniversary babe! It sucks that I couldn't go there and be with you today :(

I love you so..

`madam