I was envy with Maman and Aaron's home made burger--they call it burgasm, that's why yesterday I made my own. Went to SM Muntinlupa and bought something for burgers, spaghetti and puchero. I'll cook with my fam, Sunday's not for friends--srsly, haven't had any bday celeb with my fam. My nanay is asking me to treat them out, I refuse to do so. Mas masarap ata magbonding sa bahay, no stress. Relax na relax pa. So here's my moment with them. :)
Nov 29, 2009
We gonna party like it's STILL my BIRTHDAY! LOL
So what now? I've been celebrating my bday for 3 days already and wtf, I haven't accomodated all my friends yet. Not enough moolah, and hell I got no time asking everyone out. So here's my last and final celebration at Central, BF Paranaque. We had a blast! It was fun fun night! CHEERS!
At Starmart, soldiers hills. While waiting for others to arrive. We were I think 15, goodthing Eric brought a van, Rj got his honda, and Poli drove his car as well. We're good and still there's a spare spaces, mind for those who still wanna join our trip? HAH!
At Starmart, soldiers hills. While waiting for others to arrive. We were I think 15, goodthing Eric brought a van, Rj got his honda, and Poli drove his car as well. We're good and still there's a spare spaces, mind for those who still wanna join our trip? HAH!
Yea, Totee's with us!
I know! We're having our time of our lives here!
I know! We're having our time of our lives here!
Ordered buckets of Redhorse, tons of Badboy pichers, nachos, sisig, bituka ng manok, french fries, fish fillet, lizard, balunbalunan.. Damn how many pulutans do you guys want? LOL
While everyone are still sober...
Birthday Girls with Jay Jay the drunken master! LOL
Yup, this is a double celbration of KM and Aiza's Birthday. Her's is 25th of Nov and mine's on the 26th. At least tipid tipid pag nagpainom ;)
Yup, this is a double celbration of KM and Aiza's Birthday. Her's is 25th of Nov and mine's on the 26th. At least tipid tipid pag nagpainom ;)
Carmi and Timmy made out ;)
(oh what's new guys? hehe)
Who else had made out that night? Hmmmmm. hahaha! I told ya, basta may alak... may balak... Swakto yan men. hahahah! Wow! Let's just say...
The BEST bud, SARAH MAE
She's the culprit why I had the means of being friends with these people. I don't regret anything though.. They are all fun and crazy people, that's why I love them. :)
(oh what's new guys? hehe)
Who else had made out that night? Hmmmmm. hahaha! I told ya, basta may alak... may balak... Swakto yan men. hahahah! Wow! Let's just say...
What happens at Central, stays at Central. LOL Bora lang teh? hahaha
She's the culprit why I had the means of being friends with these people. I don't regret anything though.. They are all fun and crazy people, that's why I love them. :)
On my way to getting druuuunk... LOL
Srsly, I am drunk not tipsy. I had unlimited shots of badboy and on the latter part I had glasses of Redhorse! WHEW! Since the first time I celebrated my bday, I went back to drinking beers. Shoot! I don't like the taste now, but hell yea! It's beer man, what else could we ask for that night? HEHE!
Srsly, I am drunk not tipsy. I had unlimited shots of badboy and on the latter part I had glasses of Redhorse! WHEW! Since the first time I celebrated my bday, I went back to drinking beers. Shoot! I don't like the taste now, but hell yea! It's beer man, what else could we ask for that night? HEHE!
LOL I am sooo dead. haha!
Jay Jay's knocked out as well as RJ. Hah! Can't believe they were that drunk compared to us girls. We headed to KT's crib others wanna continue the session. But we failed to buy some drinks at Mightee Mart. Anong tanga pa diba? HAHAH. So yea, we called it a night. Eric brought us home. And I felt like heaven again while sleeping... hahaha! sakit sa ulo :)
Thanks everyone who came :)
Thanks everyone who came :)
:: Aiza :: Totee :: RJ :: Sarah :: Carmi :: Timmy :: KM :: Eric :: Jay Jay :: TJ :: KT :: Poli :: Macki :: PJ :: RR and Wife :: Brian :: Gajo ::
Happy Birthday to me! I swear, last na to! :D
Nov 28, 2009
Ilang Shat pa?
Last night. I had drinks with Maman, Tony, Aaron. Matador, Redhorse, at Pilsen. Continuation daw ng bday ko. Nabitin sila nun e. sabagay ako din naman bitin nun. LOL Tae. 330am nako umuwi. Edi sige ako na ang lalake. Wala ng humpay ang kakainom. Dahil ba sa ayoko ng idle moment sa ngayon? OO. Ayoko talga. Naiisip lang kita. Napapagod ako isipin ung isa. dahil sa long weekend na to, hindi ko alam kung masaya ako o hindi dahil hindi ikaw ang kasama ko. Tinapos ko na ba ang lahat sa kanya? E pano naman ung sa isa. Magulo naman kase un e. Paparamdam. Pero ganun lang. Ok sasabihin mo, miss moko. Pero iiwan moko sa December. E bakit ganon? I hahang mo lang ako ng ganto. Ngayon pang sinasanay mo nakong anjan ka lagi sa piling ko. Araw araw magkasama tayo. Sabay hihiritan moko sa December wala ka na. Magaaral ka ba ulit o Magtratraining na? Kung dahilan mo, di nako interesado. Ngayon magugulat ka, na tatanggalin ko ang paglalambing mula sa text ko, sa pakikitungo ko sayo, sa kahit ano... Ayoko na muna.. Hindi ka naman din ata apektado. Hihiritan moko kung may masama bakong tinapay sayo? EWAN KO. HINDI KO ALAM ANG SAGOT. Kaya hindi nalang ako nagreply.
