Changes

A lot of things have changed lately, and I'm pretty not use to it. Knowing me, changes--it makes me a lil sick. Remember my blog about "the cafe mocha thing"? Yea, things in my life are actually steady, in so many ways. When it comes to work--almost 5 years baby! Talking about love life--man, I gave all the 9 years of my life! Yea, I'm that stupid, or probably I should say again, I'm afraid of constant changes. I'm longing for comfort zone that I'm use to, and now I learned it's all bullshit. I should've done this before. I should've stop being afraid of what might have been. I'm not an organized kind of person, I actually don't plan ahead of time. I don't have this bucket list I should experience before I die. I am just a simple girl who live in my simple world that actually wanted a simple yet lovely life. I only need a real happiness. Been battling for it for the longest time. Been waiting for it to happen. Been seeking for it for almost everyday. It has been a rough and cool 26 years of ride, now I decided to stop and think of changes..

7 days from now, I'll step out of this building bringing all my stuffs with me. Yes, I resigned from BR@Nd3rs. And it happened so quickly. The process was 3 days only! Can you imagine that? Aisa, my dear friend here decided to move on and she did it when I was out of the office. I was all stressed out when I heard about the news, the next thing I knew, I was giving out my resume to an ex-officemate. I was a kind of nervous doing that. Yes, I know I planned of leaving this company for quite some time now, but not this soon. I got tons of pending things to do at that time but my mind was telling me then, oh screw it! Leave and let it go! There's so much life out there! So yea, I made a decision. I'm leaving.

Lucky me, same day I gave my resume to an ex-officemate I got a call from the HR inviting me for an interview for the next day. I obliged. To make the long story short, I got the job! And it's waaay better than what I have here. Thank good God! Goodbye graveyard, goodbye team, goodbye boss, I WAS NICE, working with you! LOL No, seriously, it was nice working with all of you here! I'm glad I was part of the team and thank you for that almost 5 long years. I learned tons of shits and stuffs! Indeed, THANK YOU!

On the other hand, love life's been so-so. We had this kind of what-the-fuck-are-you-trying-to-break-up-with-me-again issue. HAH! I am feeling so young when I'm with him. We're like highschoolers ya know. I got to experience tons of first times with him. But for some reasons, I'm again feeling afraid of letting him go. I told ya before, he's similar to ex. But this guy, I think, is getting worse than ex. We've been dating for only a month now and I must say, I need to ask for his secretary's permission to talk to him so I could have his full time with me. LOL yea, this guy is busy knowing he's still not working full time. Last week, he went to work once. DAMN! isang beses lang sa isang linggo! He's drunk last Monday, Thursday and last night. OK. I should have drive him to rehab i guess. I have so many issues why the fuck I can't stand him at times. I am trying to control my feelings because I don't want to fall in love but I guess I am. And this sucks! I can't seem to find a replacement for On!e's position now. I know this new dude is not the one. He isn't. He will not be. ever. :( and I'm sad he can't be. sana sya nalang, kung pwede lang.

Life's too unfair, why do we need to bump into each other and see a potential in this relationship if we all knew this might not work in the future. why the fuck? it's getting confusing and desperate again.

Now, I'm all back to the thought of seeing On!e nalang.. Babe, you come home, be here as fast as you could. please.. :(

Farewell Aisa

OK, this is it. It's Aisa's last day today. She even logged in early so she could exit early as well. :( I'm half sad and half happy because of this. This isle wouldn't be complete now that she's leaving. This isle that is surrounded by row 4 peeps will definitely be dull and boring. Aisa's the clown here, without her, we'll be completely lost (wow! e may ganon? NAMAN!) and miserable. On the other hand, I'm very happy for her because she has decided to leave and follow her heart of working from home. She wants to do different things and oh, please visit her online store at ebay and archiveclothing.multiply.com.

Happy Shopping! ;)

Andito na si Chito, si Chito Miranda....

Edi ako na tamang papansin kay PAROKYA! I love you sir! You really made my day! wooohooo!

1.5 Weeks and I'm done... [eom]

A simple wish, yet I failed to get...

People think I got 2 boyfriends at the same time. That's not true. I don't even have one right now. I celebrated Valentine's Day with my fam (oh I never celebrate vday even I got a boyf before) by day and had a few drinks at night with some friends whom I'm not close with. No one gave me something that day. This some dude told me, he should've given me roses if I kept my promise of being with him that night. He planned of going to MOA and watch the fireworks display shit there. The flowers were ready but I didn't show up. It's all good. I'm not a flower fan but yea, just like all girls, I have this smile whenever a guy gave me a flower for some sort of reasons. I don't know what's with flowers but yea, it's sweet. Only thing I hate about it--the price! Too expensive!

So yea, my only wish that day is to receive something from Krispy Kreme. I love it so much. I still remember, M*rtin used to bring 2 boxes of Krispy Kreme everytime he visits me in my house. :) You know, I could finish 3 original glazed doughnuts in one sitting. The smell, and oohh... the soft bread.. I'm craving now!

Look at those, YUM!

And how bout these? Who would say no with these? BOX OF MINIS, 20's for 299!

The most sinful Krispy Kreme Doughnuts, Chocolate Kreme Cakes made with Oreo cookies! Ohh lala! *CRAVING*

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Ok, scrap that! I changed my mind... I should've celebrated my Valentine's day with...

...while having a good laugh with Barney Stinson of How I Met Your Mother.

