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Madamme
Dec 26, 2008
Dec 24, 2008
Best Friend, Dream Boy, Fun Life
I've always been happy for every triumphs of my girlfriends. I am dying to see them blissful and contented with life. As much as I want to be by their sides during their ups and downs, they know we can't be because we have our own lives to deal with now.
Stayn's been a very very good friend to me since my first week of college. I couldn't think of any instance we had a fight over something. We're like Whitney Port and Lauren Conrad of The Hills. HAH! :p We're in the same ellective in college and we went to the same internship. I witnessed every triumphs of Stayn, her downfall, and every heartaches she had been. We're always together and we never drifted apart until after her first job here in the Phil in San Miguel Corp. She's now residing at SG and I misses her so much. We may not have constant communication but we see to it that we could find time to catch up once in a while. This holiday, she'll visit the country and she has a very very big surprise for everybody. [not that I wanted to spoil her moment to tell everyone about it, but it's not secret anyway ;)]
So, there you have it...
My favorite girl Stayn and her perfect man, Marvin. They just look great together. and I'm telling Stayn, HE'S WORTH THE WAIT. :D I'm super happy and proud of my girl! I'll see you soon mare! A lil catch up is waiting for us. Love you so much. Can't wait to see you. Mwah!
Stayn's been a very very good friend to me since my first week of college. I couldn't think of any instance we had a fight over something. We're like Whitney Port and Lauren Conrad of The Hills. HAH! :p We're in the same ellective in college and we went to the same internship. I witnessed every triumphs of Stayn, her downfall, and every heartaches she had been. We're always together and we never drifted apart until after her first job here in the Phil in San Miguel Corp. She's now residing at SG and I misses her so much. We may not have constant communication but we see to it that we could find time to catch up once in a while. This holiday, she'll visit the country and she has a very very big surprise for everybody. [not that I wanted to spoil her moment to tell everyone about it, but it's not secret anyway ;)]
So, there you have it...
My favorite girl Stayn and her perfect man, Marvin. They just look great together. and I'm telling Stayn, HE'S WORTH THE WAIT. :D I'm super happy and proud of my girl! I'll see you soon mare! A lil catch up is waiting for us. Love you so much. Can't wait to see you. Mwah!
Dec 23, 2008
Proud to be Pinoy...
but WTH! A Filipino Version of Twilight. C'mon! How on earth did they manage to think of a crappy telenova like this?
I don't know. I just think, this is so uncool. Shaina's pretty, Raver can dance. Sana sa ASAP nalang sila lumabas no? Guess where I found this?
Check this OUT!
Hanep. kinikilala na sila ni Perez. :D
I don't know. I just think, this is so uncool. Shaina's pretty, Raver can dance. Sana sa ASAP nalang sila lumabas no? Guess where I found this?
Check this OUT!
Hanep. kinikilala na sila ni Perez. :D
Dec 18, 2008
Christmas Rant (AGAIN)
Christmas blues..
Why am I always feeling this for the past weeks? Christmas is just around the corner, I must be excited to celebrate it with my whole clan. But still, the feeling is different. While everybody is busy with christmas wishlist, and shopping for the noche buena next week, I am still dealing with work. Have you heard of the news that most people will have 2 weeks vacation starting next week (starting nov 24 - jan 5)? Yea. Cool right? It wasn't intended for me and the rest of the call center industry I guess. Well, lucky us, we'll receive double pays and stuffs, but still... If you'll think about it though, you'll end up ranting, WTF! It's always been merrier bumming around the house, chillin with friends during holiday season. Right? Good news for my normal friends ;)
Christmas is one of my favorite holiday of the year. But this time, I guess I'm not going to enjoy it for the second time around. I grew up celebrating this holiday with my Deniña clan. Food are great, overflowing drinks, funny games, bonding with cousins, music & bands, and tons of gifts. We also have a tradition (we call it "papila") of giving money to all children and those who are still studying or those who don't have work yet. I'll give you a hint how many are falling in line and will receive 20's 40's or 50's this year. My last count was 61. Yea, we're a big fam indeed! Yearly, we are very excited because of that. And to tell you, I already graduated being one of the "pumipila". :) Year 2005, I started working so meaning, I'll be one of those who will give money for the "papila" thing. Giving such worth to all my cousins is one of my achievement at that time. I was blessed with work and I earn more than enough so I tend to share. I love the feeling of sharing blessings to those who are in need. Another tradition is the exchange gift. For adults we have worth 100 and for children / babies, worth 50. That cheap. Yes I know. We might not receive an extravagant material thing but I tell you what, you'll feel the real spirit of Christmas. :)
I keep on saying I couldn't feel the spirit of the holidays these past few days, not until I felt the breeze of the air. Paskong pasko. Nakakalungkot lalo. But what I'm saying here is that, at this moment, Christmas is very very different compared when I was a child. I was once a caroler, I can't help but to ask my big bro to let me join him and his buddies caroling within the village. It was cool and I'm really enjoying it. Now, I seem to not hear even one caroler in our place. Weird for me. heh! So, yea, what else do I miss about the past? Of course my gifts from my godparents. Funny because I don't see them that much. I don't know them actually. Unlike my siblings they have godparents from my relatives. Me? My ninongs and ninangs are from my parents friends way back when they were in their early 30's I guess, so meaning, that was when my mom was still with Veteran's Bank and my father was still in the marines being a soldier. haha! Dude, I really don't see my godparents, but I do received gifts. They tend to send it home. Just that, no show. Even so, I appreciate it much and ofcourse I enjoyed their expensive gifts from Rustans. LOL
Of course, what I really miss is celebrating the day itself with my complete fam. Next week will be a Christmas without my big bro again. I miss him so much. He's the coolest kuya ever. I swear! I love him so much and I miss him dearly. I got teary eyed whenever he sings the song "Sana ngayong Pasko". It's his song for us each time Christmas is fast approaching. We might not have the bestest food on our table during noche buena, we might not have new dresses, we might not receive glamorous gifts from our folks, still we're complete. That's the most important for me.
Ha! I'm being too serious with this post huh. Well, obviously I'm really serious and I couldn't find time to smile today. Except earlier, while I was chatting with an old best friend Anna, whom I call "Baneng", she cracked me up and I thanked her for that.
I am frustrated about this holiady season. I am missing a lot. Everything about Onie and I used to do. Shopping in Glorietta, BF Parañaque Ruins bazaar, Christmas party with friends and batchmates, reunion here and there. I miss our tradition of gift giving. Onie's really a one heck of a sushal magbigay ng gift. LOL We just didn't see this coming. I mean, the situation we are into right now. We could have been in cloud nine if this didn't happen. Well, I still couldn't say so. We might end the relationship before then. I must admit, our relationship was on-the-rocks at that time. Fights every now and then. So I don't know if in case he wasn't there, I dont know if we're still together now. We actually didn't talk about marriage then. I am so much inlove with him, that I'd really wanna do the popping of question. I'm super
dumb I know. But what can I do? Hell I'm inlove! LOL
So there. this post is already long and full of emotions. Haaay, I can't wait for Christmas and New Year. These holiday season must end already, I need to look forward to my future, to our future. I'm excited at the same time scared. I don't know, I just couldn't help, but feel scared about life after this year. Weird? hah! I know. :D
Dec 14, 2008
It was a blast! really!
Last night, we had our company's Christmas Party at Embassy Super Club at the The Fort. Our theme is PAST FORWARD, that is--70's, 80's and 90's. I'll show you what I wore next time. I didn't know it'll be this fun! I enjoyed it so much and I'm sure I'll miss this company next year. You know, I'm planning to move again for the second time. I'll miss the unbelievable perks, and my uber weirdo officemates whom I really love.. I'm so glad I found the perfect colleagues in you guys.
So, I didn't use my cam that much, Slrs were everywhere and I couldn't find time taking pics because I'm busy dancing with everyone. LOL So here's the only pic I could share, the man behind my so-called company....
Il show some pics some other time..
Later,
A
So, I didn't use my cam that much, Slrs were everywhere and I couldn't find time taking pics because I'm busy dancing with everyone. LOL So here's the only pic I could share, the man behind my so-called company....
Il show some pics some other time..
Later,
A
Dec 10, 2008
How do you interpret dreams?
Why do I always dream about you not being nice to me, opposite of what I am expecting once you get out of that horrible place? I don't know what to think, but yea, I somewhat had a picture of you and me fighting again over same crappy thing which is MJ. I don't know. It was actually a nightmare for me. You see, we're in a group of friends chillin around, drinking booze and partying all night, when all of a sudden you left without saying a word to me. I dunno what happened next but yea, someone caught you using that shit again. WTF right? I hope this will only remain as a bad bad dream. Please do not make it hard for me when you're out. Please?
Btw, it's our 104th monthsary yesterday and I'm quite happy he didn't forget that special day. Unlike me, since I'm dealing with tons of stupid shits, I almost forgot it's the 10th day of December. How I wish you'll stay sweet and thoughtful when we get back together, or should I say, stay like that until forever. We couldn't celebrate special days together, we couldn't be together for those supposedly romantic dates, we couldn't talk and cuddle for those important days of our lives, but, I wanted you to know, you're always in my heart, you're always in my mind, wishing I could be with you everyday and every night.
I love you babe, and you know.. YOU'RE the ONE! :)
Happy 104th. Huggs
Btw, it's our 104th monthsary yesterday and I'm quite happy he didn't forget that special day. Unlike me, since I'm dealing with tons of stupid shits, I almost forgot it's the 10th day of December. How I wish you'll stay sweet and thoughtful when we get back together, or should I say, stay like that until forever. We couldn't celebrate special days together, we couldn't be together for those supposedly romantic dates, we couldn't talk and cuddle for those important days of our lives, but, I wanted you to know, you're always in my heart, you're always in my mind, wishing I could be with you everyday and every night.