Ang lesson jan. Wag kang paparamdam kung wala kang balak na kahit ano. Pero eto ang malupit na totoong totoo...
"Basta may alak, may balak." LOL kay Bri ko nakuha yan. Tawang tawa ako. LOL
So what's up? You haven't send any message mula kaninang umaga. Edi baka ikaw na ang may masamang tinapay saken. Punyeta. Bat kelangang ganyan? Bat ikaw pa. hanep. Alam mong ako ang agrabyado dito kahit sabihin mo pang may O n i e ako. E wala na nga, I am trying to move on. Na punyeta. Ang hirap pala talaga no? Akala ko ikaw ang instrumento para kalimutan ang nakaraan ko. Hindi pala. Hindi ikaw. Nakikisawsaw ka lang ng basta basta. Tiisan ba ang labanan sa bagong larong kinasasangkutan? GORA! ganyanan pala e.
Hala lang ako. kaninang umaga pako online dito. Wala nakong nagawang iba. Pati pagkain na-i-skip ko na. Mamaya may lakad ako. Papainom nanaman pala ako sa mga ibang kabatch ng mga kaibigan ko. Marami nanamang alak. Bubuhos panigurado. Sa sandamakmak na mga barkada ko, bakit pakiramdam ko hello? nagiisa parin ako. Lintek na pagibig yan. Binabadtrip nako masyado.
Mamaya. Sa Central ata kame. Shat shat! Pasahan nanaman ng baso.
Ito na ang pinaka olats na taon for me so far.. Sana naman sa susunod na mga araw, linggo, buwan, at taon... Sana naman.. Hindi na ganto ka-olats ang buhay ko. Wala ka, wala sya. Wala lahat. Ako lang at ako lang kahit ang dami kong kaibigan..
Ang lesson jan. Wag kang paparamdam kung wala kang balak na kahit ano. Pero eto ang malupit na totoong totoo...
"Basta may alak, may balak." LOL kay Bri ko nakuha yan. Tawang tawa ako. LOL
So what's up? You haven't send any message mula kaninang umaga. Edi baka ikaw na ang may masamang tinapay saken. Punyeta. Bat kelangang ganyan? Bat ikaw pa. hanep. Alam mong ako ang agrabyado dito kahit sabihin mo pang may O n i e ako. E wala na nga, I am trying to move on. Na punyeta. Ang hirap pala talaga no? Akala ko ikaw ang instrumento para kalimutan ang nakaraan ko. Hindi pala. Hindi ikaw. Nakikisawsaw ka lang ng basta basta. Tiisan ba ang labanan sa bagong larong kinasasangkutan? GORA! ganyanan pala e.
Hala lang ako. kaninang umaga pako online dito. Wala nakong nagawang iba. Pati pagkain na-i-skip ko na. Mamaya may lakad ako. Papainom nanaman pala ako sa mga ibang kabatch ng mga kaibigan ko. Marami nanamang alak. Bubuhos panigurado. Sa sandamakmak na mga barkada ko, bakit pakiramdam ko hello? nagiisa parin ako. Lintek na pagibig yan. Binabadtrip nako masyado.
Mamaya. Sa Central ata kame. Shat shat! Pasahan nanaman ng baso.
Ito na ang pinaka olats na taon for me so far.. Sana naman sa susunod na mga araw, linggo, buwan, at taon... Sana naman.. Hindi na ganto ka-olats ang buhay ko. Wala ka, wala sya. Wala lahat. Ako lang at ako lang kahit ang dami kong kaibigan..
Nov 27, 2009
Bloody Birthday
I had a pre birthday celeb last Nov 21 with my HS batchmates. It was cool! I miss these guys and girls. We went to Antakya then left for Aplaya. It was fun. BLOODY FUN! LOL
Thanks for those who came, sa mga hindi... Tara! shat! Bitin e... heheh
Aiza - Bithday Birthdayan lang
Carla - Tamed. In fairness. Salutatorian ka paren ng batch. Ikaw na!
Marla - Star of the night ka chong! Bongga mo lang! Kinuhanan ng video ung moment mo sa stage nung kano. TARAY!
Oge - Cinderella (what's new dude? CHOS! Aga lang. 1030pm nagbounce)
Via - Photographer! Goodjob! Tibay mo lang men. Kelan ka ba talaga tatamaan? Edi ikaw na gumawa ng redhorse kung ganon.. haha
Kai - Tamang chill si kyana neto. Apir! salamat sa pagpunta. MWah!
Chique - Eto na ang may screen name talaga! Laftrip kayo ni marla! Pero astig! dumating ka. Salamat sa pagupdate ng facebook ng 230 ng madaling araw no? Bibo mo lang e! LOL
Totee - late late, ako tuloy kumanta. Ew lang. haha
Gilbert - Akala ko ba friend mo si Gio? Asan ang discount dude? haha! CHOS!
Eli - Ayus lang chong. Ang saya naman natin e! hehe
Maman - Wasak ka nalang lagi. Ewan ko sayo!
Tobs - Looking hot pare ah! haha charing lang!
Mark - Pumayat ka talaga pare, walang biro... hehe
Fab - Akalain mo un. Salamat sa pagdrop by.. :)
Aaron - Ang bata bata mo pa. may wedding ring ka na!