A gift for myself

I didn't get myself any gift last November, my Birthday. I just had a blast with my million friends. Throwing parties--that was I think my gift for myself. I'm not a typical person who would make myself happy by means of material things. Having people around me, having a nice chat over some drinks, catching up, bonding and getting drunk til morning... That would made my day. Yes, I'm that shallow. I don't even got myself anything last Christmas as well. I'm not a techie person too. I don't have the courage learning on how to use new stuffs. haha! Too lazy. But now, while everyone is busy with their own lives. People got tons of plans because it's summer now. My life had been twisted for quite sometime... I don't know who else to turn to. One Wednesday afternoon, I found myself buying something for myself. Wasn't that pricey, but yea.. it's awesome!

Hello, Samsung Star! :)

Leaving me...

I am not in the mood for work. I don't like going to work. I think I'm about to quit. I'll miss ipac. I don't want her to leave. I'll miss her definitely. Seems like there's no reason for me to go to work now. I don't have many friends in the office. We weren't that uber close. But she's one of my buddies here and it'll be different once she's gone. :(

I need some frap now to lighten up my mood. Something that would make me smile, better if I could see you. Yes, you...

Would you mind?

Wag mokong iwan...

Yan ang sinabi mo bago natin ibaba ang telepono.

Gusto kong sundin ka. pero ano nalang ang buhay na gusto mong mangyari habang kasama moko. I've told you this so many times. It's not always about happy life. We have to face the reality babe. Yea, I'm happy when you're around. I feel so contented when we're together. I feel the joy I am looking for. We are actually having the best time of our lives. But, it's not what I really want if we'll look into the deepest side of this relationship. What we have is for short term basis. You don't have any plans at all. What you're trying to show me is the present. Just that. No plans and all that. We can not continue this with that godamn scenario. You told me that's you. You're actually trying to show me the real you. OK i get it. I can accept the fact that you are totally ruined. Your life is such a mess--What I see, is what I get. Babe, you can't say I'm afraid to enter such life like yours. My past was worst than you ever thought of. I was in hell and I somewhat embraced it with my whole heart and soul. My past didn't become a hindrance for me and ex to continue what life's treating us. I didn't gave up easily. I didn't stop. What I'm trying to imply here is that... You can't say I can't handle this situation you are into right now. You're saying you're such a waste, you're full of crap, and I'm just the only right thing happened in your life. That came from you and I suggest you should grab this opportunity since I'm still around. Help yourself. Try to fix yourself. I can't do this alone. You need to compromise. Things aren't that easy. No one said living life is godamn easy. This is your second chance babe. I'm not doing this for this fucked up relationship. I'm doing this to help you. This is for you. I'm not even thinking of myself anymore. I'm used to it anyway. I know I can handle myself. I know you need someone like me, but for the love of God, help yourself. No one could fix yourself but YOU. I'm just one of the instruments here in earth to help you. It's not yet the end of the world. God is still giving you chances. Grab 'em. I hope you've learned tons of lessons from your past. I can't fix this alone. You have to be with me..

Let's do this one step at a time. Stand up and face the world. Fight and live life to the fullest. We could be happy at the same time functional. Do not just sit and relax. There's so much into this world that we need to encounter. We're just in our half of our lives. Or prolly we haven't started yet.

You can always count on me. I can stay as long as you want me to, but please try to show me you're willing to compromise. I've done my part babe. Do yours. From there, let's see what will happen next. I hope you really mean when you say you love me.

Think about this cliche:
Kailangan moko kase mahal moko, o mahal moko dahil kailangan moko?

I'll give you time to think. Get back to me when you're ready... I'm just a text away. You know where to find me babe... :)

Miss you too.

Images I got from Tumblr

Yung totoo? MISMO!!

San bako dito? hahaha! Funny! IT? Bantay ng net cafe? Medtech? Drug pusher! hahaha! Yan yan! Management naman tinapos ni ex. di naman medtech! LOL Wow masccom, bugaw? Totee! Alam na! hahaha
Of what? well, srsly? I AM! :
He just did :) ♥ Thanks babe :) ♥

Super thanks! ♥
this is waaay too sweet :) ♥

LOL for this! haha

Panoorin ko kaya to? I like Kimerald though.. They're really look cute together. :)

Ouch! hahaha! Iritang irita ako sa ganyang mga sagot na K. LOL. Try mo lang isagot saken yan. ewan ko nalang. LOL

E yung ang emo neto? Pero syang tunay! NYETA!
LOLLOLOLOL hahaha! Taena! wag kase kayong mangelam! LOL
HAHAHA! sorry na! gravy palang ulam na e! Only in da Phils!
YUN NAMAN! Boom!
Me wants this now na!!!!

Not a good start

I missed my inaanak's 3rd Birthday. It was an emergency. Kelly's at the hospital right now. :( I hope he'll get better soon. Ninang Damba's missing you lil boy. :( I'm so sad for Kelly's condition. :(

So I have 2 gifts for Lila now. My gift last Christmas and now my gift for her Bday. Was wondering how will I give her these? Hmmm...

On the side note:
I'm not expecting too much from this new relationship, but yea, I can see some consistency going on. I thought we'll not surpass a week or two of togetherness haha. But now, we're still here.. I don't know. But sure! I'll hang on. Stay calm and be with you as long as you want me to stay. As long as you think we're okay. As long as we think this is going to be fine... I'll stay. :)

I'm missing On*e though. I finally had the guts of visiting him earlier. Oh I mean yesterday. I was too brave to face him. I even told him what's going on with me. :) He asked me why do I need to tell him where infact he doesn't need to know because we're through already.. Well I have so many reasons why I went there...

~ I miss him
~ I want to know what's going on with him
~ I want to ask how was the case
~ I just couldn't hide it, yes! I still love him. DAMN!