I love you babe, and you know.. YOU'RE the ONE! :)
Happy 104th. Huggs
Dec 9, 2008
Resolutions ba kamo?
So Christmas is fast approaching, what's next, is New Year. This soon, I'd like to enumerate everything I want to change in me. Not that I always practice this, I am absolutely sure that this will remain as a list for the next year. Even so, I still hope I could follow this because it's for my own sake. :)
This year wasn't that good, well I expect it and still thank God for the blessings I received. After all, what happens in the past was all our fault and I already accepted the fact that we have to face all the consequences. Next year, am praying of having a good one. I honestly want to have a peaceful and meaningful 2009 as possible as I can.
(1) Too much vices and alcohol will not be tolerated. Will party ofcourse but I'll see to it that every party will have meaningful reason to celebrate not just because I wanna call it a night or whatever, soon you'll know what's the real deal why I'm trying to be more responsible.
(2) Too much expense on shopping will not be accomodated next year, (shit) I swear I need to cut down my expenses (or I could have another job to fulfill my necessities and needs LOL). Or this would totally help me expand my clothing line (un my clothing line), I mean my wardrobe. I should shop only during paydays, 1 dress, 2 tops, 1 shoes. No extra shopping in between. Whatchathink?
(3) Monitioring of my bank account will be the main priority. I need to save and save and save starting next year. All bonuses will strictly go to the bank immediately.
(4) Will try to exercise and have at least 9 hours or so sleep. Will drink tons of water a day. (yeah, I know, not sooo me, talking about clean living. Angal? Para maiba lang.)
(5) Less rice. (ok. scrap that!) lol
(6) Will try to be more organize next year. Will use my planner regularly. Make sure I'm in the right track.
(7) Onie and I will try to have more time with God this year, I know for the past years, we've been neglecting every chances that come our way. This time, we agreed on having time for Him. Saving 10% of our income monthly for Him and will try our best to serve Him in every way we can. I know, I shouldn't wait for next year. As early as now, Onie and I are trying our best to have time with Him. Believe it or not.
That's all for now, I know having this shit is somewhat pain in my ass. This time, I'd like to follow it, because I know, it's not only for me, it'll be for Onie as well. :)
Later,
A
This year wasn't that good, well I expect it and still thank God for the blessings I received. After all, what happens in the past was all our fault and I already accepted the fact that we have to face all the consequences. Next year, am praying of having a good one. I honestly want to have a peaceful and meaningful 2009 as possible as I can.
(1) Too much vices and alcohol will not be tolerated. Will party ofcourse but I'll see to it that every party will have meaningful reason to celebrate not just because I wanna call it a night or whatever, soon you'll know what's the real deal why I'm trying to be more responsible.
(2) Too much expense on shopping will not be accomodated next year, (shit) I swear I need to cut down my expenses (or I could have another job to fulfill my necessities and needs LOL). Or this would totally help me expand my clothing line (un my clothing line), I mean my wardrobe. I should shop only during paydays, 1 dress, 2 tops, 1 shoes. No extra shopping in between. Whatchathink?
(3) Monitioring of my bank account will be the main priority. I need to save and save and save starting next year. All bonuses will strictly go to the bank immediately.
(4) Will try to exercise and have at least 9 hours or so sleep. Will drink tons of water a day. (yeah, I know, not sooo me, talking about clean living. Angal? Para maiba lang.)
(5) Less rice. (ok. scrap that!) lol
(6) Will try to be more organize next year. Will use my planner regularly. Make sure I'm in the right track.
(7) Onie and I will try to have more time with God this year, I know for the past years, we've been neglecting every chances that come our way. This time, we agreed on having time for Him. Saving 10% of our income monthly for Him and will try our best to serve Him in every way we can. I know, I shouldn't wait for next year. As early as now, Onie and I are trying our best to have time with Him. Believe it or not.
That's all for now, I know having this shit is somewhat pain in my ass. This time, I'd like to follow it, because I know, it's not only for me, it'll be for Onie as well. :)
Later,
A
Dec 8, 2008
Adorable
I love love her style.. Really. As in she's freagin' awesome... :) Wish someday I could pose like how she does... (wish wish)
More pics from this fashionista blogger at http://karlascloset.blogspot.com
More pics from this fashionista blogger at http://karlascloset.blogspot.com
Dec 3, 2008
Lately...
I've been thinking of what stuffs to give for myself this Christmas. I sure do know that no one will make an effort to buy gifts for me expect for my boo who isn't capable of doing so.. because of that, (haha) am trying to make myself a lil happy this holiday season.
Just like the others, I too has a wish list, and here they are:
(1) A cool office jacket
(2) Shirt from Team Manila Website
(3) Wedge Black Shoes
(4) Nice Flats
Lately, I learned that Chuck and Vanessa from Gossip Girl are exclusively dating for real. Also, I learned that Heidi and Spencer got married already! Whew! those are smoking hot news huh.
Arrgg.. someone ruined my mood in blogging. i should've get back to work now. darn.
Just like the others, I too has a wish list, and here they are:
(1) A cool office jacket
(2) Shirt from Team Manila Website
(3) Wedge Black Shoes
(4) Nice Flats
Lately, I learned that Chuck and Vanessa from Gossip Girl are exclusively dating for real. Also, I learned that Heidi and Spencer got married already! Whew! those are smoking hot news huh.
Arrgg.. someone ruined my mood in blogging. i should've get back to work now. darn.
Dec 1, 2008
I was drunk dead LOL
Crap! I could have enjoyed the party more if I wasn't this DRUNK. lol
Thanks to those who celebrated with me last Sat. To my phase 3 buddies
To my APC folks
And to my ka-birthday! martin! thanks!
Nov 28, 2008
How did I celbrate my Silver Birthday?
Well, it was nothing special until Kay called and asked for a lil shot. We met at Starbs metrowalk and headed off to Phi Bar. We had a lil few drinks of Vodka Cruiser, had a great laugh with my bestest ex-colleague and went back to the office. Was surprised with what I saw in my station. I liked it and I think it was soo sweet of Ichy and Pax to do some shits like that. The cake was indeed the BEST! and yea, the flowers were gorgeous like me. LOL I received a lot of text messages and tons of phone calls. I appreciate some peeps who made effort, I'd like to say special thanks to Michelle, Stayn, and She who didn't forget ofcourse my day even they are living miles miles away from the Philippines. So yeah. I had a great day, not to metntion I was chillin around the office as if there's no tasks in line. LOL. I'm sorry, I just want to relax. hehe. So here's the pics from my real birthday:
Btw, for my college friends! tom, SHOT dito sa bahay. wag nyo kalimutan! :D See ya!
Nov 23, 2008
Christmas chuvaness
Our maid's been bugging me bout decorating the house for the holidays. Every week, she's telling me when will we put up the christmas tree and some other christmas decorations. I stayed stiff and undecided. WTH! I really dont wanna see any Christmas stuffs in our place. I know I'm being too selfish here, it's just that I'm having a hard time coping up with the scenario everytime I see Christmas stuffs in the mall or hear Christmas songs elsewhere. It's pissing me off whenever I hear "sana ngayong pasko" in the bus, or seeing a lot of Christmas tree in Ace hardware from SM Muntinlupa, the cool decorations inside ATC mall, and the nice Christmas packaging of Goldilocks. All these stuffs, I tend to be so much bitter and very affected. Inside me, I'm bursting into tears and really hoping I could atleast be happy during this season.
Earlier, I visited my elementary bestfriend's page from FS, she designed her site full of christmas chuvaness plus chrsitmas imeem. How's that? Crap. I wanna be in the mood too for Christmas, but what can I do? I can't find the means of being one.
It'll be the first week of December next week, meaning I should start of buying gifts for my inaanaks. I lost my list. But what I remember is, I got almost 15 godchildren at the moment. OMG! that was plenty huh.
1. Jed Francis (ate Lanie's son)
2. Raf Raf (ate lala's son)
3. Danny (Tony's daughter)
4. Ruth (Kuya Fox's daughther)
5. Lila (Mich's daughter)
6. Kelly
7. John Paul
8. Zyla (Ate yam's daughter)
9. Leonne (Lhen's son)
10. Tata's (daughter/son)
11. Kian Carl
12. Carla Mae (Aunt Amy's daughter)
13. Pepe (Kuya Jay's son)
So, there are my inaanaks. PM me kids ok? hahaha! Tell me what you want for Christmas! hehe
PS. I am trying to make a video for onie and I came up with ...
Earlier, I visited my elementary bestfriend's page from FS, she designed her site full of christmas chuvaness plus chrsitmas imeem. How's that? Crap. I wanna be in the mood too for Christmas, but what can I do? I can't find the means of being one.
It'll be the first week of December next week, meaning I should start of buying gifts for my inaanaks. I lost my list. But what I remember is, I got almost 15 godchildren at the moment. OMG! that was plenty huh.
1. Jed Francis (ate Lanie's son)
2. Raf Raf (ate lala's son)
3. Danny (Tony's daughter)
4. Ruth (Kuya Fox's daughther)
5. Lila (Mich's daughter)
6. Kelly
7. John Paul
8. Zyla (Ate yam's daughter)
9. Leonne (Lhen's son)
10. Tata's (daughter/son)
11. Kian Carl
12. Carla Mae (Aunt Amy's daughter)
13. Pepe (Kuya Jay's son)
So, there are my inaanaks. PM me kids ok? hahaha! Tell me what you want for Christmas! hehe
PS. I am trying to make a video for onie and I came up with ...