Tyron - Easy lang brad. Hehehe. Salamat sa pagpunta
Yebou - YOU'RE THE BEST TL YEBOU! mwah!
I won't forget that night. Bloody night. Pero keri lang. Masaya naman chong! Salamat! CHEERS!
Thanks for those who came, sa mga hindi... Tara! shat! Bitin e... heheh
Aiza - Bithday Birthdayan lang
Carla - Tamed. In fairness. Salutatorian ka paren ng batch. Ikaw na!
Marla - Star of the night ka chong! Bongga mo lang! Kinuhanan ng video ung moment mo sa stage nung kano. TARAY!
Oge - Cinderella (what's new dude? CHOS! Aga lang. 1030pm nagbounce)
Via - Photographer! Goodjob! Tibay mo lang men. Kelan ka ba talaga tatamaan? Edi ikaw na gumawa ng redhorse kung ganon.. haha
Kai - Tamang chill si kyana neto. Apir! salamat sa pagpunta. MWah!
Chique - Eto na ang may screen name talaga! Laftrip kayo ni marla! Pero astig! dumating ka. Salamat sa pagupdate ng facebook ng 230 ng madaling araw no? Bibo mo lang e! LOL
Totee - late late, ako tuloy kumanta. Ew lang. haha
Gilbert - Akala ko ba friend mo si Gio? Asan ang discount dude? haha! CHOS!
Eli - Ayus lang chong. Ang saya naman natin e! hehe
Maman - Wasak ka nalang lagi. Ewan ko sayo!
Tobs - Looking hot pare ah! haha charing lang!
Mark - Pumayat ka talaga pare, walang biro... hehe
Fab - Akalain mo un. Salamat sa pagdrop by.. :)
Aaron - Ang bata bata mo pa. may wedding ring ka na!
Tyron - Easy lang brad. Hehehe. Salamat sa pagpunta
Yebou - YOU'RE THE BEST TL YEBOU! mwah!
I won't forget that night. Bloody night. Pero keri lang. Masaya naman chong! Salamat! CHEERS!
SANA
LSS for 3 days. Sumasakto. Nakakabaog. AKO. SIYA. KAME. Haaay!
Sana - Updharmadown
Nilibot na ang buong mundo
Di pa rin ako nakukuntento
Makakahanap ng ipapalit
Nang walang babala
Lumipas ay nagbabalik pala
Nalilito na ako hindi na dapat gan'to
Nakaraan ay natapos at napagdaanan na
Bakit na sisindak pa sa t'wing naaalala
Matatauhan na wala ka na pala
Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong pait ang matamis at aking susubukan
Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan
Hindi nga nagtagal ang pagpapanggap na 'to
Kaliwa at kanan harap at likod ano mang anggulo
Titigan ay bumibigay ako
Damdamin ay kay bigat
Naisip na ang lahat
Wala na ba talaga akong magagawa pa
Ako sila'y nandito na
Ikaw na lang ang kulang
Anong lunod o lalim ba't 'di na lang lumutang
Anong tamis ang mapait at aking iiwasan
Walang silbi ang narito
'Di mo na kailangan
Wala na bang makakapantay at di na ba dapat pang maghintay
Ako lang ba ang nagkasala?
Kumakapit sa natitirang sana.
Kung babalik ka pa hanggang kailan kaya?
Ako dito mag aabang na magdutong na ang patlang
Ang kulang ay mapupunan wala nang makahahadlang
Wala na yatang hihigit sa pangungulila ko
Iba na bang nagbibigay ng mga kailangan mo?
Oh sana
Kay higpit ng kapit sa unan kagabi ko
Oh sana
Inaasam muling makatabi at mahalik sana
26 -- Big Box vs Tiny Lil Box
You know I'm working on a graveyard shift, and when I say graveyard, this actually implies around 3am or so... Meaning I'm gonna be celebrating the first few hours of my birthday on the road. :)
So yea, here's what happened last Nov 26.
Woke up with my phone ringing at exactly 12 midnight.. Of course I'm in a snoozing mode then.. T a t u greeted me and said "ako ba unang grumit sayo?" Then I'm like, "hindi ako sure. Bago pa man nagring phone ko, madami ng text akong di pa nababasa.." He was telling me, what he did was quite different from others since yeah, he did it at exactly 12 midnight. Fine with me. Mushy throne is all yours! :D
So I went to sleep again and tried hitting the shower after an hour. I received tons of birthday greetings and a million thanks to all who rememebered my day. :) THANK YOU SO MUCH. In the office, we planned to have a nice breakfast, but then again.. Everyone is so busy that we can't even try to pee. So I bought a yellowcab pizza for everyone. HAH! Too wise that the pizza arrived when most of the people ended their shifts and went home. :) Ooopsie. Sorry. HAHA!
Let me give you some side stories before my bday.. Martin texted askin what's my wish aside from my ultimate wish which is O n i e's freedom.. So I replied.. If I won't be able to have that ultimate wish, I wish for "the one" to come by really soon.. So he replied.. "Hirap naman sige tulog nako. I'll meet you at 6am."
Came 6am, I'm in the middle of a meeting, Martin's texting me he's already at starbs. I couldn't go out of my boss' office so I said, I'll be a lil late. I drop by in starbs Emerald ave. at 7am. He gave me a kiss, a caramel frappe and a pack of mild seven cigar. I thought it was just it, then he handed me a big white box, literally big that I thought it was a wedding gown pero mini mini. LOL So I was touched. it didn't ended there. He gave me a note, before I opened the box. The note says...
SO OK. He zipped down his jacket and there I saw a pink ribbon around his neck. OK. I don't know how should I react on that, but yeah I understood he was telling me... He's "the one". I felt a bit kilig.. But at the back of my mind.. I wish, I really really wish.. It was O n i e who I am talking with :( In all fairness with Martin, he didn't gave up on me since SHE-MARTIN-AIZA issue. MARTIN will always have a space in my heart. He's a best bud, a husband material, and very very very nice guy, whom I can't imagine hurting once again for the nth time. He don't deserve me at all. I'm a sick bastard girl who's madly inlove with a certain prisoner and doesn't have the guts to stand by her own and face the fuckin' reality. I can not promise Martin that he could trust on me if ever we'll give another chance with our relationship. So yea, right now? I don't want to elaborate to what's goin on..
Fast forward...
Here's a sneak peek with Martin's gift. It's lovely! It's awesome! AND IT'S MANGO! Thanks buddy!
So I went home after my shift ends at 12nn. T a t u and I watched New Moon. It was all good. I'm with "Team Jacob" LOL because of the 8 packs man. I was totally drooling.... LOL Then we had some sticks of yosi at the nearby store pagpasok sa village. We hang out there, it started raining kase. OLATS. So I went home. Everyone greeted me and saw martin's gift. Meanwhile, K M arrived accompanied by tata. They were holding a cake, 2 balloons, the green one has a print of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and the red one says.. "I LOVE YOU", a love letter and a tiny box.
Here's a sneak peek again:
I saw this coming already, but told him I would not accept any ring on my birthday if he's really planning to give one. Come on! We are on a break then what? Askin me to marry him with his situation? Well, to tell you the truth... I'm a bit annoyed because it wasn't him who gave the tiny lil box. I'll be hypocrite if I tell ya I didn't like it at all. Of course I was touched, felt really kilig and all, the only prob is that... The man doesn't exist right that moment. OK let me give you some descriptions about this ring. It's not a fancy engagement ring all girls wanted to have. It has an imprint of A I Z A and O N I E. I dont like it really.. What I wanted to have is something like this....
OR THIS...
Ok hahahha. I'm just being brat here. I know those are too much but yea, every girl deserves an engagement ring like that. :) I'm not planning of wearing the ring O n i e gave, my parents were joking me around about it though. Engaged na daw ako. Hehe. I just told them, how in the world would that happen, if we're on a break. :) hehe
I watched tv with my siblings until I saw myself wearing the ring till I fell asleep. :) Naexperience ko rin palang maengage for 8 hours. :)
My Birthday wasn't that special. I wasn't happy at all.
So yea, here's what happened last Nov 26.
Woke up with my phone ringing at exactly 12 midnight.. Of course I'm in a snoozing mode then.. T a t u greeted me and said "ako ba unang grumit sayo?" Then I'm like, "hindi ako sure. Bago pa man nagring phone ko, madami ng text akong di pa nababasa.." He was telling me, what he did was quite different from others since yeah, he did it at exactly 12 midnight. Fine with me. Mushy throne is all yours! :D
So I went to sleep again and tried hitting the shower after an hour. I received tons of birthday greetings and a million thanks to all who rememebered my day. :) THANK YOU SO MUCH. In the office, we planned to have a nice breakfast, but then again.. Everyone is so busy that we can't even try to pee. So I bought a yellowcab pizza for everyone. HAH! Too wise that the pizza arrived when most of the people ended their shifts and went home. :) Ooopsie. Sorry. HAHA!
Let me give you some side stories before my bday.. Martin texted askin what's my wish aside from my ultimate wish which is O n i e's freedom.. So I replied.. If I won't be able to have that ultimate wish, I wish for "the one" to come by really soon.. So he replied.. "Hirap naman sige tulog nako. I'll meet you at 6am."
Came 6am, I'm in the middle of a meeting, Martin's texting me he's already at starbs. I couldn't go out of my boss' office so I said, I'll be a lil late. I drop by in starbs Emerald ave. at 7am. He gave me a kiss, a caramel frappe and a pack of mild seven cigar. I thought it was just it, then he handed me a big white box, literally big that I thought it was a wedding gown pero mini mini. LOL So I was touched. it didn't ended there. He gave me a note, before I opened the box. The note says...
SO OK. He zipped down his jacket and there I saw a pink ribbon around his neck. OK. I don't know how should I react on that, but yeah I understood he was telling me... He's "the one". I felt a bit kilig.. But at the back of my mind.. I wish, I really really wish.. It was O n i e who I am talking with :( In all fairness with Martin, he didn't gave up on me since SHE-MARTIN-AIZA issue. MARTIN will always have a space in my heart. He's a best bud, a husband material, and very very very nice guy, whom I can't imagine hurting once again for the nth time. He don't deserve me at all. I'm a sick bastard girl who's madly inlove with a certain prisoner and doesn't have the guts to stand by her own and face the fuckin' reality. I can not promise Martin that he could trust on me if ever we'll give another chance with our relationship. So yea, right now? I don't want to elaborate to what's goin on..
Fast forward...
Here's a sneak peek with Martin's gift. It's lovely! It's awesome! AND IT'S MANGO! Thanks buddy!