How Boring Life is..
I didn't go to work last Friday shift. No reason. I'm not in the mood to work. Just that. Hmm.. Lemme share you what I really wanna pursue if I had given a chance to choose.
1. I wanna work in a magazine industry. I don't know how you call that position. But I'd like to handle the part of doing all the layout and design of a magazine.
2. I wanna be a personal shopper. haha! can you imagine that? saya! shopping lang ng shopping. shit di ko naman damit! LOL
3. I wanna be a plain housewife! LOL. bakit hinde? e hilig ko nga lang magdecorate ng rooms. so tingin ko, i will survive. Basta entrega lang saken lahat ng sweldo ni mister, kasama pang luho ko (foot spa, body massage, manicure pedicure (all every two weeks haha), hotoil every month and shopping spree every weekend)Di naman ako super maluho no? haha
4. I wanna be a chef! this is for real. I'm frustrated about cooking meals, I really wanna learn. The best meal I could is FRIED PORKCHOP! how pathetic I am! LOL
5. I wanna be an interior designer.
6. I wanna be a paid blogger. Hahaha!
7. I wanna be a botique / spa / salon / resort / bar owner (ambisyosa? lol)
I could be that ambisyosa but seriuosly, I wanna accomplish at least two from the list above. I am turning 25 on Wednesday. I think, it's not too late for me to start working on my dreams.
1. I wanna work in a magazine industry. I don't know how you call that position. But I'd like to handle the part of doing all the layout and design of a magazine.
2. I wanna be a personal shopper. haha! can you imagine that? saya! shopping lang ng shopping. shit di ko naman damit! LOL
3. I wanna be a plain housewife! LOL. bakit hinde? e hilig ko nga lang magdecorate ng rooms. so tingin ko, i will survive. Basta entrega lang saken lahat ng sweldo ni mister, kasama pang luho ko (foot spa, body massage, manicure pedicure (all every two weeks haha), hotoil every month and shopping spree every weekend)Di naman ako super maluho no? haha
4. I wanna be a chef! this is for real. I'm frustrated about cooking meals, I really wanna learn. The best meal I could is FRIED PORKCHOP! how pathetic I am! LOL
5. I wanna be an interior designer.
6. I wanna be a paid blogger. Hahaha!
7. I wanna be a botique / spa / salon / resort / bar owner (ambisyosa? lol)
I could be that ambisyosa but seriuosly, I wanna accomplish at least two from the list above. I am turning 25 on Wednesday. I think, it's not too late for me to start working on my dreams.
Nov 9, 2008
3rd in a row
yea. hehehe. This is my third post. What can I do? I miss blogging just how I miss my old fave series. As I finished the available episodes of The Hills, I browsed on the Desperate Hosewives link. Now, I'm done with 2 episodes and I'm kinda happy seeing them again. Crazy you think? haha! I love that series. I mean, SUPER! I see a lil bit of myself from everyone in there. A lil bit of Susan when she's being clumsy and cheesy with whoever she's living with, God, I couldn't believe she had 2 husbands and now she playing fire with this hot painter named Jackson. Sometimes, am like Bree Hodge when it comes to home decorating stuffs, believe me, I love decorating houses. Am a bit OC at times. Gabby was once a fashion icon and so am I. LOL (KAPAL?) I love dressing up just like her, what's wrong with that? hehe. But, am kinda upset why she changed here in Season 5. She's now a fat mom, why can't she be the other ladies there? They tend to not forget about their figure and stuff. You know what I mean? I'm a lil bit like Eddie Britt when it comes to bed. hahahahha! Ok. let's scrap that. I was just kiddin. I dont know how would I compare myself with eddie britt. LOL ok. I'm naughty just like her. Fair enough? LOL Lastly, I really see myself with Lynette Scavo. She's tough, she's lovely, she's a good mom, a good wife, and she prioritize family above all things. That's what I am. She was once distracted by other man, but later on, realized what she did was wrong and eventually went home to her husband and patch things up and you know, for her family first before herself.
I enjoyed watching desperate, if it's possible to bum in front of the computer for life I'll do it. But I need to get some rest and prepare for work tonight. DARN...
I could probably be Lynette in my future family. Am really excited bout it. Yes, I know, in God's perfect time. SURE. :)
I enjoyed watching desperate, if it's possible to bum in front of the computer for life I'll do it. But I need to get some rest and prepare for work tonight. DARN...
I could probably be Lynette in my future family. Am really excited bout it. Yes, I know, in God's perfect time. SURE. :)
A morning to mourn..
I just finished episodes 7-13 of Season 4 of "The Hills". Wow! I've been online since 8:00am today. Blogging and surfing the net. Nothing to do, i just don't want him to occupy my thoughts. It's not working anyway. :( The reason why I had to wake up was that I got a text message from him. It was a lovely text indeed. It made my morning very very lonely.
Aww. How in the world I could forget this day? it's nov 10 and we are suppose to celebrate our 103rd monthsary of togetherness. Well, if you could call it that. Hah! yea? how do we call it anyway? I dont know.
Btw, I replied and here it goes...
It's just sad. really. Ang dami pa namang events na magaganap sa mga susunod na araw. There goes my Birthday on the 26th of this month. Then, I'll gonna be having a long weekend after that because it's Thanksgiving in the states. Then, there's Christmas and New Year. A lot of ocassions that I will ofcourse celebrate alone. The lonesome is killing me.
I was thinking though.. Ilang birthday at pasko pa ang lilipas na wala sya? ilang problema pang personal ang lulutasin ko na magisa? Ilang gabi pang papasok ako na walang kasama? ilang gabi pang tatamarin akong pumasok na wala sya? Sa mga oras na gusto kong uminom at magpakachill sana, wala akong taong mayaya man lang na sabayan ako sa pagdurusa. I'm all down, miserable and lost. He mentioned something yesterday which really touched my heart, nasaktan ako para sa kanya. Alam ko ang paghihirap nya dun, walang may ibang alam kundi ako.
sabi nya..
Wala akong nagawa kundi yakapin sya. Iparamdam nalang sana na andito ako para sa kanya. Yet, iba narin ang decision ko. Ang lumayo, hanapin ang sarili ko. Alam kong imposible to. Pero sana wala naman kumontra na kaya ko. Di ko kelangan ng komento ng mga taong alam kong wala naman kwenta so sana pabayaan nyo akong magmourn muna for a moment. Hindi madali tong pinagdadaanan ko. Wala akong pakealam kung hindi nyo maintindihan, dahil sa pagkakaalalam ko. I never invade anyone's private's life unless they allowed me so. Kaya sana, pabayaan nyo akong manahimik. Kelangan ko to. Intindihin nyo. For the longest time, tumulong ako sa mga tao, sa mga taong mahal ko, madalas akong makinig, umunawa, magbigay ng advice, makidalamhati sa pagiisa. Sa mga rant nila, pinakinggan ko, mahirap isabay lalo na pag ganto ang sitwasyon ko. Wala nakong lakas para ituwid ang ibang buhay sa ngayon. Kung sarili ko ngang buhay, twisted, papakelaman ko pa ba ang ibang buhay ng tao. Sana maintindihan nyo, at kung hindi man... wala akong akong pakelam.
Boss, pwede magbakasyon? At pede humingi ng pampabakasyon? haha! un natawa din ako sa wakas!
hi, im sorry but i cant forget this day and i cant stop myself doing this. im badly missing you babe, i love you still. Happy bday. thanks for everything. - onie
Aww. How in the world I could forget this day? it's nov 10 and we are suppose to celebrate our 103rd monthsary of togetherness. Well, if you could call it that. Hah! yea? how do we call it anyway? I dont know.
Btw, I replied and here it goes...
you know how much you mean to me. I want you to work on your case foirst, once you're free, look for me. By then, let's start a new chapter of our lives. It is hard living without you. I know it's gonna be very very lonely. But i have to do this. Take care of yourself babe. I'll wait for you. Trust me on that. - aiza
It's just sad. really. Ang dami pa namang events na magaganap sa mga susunod na araw. There goes my Birthday on the 26th of this month. Then, I'll gonna be having a long weekend after that because it's Thanksgiving in the states. Then, there's Christmas and New Year. A lot of ocassions that I will ofcourse celebrate alone. The lonesome is killing me.
I was thinking though.. Ilang birthday at pasko pa ang lilipas na wala sya? ilang problema pang personal ang lulutasin ko na magisa? Ilang gabi pang papasok ako na walang kasama? ilang gabi pang tatamarin akong pumasok na wala sya? Sa mga oras na gusto kong uminom at magpakachill sana, wala akong taong mayaya man lang na sabayan ako sa pagdurusa. I'm all down, miserable and lost. He mentioned something yesterday which really touched my heart, nasaktan ako para sa kanya. Alam ko ang paghihirap nya dun, walang may ibang alam kundi ako.
sabi nya..
Gusto ko nalang gumising kung dapat ng gumising. kapag hearing ko na dun ko nalang gusto gumising. pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi naman ako makatulog. ilang araw nakong gising. pagod nako.
Wala akong nagawa kundi yakapin sya. Iparamdam nalang sana na andito ako para sa kanya. Yet, iba narin ang decision ko. Ang lumayo, hanapin ang sarili ko. Alam kong imposible to. Pero sana wala naman kumontra na kaya ko. Di ko kelangan ng komento ng mga taong alam kong wala naman kwenta so sana pabayaan nyo akong magmourn muna for a moment. Hindi madali tong pinagdadaanan ko. Wala akong pakealam kung hindi nyo maintindihan, dahil sa pagkakaalalam ko. I never invade anyone's private's life unless they allowed me so. Kaya sana, pabayaan nyo akong manahimik. Kelangan ko to. Intindihin nyo. For the longest time, tumulong ako sa mga tao, sa mga taong mahal ko, madalas akong makinig, umunawa, magbigay ng advice, makidalamhati sa pagiisa. Sa mga rant nila, pinakinggan ko, mahirap isabay lalo na pag ganto ang sitwasyon ko. Wala nakong lakas para ituwid ang ibang buhay sa ngayon. Kung sarili ko ngang buhay, twisted, papakelaman ko pa ba ang ibang buhay ng tao. Sana maintindihan nyo, at kung hindi man... wala akong akong pakelam.
Boss, pwede magbakasyon? At pede humingi ng pampabakasyon? haha! un natawa din ako sa wakas!
Thank God for this...
This is really helping me.. Wonder if you guys need divertion as well.
Click in here to watch several series you ♥.
http://latest-episode.blogspot.com/
I am fan of The Hills
I LOve Gossip Girls
I adore Desperate Housewives
And I'm planning to watch whichever series that are in here.
Thanks to my lil sister's friend's account from multiply. Now I have this. :)
Click in here to watch several series you ♥.
http://latest-episode.blogspot.com/
I am fan of The Hills
I LOve Gossip Girls
I adore Desperate Housewives
And I'm planning to watch whichever series that are in here.
Thanks to my lil sister's friend's account from multiply. Now I have this. :)
Nov 6, 2008
The Countdown's Soo Over
I didn't see this coming, I was hoping for the best until I recieved a godamn message from her sis telling me that the hearing was fucked up and needs to re-sched on January 28, 2009. My world literally fell down and I got a chance to burst out. It's frustrating too much that I need to take a rest and gather few of my friends then asked them for a lil support and company. I didn't work last night, that's why I'm here at home and since I am feeling disoriented and unfocused, I am now awake though I haven't had enough sleep yet.
I'm not happy that I had to wake up and rant again for the nth time regarding my oh-so-cool love life. I don't have plans of waking up. It would be better if I'll be gone for a while (or for life), or at least save myself from this unbelievable nightmare. I'm not really into taking pieces by pieces, I'm not ready for any changes, I'm even sick and tired of waiting, I could possibly kill myself because of this hatred I am feeling right now. i just couldn't understand why the fuck all these things are happening.
I'm all tired and crazy about stuffs regarding him. But why the hell I can't stop myself from caring? I myself don't know how much I love this man, I could die for him, I can do whatever shits for him, I can somehow make things possible even for other people its kinda weird. Before I was thinking, I'm doing these because I know it's all worth it. Now, I don't have any idea if this will work out. I am dumb! I FUCKIN know!
It's been a while since my last post about updates of my life. I couldn't find time to blog. Also, there's nothing new to share. No excitements and what I'm currently doing was waiting and waiting for the result yesterday. And now, evrything was clear. Clear enough for me to burst out everything! AM I DOOMED TO FAIL? shit this crazy life! I'm afraid to face another chapter of life without him totally. I don't know what to do, I really am frustrated and miserable. :(
redhorse isa pa nga! :(
I'm not happy that I had to wake up and rant again for the nth time regarding my oh-so-cool love life. I don't have plans of waking up. It would be better if I'll be gone for a while (or for life), or at least save myself from this unbelievable nightmare. I'm not really into taking pieces by pieces, I'm not ready for any changes, I'm even sick and tired of waiting, I could possibly kill myself because of this hatred I am feeling right now. i just couldn't understand why the fuck all these things are happening.
I'm all tired and crazy about stuffs regarding him. But why the hell I can't stop myself from caring? I myself don't know how much I love this man, I could die for him, I can do whatever shits for him, I can somehow make things possible even for other people its kinda weird. Before I was thinking, I'm doing these because I know it's all worth it. Now, I don't have any idea if this will work out. I am dumb! I FUCKIN know!
It's been a while since my last post about updates of my life. I couldn't find time to blog. Also, there's nothing new to share. No excitements and what I'm currently doing was waiting and waiting for the result yesterday. And now, evrything was clear. Clear enough for me to burst out everything! AM I DOOMED TO FAIL? shit this crazy life! I'm afraid to face another chapter of life without him totally. I don't know what to do, I really am frustrated and miserable. :(
redhorse isa pa nga! :(
Oct 27, 2008
I'm so jealous
I know I'm being so praning about wedding stuffs. I just couldn't help myself, but feel jealous about this. Check this out.
Doug Kramer's marriage proposal to Cheska Garcia
AND finally ..
The wedding
So lovely, soo cute, soooo sweet! :(
Doug Kramer's marriage proposal to Cheska Garcia
AND finally ..
The wedding
So lovely, soo cute, soooo sweet! :(
Oct 14, 2008
Just because am bored and sleepy..
I did this stupid survey.
Is there a girl/boy that knows everything or almost everything about you?
~> I guess Onie almost knows every single detail about me. Which sometimes I think is not so cool.
Have you ever made out in a public bathroom?
~> hell no!
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
~> yes
Have you ever had the cops called on you?
~> Thank god no.
When was the last time you danced?
~> Hmmm, I always do some weird steps. lol (pacool steps no? lol)
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
~> life is getting worse, so probably yea, I'll change some of pieces of my past.
Would you ever kiss anyone 16 and over?
~> YEAH i would
Has anyone ever crawled through your window?
~> wala pa naman
Who did you last ride in a car with?
~> manong taxi driver haha
What is something you're currently frustrated about?
~> should I still need to spell it out?
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with and who?
~> nah, i heart that guy.
How did you and your number 1 become friends?
~> He's my childhood sweetheart. aww. scrap it! haha
Does the person you like, like you back?
~> i guess so.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
~> if i think they're worth it
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
~> i can not remember. I cry on my own.
Have you told anybody you loved them today and who was it?
~> nah.
Have you ever taken a nap with a member of the opposite sex?
> yea.
Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
~> I guess so
Do you have plans for tomorrow and wat?
~> just plain work. arg! freakin' boringggg
couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
~> yes, but i want to have kids of my own..
Have you ever lied about your age?
~> nope. I don't need to. Sabi nila. I always look younger. lol
Ever stolen something out of someone's yard?
~> flowers lang
Have you ever written anything on a bathroom wall or door?
~> jologs...haha
When playing truth or dare, which do you choose?
~> truth
Whats one thing you miss?
~> Cuddling. LOL
How long until your birthday?
~> a month from now
Who was the last person to call you?
~> Tatu
What's your favorite brand of gum?
~> Judge
Any Siblings?
~> 1 bro, 3 sis
How old is the cellphone you have right now?
~> less than a month?
Do you know anyone named Tyler?
~> nah
What was the last thing you bought?
~> yosi
Can you do a handstand?
~> yes
How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
~> below 10
Do you like surprises?
~> A LOT :)
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
~> sure
Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
~> hmmm.. i guess none. lol lahat tamad, lahat ayaw mag-alaga, gusto sila ang aalagaan. LOL
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
~> glasses and contax, at times
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
~> the current situation, onie, and some bitchy cab drivers.
Are you a forgiving person?
~> it deopends
What were you doing at 3 AM this morning?
~> wooorking!
Something that made you mad today?
~> nothing
Is your room clean?
~> yep
Who are your last three texts from?
~> km, gen, tatu
Where'd you get the shirt your wearing?
~> st. francis
Is there a girl/boy that knows everything or almost everything about you?
~> I guess Onie almost knows every single detail about me. Which sometimes I think is not so cool.
Have you ever made out in a public bathroom?
~> hell no!
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
~> yes
Have you ever had the cops called on you?
~> Thank god no.
When was the last time you danced?
~> Hmmm, I always do some weird steps. lol (pacool steps no? lol)
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
~> life is getting worse, so probably yea, I'll change some of pieces of my past.
Would you ever kiss anyone 16 and over?
~> YEAH i would
Has anyone ever crawled through your window?
~> wala pa naman
Who did you last ride in a car with?
~> manong taxi driver haha
What is something you're currently frustrated about?
~> should I still need to spell it out?
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with and who?
~> nah, i heart that guy.
How did you and your number 1 become friends?
~> He's my childhood sweetheart. aww. scrap it! haha
Does the person you like, like you back?
~> i guess so.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
~> if i think they're worth it
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
~> i can not remember. I cry on my own.
Have you told anybody you loved them today and who was it?
~> nah.
Have you ever taken a nap with a member of the opposite sex?
> yea.
Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
~> I guess so
Do you have plans for tomorrow and wat?
~> just plain work. arg! freakin' boringggg
couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
~> yes, but i want to have kids of my own..
Have you ever lied about your age?
~> nope. I don't need to. Sabi nila. I always look younger. lol
Ever stolen something out of someone's yard?
~> flowers lang
Have you ever written anything on a bathroom wall or door?
~> jologs...haha
When playing truth or dare, which do you choose?
~> truth
Whats one thing you miss?
~> Cuddling. LOL
How long until your birthday?
~> a month from now
Who was the last person to call you?
~> Tatu
What's your favorite brand of gum?
~> Judge
Any Siblings?
~> 1 bro, 3 sis
How old is the cellphone you have right now?
~> less than a month?
Do you know anyone named Tyler?
~> nah
What was the last thing you bought?
~> yosi
Can you do a handstand?
~> yes
How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
~> below 10
Do you like surprises?
~> A LOT :)
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
~> sure
Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
~> hmmm.. i guess none. lol lahat tamad, lahat ayaw mag-alaga, gusto sila ang aalagaan. LOL
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
~> glasses and contax, at times
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
~> the current situation, onie, and some bitchy cab drivers.
Are you a forgiving person?
~> it deopends
What were you doing at 3 AM this morning?