So I went home after my shift ends at 12nn. T a t u and I watched New Moon. It was all good. I'm with "Team Jacob" LOL because of the 8 packs man. I was totally drooling.... LOL Then we had some sticks of yosi at the nearby store pagpasok sa village. We hang out there, it started raining kase. OLATS. So I went home. Everyone greeted me and saw martin's gift. Meanwhile, K M arrived accompanied by tata. They were holding a cake, 2 balloons, the green one has a print of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" and the red one says.. "I LOVE YOU", a love letter and a tiny box.
Here's a sneak peek again:
I saw this coming already, but told him I would not accept any ring on my birthday if he's really planning to give one. Come on! We are on a break then what? Askin me to marry him with his situation? Well, to tell you the truth... I'm a bit annoyed because it wasn't him who gave the tiny lil box. I'll be hypocrite if I tell ya I didn't like it at all. Of course I was touched, felt really kilig and all, the only prob is that... The man doesn't exist right that moment. OK let me give you some descriptions about this ring. It's not a fancy engagement ring all girls wanted to have. It has an imprint of A I Z A and O N I E. I dont like it really.. What I wanted to have is something like this....
OR THIS...
Ok hahahha. I'm just being brat here. I know those are too much but yea, every girl deserves an engagement ring like that. :) I'm not planning of wearing the ring O n i e gave, my parents were joking me around about it though. Engaged na daw ako. Hehe. I just told them, how in the world would that happen, if we're on a break. :) hehe
I watched tv with my siblings until I saw myself wearing the ring till I fell asleep. :) Naexperience ko rin palang maengage for 8 hours. :)
My Birthday wasn't that special. I wasn't happy at all.
Nov 19, 2009
Kalokohan
Yan ang sabi sa tarot ko for today.
Matagal tagal narin akong hindi nagchecheck ng tarot ko. Sa pagkaburaot ko sa mundo, naisipan kong aba onga no, nalimutan ko ng dati akong naging fan neto. Bakit hindi natin tignan kung talagang nagtutugma kung ano mga pinagsasabi ng punyetang tarot nato.
HANGGANG SA.....
Ayan! Lumabas na ginagago nga lang ako nyan. Pinasasabik at pinakikilig lang ako dati. Minsan pinangingiti dahil mistulang totoo lahat ng sinasabi nya. Pero ngayon? Ano? Ako pa ba gagaguhin ng tarot na yan? Lahat ng sinabi nya maganda e. E ni walang magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Ni isa, wala. Ni kakapiranggot, ipinagkait. Kahit ang ngumiti, parang ipinagdamot narin saken.
Kaya wag na kayong maniwala sa mga kashitang mga ganyan. Niloloko lang kayo nyan. Parang ako, minsan nya rin akong naloko.
Surprises, unexpected encounters, intuition, easy-going conviviality – it’s all there to make this a perfect day in your romantic life. Whether you live as a couple or on your own, this wonderful day will bring you plenty of happiness. Under the aegis of Judgement and the Pope you might well receive a proposal from your loved one today – or a declaration of friendship. Your career is on the up and you may demand a change of status or even – why not – a move abroad. The World offers new opportunities and Judgment grants you greater responsibility and discipline. Keep an ear to the ground for new proposals you could take on, because they could contribute to your personal fulfillment in the professional arena.
Matagal tagal narin akong hindi nagchecheck ng tarot ko. Sa pagkaburaot ko sa mundo, naisipan kong aba onga no, nalimutan ko ng dati akong naging fan neto. Bakit hindi natin tignan kung talagang nagtutugma kung ano mga pinagsasabi ng punyetang tarot nato.
HANGGANG SA.....
Ayan! Lumabas na ginagago nga lang ako nyan. Pinasasabik at pinakikilig lang ako dati. Minsan pinangingiti dahil mistulang totoo lahat ng sinasabi nya. Pero ngayon? Ano? Ako pa ba gagaguhin ng tarot na yan? Lahat ng sinabi nya maganda e. E ni walang magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Ni isa, wala. Ni kakapiranggot, ipinagkait. Kahit ang ngumiti, parang ipinagdamot narin saken.
Kaya wag na kayong maniwala sa mga kashitang mga ganyan. Niloloko lang kayo nyan. Parang ako, minsan nya rin akong naloko.
someday
Someday someone’s gonna take your place
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday someday
One day I’ll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday someday
Nov 18, 2009
Good times starts now
I screwed up many times in my 25 years of my life and now I'm gonna tell everyone that I screwed the holy shit out of my life once again! Yeah, we're done! We're through! We're finish! All the dramas, all the fucking shits happened with my godamn life's now over! FINALLY! (Well, I'm just talking with myself here, I'm not sure if he ever knows what the fuck I'm feeling right now) I already told her sis though, I mean come on! Everyone's telling me what to do. Even her sis told me she'll completely understand if I'll ditch her bro. For God sake! 2009's almost over. Then, what now?
No argues. Full of hard feelings. This is what I'm trying to avoid before that the endless love I have for him will turn out disaster one day. HATRED. I've been cursing him million times in my head right this moment! You, sonofabiiitch! I f*ckin' hate you for making my life soooo miserable! I was sooo effin blind before! I still want you to get out of that holy shit soon though. I'll see when I fuckin see you!
Now I got some great news! I'll be having a party on Sat in Central BBQ Grill, BF, Parañaque! Come with me and let's fuck up the night! CHEERS!
Nov 9, 2009
Happy 115th!
Yes! It's our Birthday today and I forgot it again. HEHE! Good thing, babe texted. It was sweet of him to remember every 10th day of every month. :) I love you for that! :)
What am I supposed to blog right now? I'm actually not in the mood to write, but fuck the tasks am doing at of this time really sucks big time! I have no choice but to continue doing these. I'm so so sooo unlucky for being in this kind of situation.