~> wooorking!
Something that made you mad today?
~> nothing
Is your room clean?
~> yep
Who are your last three texts from?
~> km, gen, tatu
Where'd you get the shirt your wearing?
~> st. francis
Oct 7, 2008
Do you know how lucky you are?
Some people misunderstood the real meaning of happiness. I admit, most of the time I really don't know where, with whom, and how would I get this particular feeling. All of us are seeking and longing for this. At some point, we actually don't seem to understand that we are already happy, what's really bugging us is that, we are not contented of what we have, what we are, and where we are.
Ok. lemme get straight to the point. I have a friend. Who's very very lucky but she didn't know she was. So I was having a good conversation with her last night, and since we lack time for she has to leave and my shift just started, I told her I'll gonna post an entry for her about what I'd want tell her exactly.
For the past few months or weeks probably, I haven't seen this girl. I text her at times, but seldomly we exchanged messages because we have different shifts. It's kinda obvious that this girl is one of my favorites among my friends, I believe each of my buddies are unique by personalities and I kinda had a lot of good and bad times with her before compared to others. Somewhat, she didn't leave me behind and tried her best to be a perfect friend so I am really grateful having her around. :) (thanks buddy I owe you one!) So yeah, to reciprocate whatever she did for me before, I am now trying my best to be a perfect friend to her as well.
At this point of time, I know she's in the midst of her searching, seeking for someone to be with her for the rest of her lives. But yeah, we know this prob is very very common to us girls that we badly want to meet Mr. Right at this age. However, it wasn't that easy. The searching continues each and everyday and we all hope that whoever would be the lucky man who'll be our other halves would be the ideal man we have from our dreamland. So yeah, this friend of mine reached the peak of her boiling point. She even want to go to Baclaran and pray really hard to our Lord God for his Mr. Right. She was so frustrated that she went to me and ask help to get over this feeling or help her find Mr. Right.
As a good friend, first thing I did was to enlighten her how lucky she is without a boyfriend. There are other things which we should prioritize than ranting about not having a boo by our side. Should I need to mention this for her to realize how blessed she is? This girl is a rich kid, a programmer, a dean's lister way back in college (haha), so she's smart and I tell you what? This girl is a chick. She doesn't have vices and yah.. ok ok.. she's really nice. A perfect description for her is--opposite of me. LOL
The second step I did was to search some of guy friends from my phonelist. My plan is to text them regarding courting this girl. LOL. And yeah I did! To my surprise, 2 friends replied. So, it was definitely a successful task! GREAT!
I know, what we did was weird, but I seriously wanted to help you search for Mr. Right. Who knows this guy might be him! hehehehe.
haha! Like I said, I'd be grateful seing you happy and contented. Girl, I wish you and him will be together really soon, and when I say soon, I'm hoping for like next week. LOL. (Ang tagal e!)
On Saturday, I wish I could come. I won't forget texting everyone if I'm coming.. So guys, see you when I got to see ya all!
Geni, Cheer up! Stop being paranoid about having a boyfriend or what, in God's perfect time... (sana sinasabi ko rin to sa sarili ko no? LOL)
Fine! I'm done with this! :D
Ok. lemme get straight to the point. I have a friend. Who's very very lucky but she didn't know she was. So I was having a good conversation with her last night, and since we lack time for she has to leave and my shift just started, I told her I'll gonna post an entry for her about what I'd want tell her exactly.
For the past few months or weeks probably, I haven't seen this girl. I text her at times, but seldomly we exchanged messages because we have different shifts. It's kinda obvious that this girl is one of my favorites among my friends, I believe each of my buddies are unique by personalities and I kinda had a lot of good and bad times with her before compared to others. Somewhat, she didn't leave me behind and tried her best to be a perfect friend so I am really grateful having her around. :) (thanks buddy I owe you one!) So yeah, to reciprocate whatever she did for me before, I am now trying my best to be a perfect friend to her as well.
At this point of time, I know she's in the midst of her searching, seeking for someone to be with her for the rest of her lives. But yeah, we know this prob is very very common to us girls that we badly want to meet Mr. Right at this age. However, it wasn't that easy. The searching continues each and everyday and we all hope that whoever would be the lucky man who'll be our other halves would be the ideal man we have from our dreamland. So yeah, this friend of mine reached the peak of her boiling point. She even want to go to Baclaran and pray really hard to our Lord God for his Mr. Right. She was so frustrated that she went to me and ask help to get over this feeling or help her find Mr. Right.
As a good friend, first thing I did was to enlighten her how lucky she is without a boyfriend. There are other things which we should prioritize than ranting about not having a boo by our side. Should I need to mention this for her to realize how blessed she is? This girl is a rich kid, a programmer, a dean's lister way back in college (haha), so she's smart and I tell you what? This girl is a chick. She doesn't have vices and yah.. ok ok.. she's really nice. A perfect description for her is--opposite of me. LOL
The second step I did was to search some of guy friends from my phonelist. My plan is to text them regarding courting this girl. LOL. And yeah I did! To my surprise, 2 friends replied. So, it was definitely a successful task! GREAT!
I know, what we did was weird, but I seriously wanted to help you search for Mr. Right. Who knows this guy might be him! hehehehe.
haha! Like I said, I'd be grateful seing you happy and contented. Girl, I wish you and him will be together really soon, and when I say soon, I'm hoping for like next week. LOL. (Ang tagal e!)
On Saturday, I wish I could come. I won't forget texting everyone if I'm coming.. So guys, see you when I got to see ya all!
Geni, Cheer up! Stop being paranoid about having a boyfriend or what, in God's perfect time... (sana sinasabi ko rin to sa sarili ko no? LOL)
Fine! I'm done with this! :D
Oct 6, 2008
Who the hell cares..
... if Christmas is really fast approaching?
Shopping is the only way I could make myself somewhat happy so I need to go to the mall once in a while, but what the heck! there's already christmas songs playing all over the malls which I really can not take. Okay. I'm being too bitter about it. I honestly do not want that holiday season to come. It's just that, for me, holidays are for happy couples, and I don't belong to that crowd! I feel so awful hearing "silver bells" and "santa claus is coming to town" songs, samahan mo pa ng tagalog na... "sana ngayong pasko ay maalala mo paren ako" whatever shit songs!
ok ok. this is soo not fair!! I can not believe I'll celebrate Christmas alone for the second time! His folks promised me, we'll be together this Christmas, and okay i wanna messaged him some bitchy text messages like. "Hey, do you even know what's the date today? Do you even know Christmas is fast approaching? What happened to your promise? Again, I know you're suffering too.. BUT SERIOUSLY, IF HE'LL NOT CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH ME THIS YEAR, I THINK I'LL GONNA DIE LITERALLY!"
God! I'm feeling helpless. I don't want this feeling. or should I say, i want this feeling to end!
Please NO CHRISTMAS SONGS for me, or even christmas tree or christmas stuffs! Damn it! I'm soo outta here!
Shopping is the only way I could make myself somewhat happy so I need to go to the mall once in a while, but what the heck! there's already christmas songs playing all over the malls which I really can not take. Okay. I'm being too bitter about it. I honestly do not want that holiday season to come. It's just that, for me, holidays are for happy couples, and I don't belong to that crowd! I feel so awful hearing "silver bells" and "santa claus is coming to town" songs, samahan mo pa ng tagalog na... "sana ngayong pasko ay maalala mo paren ako" whatever shit songs!
ok ok. this is soo not fair!! I can not believe I'll celebrate Christmas alone for the second time! His folks promised me, we'll be together this Christmas, and okay i wanna messaged him some bitchy text messages like. "Hey, do you even know what's the date today? Do you even know Christmas is fast approaching? What happened to your promise? Again, I know you're suffering too.. BUT SERIOUSLY, IF HE'LL NOT CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH ME THIS YEAR, I THINK I'LL GONNA DIE LITERALLY!"
God! I'm feeling helpless. I don't want this feeling. or should I say, i want this feeling to end!
Please NO CHRISTMAS SONGS for me, or even christmas tree or christmas stuffs! Damn it! I'm soo outta here!
We should be apart, babe..
How can you say it's too much already? I really don't know when to stop caring for a person who's been a part of me since HS. I had enough, but still I can't manage to let go and be brave to tell him on his face that I'm happy no more. Ok. Cut the latter part. I actually did last Sat. But, you see he gave in once again and did his lil drama and all. So what's gonna be my reaction after that? Of course, was to be silent and yea, accept the fact that I should stay and wait for whatever shit am waiting for the longest time.
I do love this man. I actually wanna marry him someday. If he's available right now, I'll be the one to insist marrying him right then and there. Yea, I am that stupid and crazy over this guy. As for him? I don't know. I actually do not know if he knows the real definition of what we call L♥VE.
So there, I must say, yeah, I still love this man. But what am I suppose to do when I really need to let go because I'm fuckin' stressed and hurt at the same time...
Last time we talked about our wrecked relationship, I was totally crying like hell. I got real big eyebags that I barely open my eyes. :( It was indeed one of my saddest nights of my life. Crap! I asked him, how would he kiss me if that night would be his last time to see me. Then he was like really silent and stiff, not even looking at me. To break the silence, I cared to scream, WHAAAAAAAAAAT?? are we going to stare each other until tomorrow or you'll show me how you'll gonna kiss me goodbye for the fuckin' last time...
Then he go like..
I'm like..
The story ends there, becuase I fell asleep when I was crying. :( I went home by 10pm. It was indeed a tiry day/night. Still am undecided. I don't know where we stand. I feel crappy and bad.
Life.. Oh Life..
I do love this man. I actually wanna marry him someday. If he's available right now, I'll be the one to insist marrying him right then and there. Yea, I am that stupid and crazy over this guy. As for him? I don't know. I actually do not know if he knows the real definition of what we call L♥VE.
Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous;--- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7,13
love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly;
it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails...But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.
So there, I must say, yeah, I still love this man. But what am I suppose to do when I really need to let go because I'm fuckin' stressed and hurt at the same time...
Last time we talked about our wrecked relationship, I was totally crying like hell. I got real big eyebags that I barely open my eyes. :( It was indeed one of my saddest nights of my life. Crap! I asked him, how would he kiss me if that night would be his last time to see me. Then he was like really silent and stiff, not even looking at me. To break the silence, I cared to scream, WHAAAAAAAAAAT?? are we going to stare each other until tomorrow or you'll show me how you'll gonna kiss me goodbye for the fuckin' last time...
Then he go like..
There will be no goodbye kiss for us. Because this is not the ending, there will be no ending for us babe.
I'm like..
Fuck that! I really don't care what life will treat me after this, I just wanna be out of this shitty relationship that gives me a lot of pains and heartaches, and frustartions. I seriously wanna die! Can you like kill me, so I could die beside you, I do not want to continue my life after this. I'm feeling crappy and all. What I want is for you to have a normal life with me outside this awful place. I am bloody miserable!
The story ends there, becuase I fell asleep when I was crying. :( I went home by 10pm. It was indeed a tiry day/night. Still am undecided. I don't know where we stand. I feel crappy and bad.
Life.. Oh Life..
Sep 30, 2008
For a change..
Living in down south is so stressful for me, though sometimes I got to think, I am loving it for a particular reason. Just one reason that I never thought of before. I am unhappy, everyone knows that. But since the day I arrived my hometown, my routine began to change a lil bit. My phone that rarely beeps, beeps a million times now. Haven't had time watching dvds I bought last last pay day. As for the reason? I don't know! LOL. I always feel tired everyday. But at least, I got to hang out with my old childhood friends last weekend. Boy, I miss these guys. Yosi lang, bolahan ng onte, sandamakmak na kwentuhan and updates sa isa't isa. Then we bounced. Un lang...
Hope the texting won't stop soon. I am still enjoying it, though I know this is kinda crappy, because for some reasons I know, He's not into me. He missed me as a friend. As an old time friend. Well, it sucks but I still thank him. For brighting up my days and nights. :)
Now what? Are we going to watch movie on Sunday? can we call it a date? Hell no! Fine with me!
Hope the texting won't stop soon. I am still enjoying it, though I know this is kinda crappy, because for some reasons I know, He's not into me. He missed me as a friend. As an old time friend. Well, it sucks but I still thank him. For brighting up my days and nights. :)
Now what? Are we going to watch movie on Sunday? can we call it a date? Hell no! Fine with me!
Sep 26, 2008
Why oh why?
Again, I stumble upon these pics from bryanboy's blog. This time, I didn't freak out. I was calm down and cursing Jenny Humphrey over my mind! LOL.. What's happening in this godamn world? LOL I couldn't realize this 'lil J having the best time with my oh so hot NATE... LOL
FINE!
I can deal with this. :))
Spotted: Chuck Bass on Drew Barrymore!
Hmm.. How bout this sizzling pic I got from elsewhere huh.. CB on DB. Whatda!?? C'mon! I know Drew is smokin' hot but she's 33 and our gossip boy here is only 21 and he's CHUCK BASS ok! I mean, yeah! He's something and he's friggin' waaaayy too young! plus I SO ♥ CHUCK plus NATE. LOL. Okay. I'll take the exit door this time, coz I'm freakin' like hell!
Haha!
Just don't tell B bout this thingy... *wink wink*
I know you love me, XOXO,
A
Sep 25, 2008
Finally moved out
After having tons of entries about me being hassled by a stupid cat, I found myself traveling from one place to another. This time, bringing all my stuffs going home. :( it's kinda disappointing because I somewhat think my housemate doesn't appreciate my efforts on taking care of her pet. Ok. I know it's too shallow, but what can I do? I'm not a pet lover. I'm not happy as well because finally I'm living again with my whole fam. Living with parents will always be an issue for me, not because they don't allow me partying all night, or because they are as strict as hell, or because I can't be myself whenever am home.
I tell you what.. At home? I'm the boss, I care less even I don't go home 2 to 3 days because I'm just chilling around in neighbors' crib or because I just can't go home for I'm stoned drunk or something. Living with my 'rents is kinda so-so, I got to have nice meals, not just like in condo, fried porkchop will be the most delicious food I could cook for myself. Probably, the only thing I'll miss about the condo is the convenience. I swear to death! travelling from the condo to the office was no biggie deal, remember the unlimited cabs around the area? Today, I left home 10:45, and it was raining hard. I arrived office exactly 12mn. Get what I mean? It's too fuckin hard living far from your work. what else? Ah yah! The atm machines nearby. Yesterday, I forgot I wasn't living in the condo anymore, for I had no cash left in my purse. So I had to ask for 500 bucks from my big sis. At the condo, I don't worry when it comes to cash. Anytime I could just walk beside the building for atms. Gosh! this is so frustrating, I am finally missing the condo minus the stupid cat.
Lastly, I just noticed (even my boss did), that I hardly dress up these past few days. Why? hell, how would I wear my collection of pumps if I have to walk from our gate to the guard house of the village just to get a tryk! Fuck! right? haha! Sigh! Just like what Aisa has to say, dressing up is the only thing that could make our days brighter having been in this kind of work environment, night shift, having geeky officemates around you, twisted relationship we are into, what else? haha! dressing up could be the last option we do to make ourselves... say, pretty happy or contented somehow. I don't know. To show you the difference on how I dress up last week from this week, lemme show you some pics from before....
Last Monday, I am wearing chocolate brown high waist skirt, polka dot polo top, brown flower brooch, and chocolate/cream stilletos.
Last Tuesday, I am wearing spag strap inside top, brown long vintage polo top, brown belt. maong skinny jeans, and white slip-ons.
Last Wednesday, I wore halter top with beads as necklace, 3/4's black bolero, highwaist gray skirt, gucci belt, and black stilletos.
And yeah, I don't know what I wore last Thursday shift and I got no pic too! Let's proceed on my Friday get up. Well, it's Tricia's bday and yeah! We dressed up again because we're going to have a breakfast somewhere in eastwood.
I am wearing that shimmery gray dress, it's actually a top for those normal girls, so, since am shorty, it's a dress a for me, plus stripes racerback, gucci belt and yellow pumps.
As for this week, I always wear skinny jeans pants, normal shirts, hoodies, jackets, and slippers. Well, for some reasons like, I have my period, I don't feel like dressing up, plus, it's non sense because of the stupid weather, and yeah! it's kinda hard because im riding a bus going to the office. So there...
P.S. The reason why my pics were kinda candid is that I have this one officemate who thinks I dress up like a barbie doll, she's a lil fond about my fashion style I guess, so once in while last week, she begged on taking pics of my attire, but i'm a lil shy about it. LOL
I tell you what.. At home? I'm the boss, I care less even I don't go home 2 to 3 days because I'm just chilling around in neighbors' crib or because I just can't go home for I'm stoned drunk or something. Living with my 'rents is kinda so-so, I got to have nice meals, not just like in condo, fried porkchop will be the most delicious food I could cook for myself. Probably, the only thing I'll miss about the condo is the convenience. I swear to death! travelling from the condo to the office was no biggie deal, remember the unlimited cabs around the area? Today, I left home 10:45, and it was raining hard. I arrived office exactly 12mn. Get what I mean? It's too fuckin hard living far from your work. what else? Ah yah! The atm machines nearby. Yesterday, I forgot I wasn't living in the condo anymore, for I had no cash left in my purse. So I had to ask for 500 bucks from my big sis. At the condo, I don't worry when it comes to cash. Anytime I could just walk beside the building for atms. Gosh! this is so frustrating, I am finally missing the condo minus the stupid cat.
Lastly, I just noticed (even my boss did), that I hardly dress up these past few days. Why? hell, how would I wear my collection of pumps if I have to walk from our gate to the guard house of the village just to get a tryk! Fuck! right? haha! Sigh! Just like what Aisa has to say, dressing up is the only thing that could make our days brighter having been in this kind of work environment, night shift, having geeky officemates around you, twisted relationship we are into, what else? haha! dressing up could be the last option we do to make ourselves... say, pretty happy or contented somehow. I don't know. To show you the difference on how I dress up last week from this week, lemme show you some pics from before....
Last Monday, I am wearing chocolate brown high waist skirt, polka dot polo top, brown flower brooch, and chocolate/cream stilletos.
Last Tuesday, I am wearing spag strap inside top, brown long vintage polo top, brown belt. maong skinny jeans, and white slip-ons.
Last Wednesday, I wore halter top with beads as necklace, 3/4's black bolero, highwaist gray skirt, gucci belt, and black stilletos.
And yeah, I don't know what I wore last Thursday shift and I got no pic too! Let's proceed on my Friday get up. Well, it's Tricia's bday and yeah! We dressed up again because we're going to have a breakfast somewhere in eastwood.
I am wearing that shimmery gray dress, it's actually a top for those normal girls, so, since am shorty, it's a dress a for me, plus stripes racerback, gucci belt and yellow pumps.
As for this week, I always wear skinny jeans pants, normal shirts, hoodies, jackets, and slippers. Well, for some reasons like, I have my period, I don't feel like dressing up, plus, it's non sense because of the stupid weather, and yeah! it's kinda hard because im riding a bus going to the office. So there...