Anyhow, I'd rather share stories regarding my so-called social life than my work. :) Well, it's been what since I blog about the details of my weekends or my daily routines? Hmmm, I can't remeber when. Even browsing my favorite blogs, I too got no time. It's not because I'm very busy-busy. I don't know, prolly I'm not in the mood or because I have more options to do than reading blogs nowadays.
Weekends for me been enjoying so far. I tend to have some drinking sessions each time. If it's not gonna be at Sarah's crib, it would be at Oge's or prolly at Tj's. Well, I'm just lucky I got tons of friends who never fail to invite me for some drinks on Saturdays. :) I don't know where should I start talking with sense here, but I could really really feel I need to take the exit door! HAH! What's wrong with me? hahahaha! I can't even create a decent sentence. :( arg! FINE! Don't mind me... I'm just dealing with annoyance towards some non sense creature here! LOL
Anyway, fine! I'd share something bout my man's situation. Which I actually don't want to disclose, but hey! I know some of you are still praying for my boyf and for that I owe you an explaination. :)
Ok. I was actually a lil upset about this ish. Not a lil upset, but I am bloody bloody upset about it I swear! So we had a normal hearing last September and October, and to my surprise the case wasn't finish yet. God! How can this be happening? It's been hmmmm... fine! I'll stop ranting here. :) I got a new motto for now, actually came from my mother. She told me... "Don't be afraid, HAVE FAITH!" And I was like, "AMEN!"
No one knows when this will end. No one knows exactly how we are surpassing these trials. I already quit a lot of times but still I'm here, trying to resolve these prob we got. Lately yes I told you I've been hanging out with different circle of friends, but still I got this "alone" feeling. You know what I mean? Even I am surrounded with happy people, even I know my friends would want to make me feel better, even I know I still got my family to count on, STILL... the feeling of being alone is in me. Still, I can feel the lonesome. Still, I am fighting with this battle which I don't know until when...
I've been following some local artists on Twitter and I am actually envious with their activities. If in case my job was similar to them, prolly I wouldn't have time getting depressed or something. Just like Pokie, Mariel, and RR--Wowowee girls. Gosh! They were all lucky to be part of the noon time show! Imagine how much they are earning now, to think they are having fun with what they're doin. I love their JOB as in! I am still hooked up with some TV series. If I don't feel like drinking, I tend to bum around my room and watch different series in the sidereel.com. Again thanks to my friend, Kabog who shared the link. If it wasn't with her, I wouldn't be this updated with GG, The Hills, and Desperate Housewives. Just last Saturday, I started watching, "How I met your Mother" It was indeed a funny series. A must see actually!
I had a great conversation with my kuya last week. They're coming home next year! YAY! Excited! SUPER!
Now the Christmas tree is already up here in the office together with the christmas lights. In our village, the old basketball court was converted to a play ground, and the home owners association officers are actually decorating the place and getting ready for the Christmas. They are trying to build a Belen, and it was huge! Some of my neighbors got christmas decors as well, my mother on the other hand wanted to buy a new parol which has singing christmas lights. I pleaded not to. And Totee thought I'm being bitter about Christmas--YES! I am! And I hate that I am feeling this way. I wanted to be happy and to act normal during holidays, but for some reasons, I don't like the month of November and December. I wanted to skip those months. The sadness is killing me. :( for real!
Next Sat, it'll be Brian's bday, and we'll be celebrating it in his crib. Prolly, I'll go and have fun! Next next week, Nov 21, my girls are planning to celebrate my bday in Sta Rosa, Laguna. Oge's parents has a new house there. I hope it'll be relaxing and fun as well. I'm expecting a few friends to come over, Oge, Carla, Marla, Via, Kai and Dina. Chen is welcome as well, but I'm not sure if she wanted to come. :) On the 28th, I'll have a double celebration bday with my boyf's sis. Her bday is on the 25th. We'll celebrate it together. I don't know the plan yet, I'm thinking of having it somewhere in Parañaque or someone's crib, Sarah's prolly. Km's planning to serve her popular bake mac. It tastes heaven, really! Well, on my bday, 26th of November, I don't have work. YEY for that! It'll be Thanksgiving in the States. Well, I dont have any plans yet. Prolly I'll celebrate it with my fam or with my other half. I don't know. I'm actually not excited for this month, honestly i don't want to celbrate my day, it's just that, it's non sense celbrating it with out my boyf. I actually got other plans before. Before that I knew he'll gonna be free by this month, I got other plans, like celebrating it together out-of-town. So it sucks I'll be celebrating it by myself again. I can't do anything about it though but to thank God I'm still alive and still getting tons of blessings!
God, thank you! Please answer my prayer before my Birthday.. Pretty please...
What am I supposed to blog right now? I'm actually not in the mood to write, but fuck the tasks am doing at of this time really sucks big time! I have no choice but to continue doing these. I'm so so sooo unlucky for being in this kind of situation.
Anyhow, I'd rather share stories regarding my so-called social life than my work. :) Well, it's been what since I blog about the details of my weekends or my daily routines? Hmmm, I can't remeber when. Even browsing my favorite blogs, I too got no time. It's not because I'm very busy-busy. I don't know, prolly I'm not in the mood or because I have more options to do than reading blogs nowadays.
Weekends for me been enjoying so far. I tend to have some drinking sessions each time. If it's not gonna be at Sarah's crib, it would be at Oge's or prolly at Tj's. Well, I'm just lucky I got tons of friends who never fail to invite me for some drinks on Saturdays. :) I don't know where should I start talking with sense here, but I could really really feel I need to take the exit door! HAH! What's wrong with me? hahahaha! I can't even create a decent sentence. :( arg! FINE! Don't mind me... I'm just dealing with annoyance towards some non sense creature here! LOL
Anyway, fine! I'd share something bout my man's situation. Which I actually don't want to disclose, but hey! I know some of you are still praying for my boyf and for that I owe you an explaination. :)
Ok. I was actually a lil upset about this ish. Not a lil upset, but I am bloody bloody upset about it I swear! So we had a normal hearing last September and October, and to my surprise the case wasn't finish yet. God! How can this be happening? It's been hmmmm... fine! I'll stop ranting here. :) I got a new motto for now, actually came from my mother. She told me... "Don't be afraid, HAVE FAITH!" And I was like, "AMEN!"
No one knows when this will end. No one knows exactly how we are surpassing these trials. I already quit a lot of times but still I'm here, trying to resolve these prob we got. Lately yes I told you I've been hanging out with different circle of friends, but still I got this "alone" feeling. You know what I mean? Even I am surrounded with happy people, even I know my friends would want to make me feel better, even I know I still got my family to count on, STILL... the feeling of being alone is in me. Still, I can feel the lonesome. Still, I am fighting with this battle which I don't know until when...
I've been following some local artists on Twitter and I am actually envious with their activities. If in case my job was similar to them, prolly I wouldn't have time getting depressed or something. Just like Pokie, Mariel, and RR--Wowowee girls. Gosh! They were all lucky to be part of the noon time show! Imagine how much they are earning now, to think they are having fun with what they're doin. I love their JOB as in! I am still hooked up with some TV series. If I don't feel like drinking, I tend to bum around my room and watch different series in the sidereel.com. Again thanks to my friend, Kabog who shared the link. If it wasn't with her, I wouldn't be this updated with GG, The Hills, and Desperate Housewives. Just last Saturday, I started watching, "How I met your Mother" It was indeed a funny series. A must see actually!
I had a great conversation with my kuya last week. They're coming home next year! YAY! Excited! SUPER!
Now the Christmas tree is already up here in the office together with the christmas lights. In our village, the old basketball court was converted to a play ground, and the home owners association officers are actually decorating the place and getting ready for the Christmas. They are trying to build a Belen, and it was huge! Some of my neighbors got christmas decors as well, my mother on the other hand wanted to buy a new parol which has singing christmas lights. I pleaded not to. And Totee thought I'm being bitter about Christmas--YES! I am! And I hate that I am feeling this way. I wanted to be happy and to act normal during holidays, but for some reasons, I don't like the month of November and December. I wanted to skip those months. The sadness is killing me. :( for real!
Next Sat, it'll be Brian's bday, and we'll be celebrating it in his crib. Prolly, I'll go and have fun! Next next week, Nov 21, my girls are planning to celebrate my bday in Sta Rosa, Laguna. Oge's parents has a new house there. I hope it'll be relaxing and fun as well. I'm expecting a few friends to come over, Oge, Carla, Marla, Via, Kai and Dina. Chen is welcome as well, but I'm not sure if she wanted to come. :) On the 28th, I'll have a double celebration bday with my boyf's sis. Her bday is on the 25th. We'll celebrate it together. I don't know the plan yet, I'm thinking of having it somewhere in Parañaque or someone's crib, Sarah's prolly. Km's planning to serve her popular bake mac. It tastes heaven, really! Well, on my bday, 26th of November, I don't have work. YEY for that! It'll be Thanksgiving in the States. Well, I dont have any plans yet. Prolly I'll celebrate it with my fam or with my other half. I don't know. I'm actually not excited for this month, honestly i don't want to celbrate my day, it's just that, it's non sense celbrating it with out my boyf. I actually got other plans before. Before that I knew he'll gonna be free by this month, I got other plans, like celebrating it together out-of-town. So it sucks I'll be celebrating it by myself again. I can't do anything about it though but to thank God I'm still alive and still getting tons of blessings!
God, thank you! Please answer my prayer before my Birthday.. Pretty please...
Nov 2, 2009
Advance Wish List (Inspired by Geni)
Gen's right. It's a ber month now and I can't wait for the upcoming Christmas. Wasn't that happy since yea, you know am a lil bit in trouble, but of course will still try to enjoy the holidays with my fam, my boyf and the rest of my crew. :)
Btw, it's raining cats and dogs a while ago, I do hope it won't continue since I'm about to get ready for work. How I wish Ortigas is just 2 mins away from Alabang! LOL I hope my bosses would always understand where I'm coming from. I still got good outputs though, so I guess they're okay when I'm taking emergency leaves. ;)
So here's my WISH LIST or better I should call these plans for next year. I'm still hoping for better days up until the last day of December, I'm still working out with some issues and personal stuffs, I don't wanna jinx everything so I'll go for my plans next year. ;)
Ok. Warning! This is a long long post. This is a late entry actually. I had this edited already. This was sitting in my archive for quite sometime now. I don't have anyone to talk to, so I'm here... dealing with my blog. My own space in the cyber world.
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Next year I have tons of plans (as usual). I'm not sure if I'll have all these by myself or my man and I will be together having this so called journey.