P.S. The reason why my pics were kinda candid is that I have this one officemate who thinks I dress up like a barbie doll, she's a lil fond about my fashion style I guess, so once in while last week, she begged on taking pics of my attire, but i'm a lil shy about it. LOL
Sep 21, 2008
it's PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome) I suppose
Last night, I planned to have some drinks with my old fellas Carla, Marla, and Orange in her humble crib, but then again for the second time, I failed! Arg! I hate it. But hey, it wasn't my intention. I arrived home like 7pm from Onie's and was expecting to receive tons of text from them. Unfortunately, I left my phone to my sis before we separate ways last Saturday dawn at the condo. So, yeah, meaning, she haven't got home since. When I reached my room to take a short rest, I didn't realize I fell asleep. Darn it! Shoot! I am so DEAD!
:(
So, what happened with my Saturday night was all sleeping and playing with my nephew. The next day, they left early than usual. That made me sad again.
So, it's Sunday today. Way back 2 years ago, my Sundays were exciting and full of surprises. And that made it the reason why I love Sundays, because for me, it's my day. It's our day. It's our day together, were we could hang out together till the next day or we could cuddle all night long, or we could drink to death until the sun is up. It has never been this sad since then. I didn't realize everything will fall apart. I know, this is kinda same with all the rants I've been saying since day 1 he left. I am prolly dealing with PMS again. Arg! I hate being a girl.
I haven't gone outside since I was home. I didn't do any exciting things yet. I've been sleeping since I arrived. All I do was rest. And I am fuckin bored. I want a new activity. I want to spice up my life. I want new exciting things. Oh.. I don't know what to do now.. But yeah, I'm godamn bored!
I still have a dilemma about staying at the condo and/or going here in Alabang every day. It's just that, this is very very hard decision making I encounter... (LOL ang OA lang haha)
Okay. I gotta go to the bathroom now and take a bath. Prolly with that, all the bad vibes will fade. I hope so…
BIG SIGH.. I am so ♥less :( You got to be kiddin me.. SIGH..
:(
So, what happened with my Saturday night was all sleeping and playing with my nephew. The next day, they left early than usual. That made me sad again.
So, it's Sunday today. Way back 2 years ago, my Sundays were exciting and full of surprises. And that made it the reason why I love Sundays, because for me, it's my day. It's our day. It's our day together, were we could hang out together till the next day or we could cuddle all night long, or we could drink to death until the sun is up. It has never been this sad since then. I didn't realize everything will fall apart. I know, this is kinda same with all the rants I've been saying since day 1 he left. I am prolly dealing with PMS again. Arg! I hate being a girl.
I haven't gone outside since I was home. I didn't do any exciting things yet. I've been sleeping since I arrived. All I do was rest. And I am fuckin bored. I want a new activity. I want to spice up my life. I want new exciting things. Oh.. I don't know what to do now.. But yeah, I'm godamn bored!
I still have a dilemma about staying at the condo and/or going here in Alabang every day. It's just that, this is very very hard decision making I encounter... (LOL ang OA lang haha)
Okay. I gotta go to the bathroom now and take a bath. Prolly with that, all the bad vibes will fade. I hope so…
BIG SIGH.. I am so ♥less :( You got to be kiddin me.. SIGH..
Sep 19, 2008
not in the mood for sexy time .. LOL
I'm not in the mood to go to anywhere today. Even going to Onie's. I dunno, it's just that, I am mising my fam. Specially my fave nephnew. I just wanna play with him, even he doesn't like tita madam. LOL
anyways, i am going to bum with my HS friends later at Oge's crib. We'll see if i'll get drunk. I miss them. So yeah, prolly I'll be. :))
anyways, i am going to bum with my HS friends later at Oge's crib. We'll see if i'll get drunk. I miss them. So yeah, prolly I'll be. :))
Sep 17, 2008
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Stressful day for me
Okay, I know, I had 4 in a row entry now.. Tricia's gone and so is Aisa. I know I should be busy even boss isn't around. But I'm stress, and not feeling better. I'm alone in the row 4 and am really stressed thinking what will be cody's present for me this time. Seriously, his cat litter problem is a biggie issue for me. I asked for some help with my friend, Aileen on what to do, to avoid the foul odor which Cody made. Ask a lot of tips about cat too. I am frustrated now, why the heck im doing all of these whereas the real owner of the cat is not even bothering visiting him and mind of cleaning the entire unit. As far as I know, I'm not a pet lover, especially with cats. I don't hate them to death, but you see, I just don't like them around. :( this is making me soooo frustrated now. I honestly wanted to move out of the place but what I'm considering now is that, I might have a hard time looking for a new crib near my work. So yeah, what I browsed on the net now is how to get rid of the foul odor of cats. Thanks to Aileen and to Mr. Google too.
Here's what I got:
1. Use vinegar and warm water to clean up the cat litter and the poop on the floor.
2. Place a charcoal in the area where it stinks. It'll absorb the bad odor eventually.
3. Spray air fresher (well I have this all over the place, from the kitchen, to living room, to the bathroom)
4. Make use of two litter box, one for poop and the other for pee (like duh? I won't buy him another litter box, not my fucking obligation!)
5. Text the owner! (LOL) Been doing this lately.. But yeah.. I dunno.. Does she really love her pet? I seriously beg her to go home and get cody out of my sight! (poor cody, i love you dear, but i dont know how to take care of you, im so sorry)
Poor me. I swear! I kinda pity myself because I suffer from this. This is actually an ultimate challenge for me. But hey! I certainly do have a choice too! As per Aisa, I have all the right to tell the owner about this problem. Yeah, I know that it is possible but, I kinda think it is so offensive to tell her my problem regarding cody. :( sigh. I'm super depressed.
Well, I have so many kwento about my weekend sana. But, what happened earlier with me and cody was a bigger issue that I'd like to rant about. :(
Here's what I got:
1. Use vinegar and warm water to clean up the cat litter and the poop on the floor.
2. Place a charcoal in the area where it stinks. It'll absorb the bad odor eventually.
3. Spray air fresher (well I have this all over the place, from the kitchen, to living room, to the bathroom)
4. Make use of two litter box, one for poop and the other for pee (like duh? I won't buy him another litter box, not my fucking obligation!)
5. Text the owner! (LOL) Been doing this lately.. But yeah.. I dunno.. Does she really love her pet? I seriously beg her to go home and get cody out of my sight! (poor cody, i love you dear, but i dont know how to take care of you, im so sorry)
Poor me. I swear! I kinda pity myself because I suffer from this. This is actually an ultimate challenge for me. But hey! I certainly do have a choice too! As per Aisa, I have all the right to tell the owner about this problem. Yeah, I know that it is possible but, I kinda think it is so offensive to tell her my problem regarding cody. :( sigh. I'm super depressed.
Well, I have so many kwento about my weekend sana. But, what happened earlier with me and cody was a bigger issue that I'd like to rant about. :(
DVD Marathon
What makes me busy during times I'm idle? LOL makes no sense? Ewan ko sayo! basta ako naintindihan ko. LOL (maangas lang?)
I locked myself in my room and gather all the dvds I bought from St. Francis. Here's my list:
(DVDs)
1. I Am Legend - Done
2. My Sassy Girl - Partially Done (I hate this movie eh. LOL it's kinda frustrating that American's tend to copy the my koreanovela all time fave.)
3. Stan
4. Zohan - Done
(Series)
1. Gossip Girl (yeah, I bought new one because the one I borrowed from Gen and Misfurr was kinda busted, from this dvd, I got to watch the whole last episode which is not included from other dvds) - Done
2. Desperate Housewives Final Season - Partially Done
3. The Hills 1
4. The Hills 2
5. The Hills 3
6. The Hills 4
DVDs I borrowed from Mich (Eng)
1. Hancock
2. Meet Dave - Done
3. Maid of Honour - Done
DVDs I borrowed from Gen
1. My bestfriend's Girlfriend - Done
2. Employee of the Month - Done
3. Gossip Girl - Done
Geez! For how long I've been stuck to my room? Well, this is what I do whenever I bum in the house, trying to chill.
Just this morning, I wanted to go to the spa for some comfort, but my laziness strikes again, that ended me watching DVDs and I fell asleep until dawn. This is what I do to get rid of the lonesome and to stop from thinking about him. Yea, it's kinda helping. :) So there, I can't wait to go home now and continue my DVD marathon. I'm just not excited about cleaning the possible poop cody might do. :(
I locked myself in my room and gather all the dvds I bought from St. Francis. Here's my list:
(DVDs)
1. I Am Legend - Done
2. My Sassy Girl - Partially Done (I hate this movie eh. LOL it's kinda frustrating that American's tend to copy the my koreanovela all time fave.)
3. Stan
4. Zohan - Done
(Series)
1. Gossip Girl (yeah, I bought new one because the one I borrowed from Gen and Misfurr was kinda busted, from this dvd, I got to watch the whole last episode which is not included from other dvds) - Done
2. Desperate Housewives Final Season - Partially Done
3. The Hills 1
4. The Hills 2
5. The Hills 3
6. The Hills 4
DVDs I borrowed from Mich (Eng)
1. Hancock
2. Meet Dave - Done
3. Maid of Honour - Done
DVDs I borrowed from Gen
1. My bestfriend's Girlfriend - Done
2. Employee of the Month - Done
3. Gossip Girl - Done
Geez! For how long I've been stuck to my room? Well, this is what I do whenever I bum in the house, trying to chill.