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Ooopps, had dinner. I left my lappy. Here I am now. not in the mood to continue this thing again. I don't have the courage... I don't know. Better to continue this shit next time...
Btw, it's raining cats and dogs a while ago, I do hope it won't continue since I'm about to get ready for work. How I wish Ortigas is just 2 mins away from Alabang! LOL I hope my bosses would always understand where I'm coming from. I still got good outputs though, so I guess they're okay when I'm taking emergency leaves. ;)
So here's my WISH LIST or better I should call these plans for next year. I'm still hoping for better days up until the last day of December, I'm still working out with some issues and personal stuffs, I don't wanna jinx everything so I'll go for my plans next year. ;)
Ok. Warning! This is a long long post. This is a late entry actually. I had this edited already. This was sitting in my archive for quite sometime now. I don't have anyone to talk to, so I'm here... dealing with my blog. My own space in the cyber world.
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Next year I have tons of plans (as usual). I'm not sure if I'll have all these by myself or my man and I will be together having this so called journey.
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Ooopps, had dinner. I left my lappy. Here I am now. not in the mood to continue this thing again. I don't have the courage... I don't know. Better to continue this shit next time...
Wish I just blog, instead of doing this crap...
I’m tired of:
- having second thoughts
I am listening to:
- i got a feeling - black eyed peas
Maybe I should:
- start thinking about myself this time.
Chocolate is:
- my fave thing on earth when im blue. so I am craving one right now. :(
I last ate:
- maruya, fried banana coated with flour.
Right now I'm craving:
- THANK YOU FOR ASKING
Love is:
- blind. so love me. - john lloyd as popoy imitating james blanco as whatshisname in One More Chance.
tommorow:
- WORK. Still got tons of work to do.
Do you miss someone?:
- Penge nalang ng chocolate. Yung may almond please. :)
Are you wearing chop stick?:
- Right now nope. I used to before. But I'm now rebonded so that's not allowed anymore :)
Are you tired?:
- Again, THANK YOU!
Are you wearing pajamas:
- enough about me. what about you?
Are you upset?:
- yes
LASTS:
Last drink?
- water lang
Last phone call?
- Last night pa. Carla ata.
Last time you cried?
- Last Thursday, Friday, Saturday :(
RANDOM QUESTIONS
Ever laughed until you almost cried?
- I always do.
Is there something you want to tell someone?
- If you're really into it, do it. Don't let people get annoyed with all your undying excuses.. Or better yet, I'll just scream, YOU GROW UP!
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
- Nope. I'm a smoker. Let's do this together. :) haha
Last person you texted:
- Tatu
Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
- Another stalker's number. Come on! Stop all the texts. I'm not ready for any games.
Where is your next road trip?
- we're planning for a Sta. Rosa trip on my Birthday. But that was cancelled already. :( So what's up? How will we celebrate my day?
Where is the person you like at right now?
- I like? As in like like lang? haha!
What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
- White shirt and gray shorts.
How do you feel?
- running out of excuses NOT to go to work.
When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
- number 1 what? You mean my man? Last Friday. :( I'm missing him though.
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
- hot please
Where did you sleep last night?
- caught between my pillows and blanket
What/who woke you up today?
- nobody. I slept at 4am, woke up at 12nn lunch, slept at 1pm again, woke up at 630. SARAP.
Is there anyone you want to be with right now?
- Hindi ba obvious?
- having second thoughts
I am listening to:
- i got a feeling - black eyed peas
Maybe I should:
- start thinking about myself this time.
Chocolate is:
- my fave thing on earth when im blue. so I am craving one right now. :(
I last ate:
- maruya, fried banana coated with flour.
Right now I'm craving:
- THANK YOU FOR ASKING
Love is:
- blind. so love me. - john lloyd as popoy imitating james blanco as whatshisname in One More Chance.
tommorow:
- WORK. Still got tons of work to do.
Do you miss someone?:
- Penge nalang ng chocolate. Yung may almond please. :)
Are you wearing chop stick?:
- Right now nope. I used to before. But I'm now rebonded so that's not allowed anymore :)
Are you tired?:
- Again, THANK YOU!
Are you wearing pajamas:
- enough about me. what about you?
Are you upset?:
- yes
LASTS:
Last drink?
- water lang
Last phone call?
- Last night pa. Carla ata.
Last time you cried?
- Last Thursday, Friday, Saturday :(
RANDOM QUESTIONS
Ever laughed until you almost cried?
- I always do.
Is there something you want to tell someone?
- If you're really into it, do it. Don't let people get annoyed with all your undying excuses.. Or better yet, I'll just scream, YOU GROW UP!
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
- Nope. I'm a smoker. Let's do this together. :) haha
Last person you texted:
- Tatu
Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
- Another stalker's number. Come on! Stop all the texts. I'm not ready for any games.
Where is your next road trip?
- we're planning for a Sta. Rosa trip on my Birthday. But that was cancelled already. :( So what's up? How will we celebrate my day?
Where is the person you like at right now?
- I like? As in like like lang? haha!
What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
- White shirt and gray shorts.
How do you feel?
- running out of excuses NOT to go to work.
When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
- number 1 what? You mean my man? Last Friday. :( I'm missing him though.
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
- hot please
Where did you sleep last night?
- caught between my pillows and blanket
What/who woke you up today?
- nobody. I slept at 4am, woke up at 12nn lunch, slept at 1pm again, woke up at 630. SARAP.
Is there anyone you want to be with right now?
- Hindi ba obvious?
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