Just this morning, I wanted to go to the spa for some comfort, but my laziness strikes again, that ended me watching DVDs and I fell asleep until dawn. This is what I do to get rid of the lonesome and to stop from thinking about him. Yea, it's kinda helping. :) So there, I can't wait to go home now and continue my DVD marathon. I'm just not excited about cleaning the possible poop cody might do. :(
Going back to my old crib
I love the condo, the cozy surroundings, the people living in there, the pool, the cool vicinities, the unlimited cabs in front of it, the nice people from laundry shop, the courteous guards, and most of all my housemate, A. Yeah, I'm super lucky being able to live there. I got to have all the comforts I need. The silence when I'm in deep sleep, the generator, whenever the brownout attacks, the uber cold ac, and my cozy room itself. haay, If I'll be given a chance owning a kind of crib like that, i'd be very willing to purchase another one, that is for me and onie this time :). So yeah, that's how im crazy in love with the unit I'm living in. However, it occured to me, just today, that I no longer like the place because of single reason--the persian cat!
Don't get me wrong, he's pretty nice, and boy this cat is really cute. But the thing is, I'm not into pets, and I don't know how to take care of them. You see, everytime I reach home, he has a nice present for me--his poop everywhere! darn it! I know! As in OH MY FUCKING GOSH!! I can't deal with him anymore. Like, I have to clean all his poop from the kitchen sink to my bathroom sink, yes! you guess it right, we share the same bathroom, so imagine how it stinks! Like ewww! :( Plus, his fur all over the place. God, I can't stand a dirty place. :( but what can I do, my housemate needs to stay for a couple of days, or i don't know, maybe weeks in her 'rent's house for some sort of personal issue. So, I'm oblidged to take care of her pet, cody.
Ok, let me clear on things, I love cody, but I can't stand him most of the time. :( and I don't fucking imagine myself living with him for the next couple of weeks ahead. :(
So, what now? should I go back to Alabang now?
This is so hard.. I can't decide. I swear!
Don't get me wrong, he's pretty nice, and boy this cat is really cute. But the thing is, I'm not into pets, and I don't know how to take care of them. You see, everytime I reach home, he has a nice present for me--his poop everywhere! darn it! I know! As in OH MY FUCKING GOSH!! I can't deal with him anymore. Like, I have to clean all his poop from the kitchen sink to my bathroom sink, yes! you guess it right, we share the same bathroom, so imagine how it stinks! Like ewww! :( Plus, his fur all over the place. God, I can't stand a dirty place. :( but what can I do, my housemate needs to stay for a couple of days, or i don't know, maybe weeks in her 'rent's house for some sort of personal issue. So, I'm oblidged to take care of her pet, cody.
Ok, let me clear on things, I love cody, but I can't stand him most of the time. :( and I don't fucking imagine myself living with him for the next couple of weeks ahead. :(
So, what now? should I go back to Alabang now?
This is so hard.. I can't decide. I swear!
New Phone?
Last Sunday, before going to Onie, I unintentionally visit the globe store in SM Muntinlupa. I dunno, there's this feeling I'd like to cut my current line and avail a new one. As for the reason? hehe I like to have a new phone. *wink* So yeah, I inquire inside and found out it's that easy to have one. The girl gave me a sheet of paper to fill in some data about me, and ask for my ID, and payslip, good thing I brought one. But she needed a 1 month payslip. Should I need to go back and present a cert of employment instead, since I my latest payslip prior to the one I gave her was already sent to Cavite via LBC for some document purposes for the house I bought. Boy I was amazed when she told me I can pick up the phone anytime this week. :) That fast? Oh my! I should settle first my current line, I mean, I don't have anything to pay though, because I see to it everything's paid on or before my paying date. But the prob is, my current line is not under my name but with my frien's. So, she has to settle first all her account before cutting my line. *sigh* Anyhow, i know anytime soon, she'll text me that everything's okay and settled. :)
I'm excited with the free phone they offered me. I'm not a fan of Samsung, but I like the featues and the look. Meet Samsung J150 :)
There's another unit offered but not available at the moment. I'd prefer this one instead of Samsung because I'm seriously a not so savvy about phones. LOL yeah! I'm not into phones, am not techy at all, If I were given a gadget, I'd be very grateful, but if I'll be the one to choose, hah! I'll choose the not so complicated one. haha! Meet Nokia 1680 :)
Soon, I'll send you guys my new digits. Stay tuned :)
I'm excited with the free phone they offered me. I'm not a fan of Samsung, but I like the featues and the look. Meet Samsung J150 :)
There's another unit offered but not available at the moment. I'd prefer this one instead of Samsung because I'm seriously a not so savvy about phones. LOL yeah! I'm not into phones, am not techy at all, If I were given a gadget, I'd be very grateful, but if I'll be the one to choose, hah! I'll choose the not so complicated one. haha! Meet Nokia 1680 :)
Soon, I'll send you guys my new digits. Stay tuned :)
Sep 9, 2008
One Sat Night @ Absinth
Cool that I had a chance clubbin' on a Saturday night! Thanks to Aisa for the GL thingy, we are able to enter the bar without paying the entrance fee! :D Gee! I thought I'll be super stoned drunk going home then. Apparently, I had only one bottle of san mig light! c'mon! yeah I know! It's not for me. I'm a no-no for that drink but yeah, I still don't know how these people drink normally. I mean, this is my what? second time going out with them? YEAH! It's not that I usually go home really drunk-dead, I'm just used to being tipsy and all. Hehe! But yeah! I had fun, especially with the GINA hunting moments with my fave girls in row 4. God I love them! LOL
Here are the captured moments:
And here's my kawawa pic haha!
Here are the captured moments:
And here's my kawawa pic haha!
wanted perfect bf
... for geni!
LOL
requirement:
1. not uber good looking but he should know how to handle clothes LOL
2. loyal
3. a guy not named hans. SUPER LOL
4. sweet
5. caring
6. thoughtful
7. with work experience but fresh grad are acceptable. LOL
8. beach lover
9. cowboy (as in with hat) LOL
10. adventurous
for those who are interested. text me.. you know where to contact me. or drop me a line at ainie10@yah*o.com
*wink wink*
PS. Already did some guy hunting in my phonelist, some were already texted and invited for interview for tomorrow. Please do send me copies of CVs for validation.
Scheduled Interview for Tomorrow:
1. Tatu (scheduled at 1pm)
2. Jd (scheduled at 3pm)
LOL
requirement:
1. not uber good looking but he should know how to handle clothes LOL
2. loyal
3. a guy not named hans. SUPER LOL
4. sweet
5. caring
6. thoughtful
7. with work experience but fresh grad are acceptable. LOL
8. beach lover
9. cowboy (as in with hat) LOL
10. adventurous
for those who are interested. text me.. you know where to contact me. or drop me a line at ainie10@yah*o.com
*wink wink*
PS. Already did some guy hunting in my phonelist, some were already texted and invited for interview for tomorrow. Please do send me copies of CVs for validation.
Scheduled Interview for Tomorrow:
1. Tatu (scheduled at 1pm)
2. Jd (scheduled at 3pm)
Sep 6, 2008
When Jack called...
I was never a bad child, but having thoughts like cursing my parents makes it even worse, I'm not bad--Ok, I'm evil as what they are trying to imply. :(
Poor that they don't understand my point.
Thanks for the call though.. I miss you Jack.
I wish you were here.
As much as I wanted to shoulder all their financial problems at home, still I can't. I have my own bills to pay, have my own obligations to think. Why the heck we have to suffer all these consequences thinking we are all grown ups already. My 3 siblings has their own lives now, they got husbands and wife, they got kids, they have their own responsibilities that is somewhat I think bigger than what I am suffering. Being married is very very different, having a kid without a father makes it even worse. I totally understand where they're coming from, but come to think of it... I am misunderstood. They are thinking indeed I got all the pleasures in life knowing I can make more money than them. It's really annoying whenever they thought of me that way. Living in a condo wasn't my plan. And I actually don't brag about it. In fact, I was just lucky there is some girl from the internet who is very charitable to share a condo for only five thousand pesos. Do you believe it? I was actually amazed at first. So, what I did was to go for it and grab the opportunity to make my life easier travelling from home to the office.
And who fuckin says I got no responsiblities at all? That I have millions of moolahs because I'm still single and I do not have my own family to think of? Well, as far as I'm concern, I've been dealing with responsibilities for the longest time, I certainly do feel am not single at all. I help them as much as I can, but why did he drop such statement that how can I.... Errr.. I'll stop here. I love my bro. But yeah, I was hurt with what he said earlier... :(
Ok. Let me share you their point.
5K is 5K. It'll make my savings account richer every month if I'll just save it in the bank instead then live in our humble home in south.
My point is.
How can you manage commuting from one place to another, riding a bus, plus a cab after reaching megamall at night like 11pm or so. By the way, I got mugged for 3 times already while I was living in Muntinlupa then. So yeah! What can I say? Not practical and safe going back and forth from down south.
Everyone's been saying I got lots of moolahs and I'm like living happily and independently.
They don't know how hurtful it is living alone far from your loved ones and just counting days to be able to see them once or twice a week. Everybody also noticed how my pictures tell how happy I am right now even they know what's the real deal about my so-called love life and status in life. Now, I don't know how to react on that. It's a photo, what's the proper act while shooting in front of the camera? Errr.. first, you have to smile right? so what's the fuzz with all the photos i'm uploading in the net.. why people keep on asking how happy I am right now. It's just that they do not see the real emotions on my pictures, that's what they tell... what? should I frown? should I cry? You know what I mean?
Sigh..
Poor that they don't understand my point.
Thanks for the call though.. I miss you Jack.
I wish you were here.
As much as I wanted to shoulder all their financial problems at home, still I can't. I have my own bills to pay, have my own obligations to think. Why the heck we have to suffer all these consequences thinking we are all grown ups already. My 3 siblings has their own lives now, they got husbands and wife, they got kids, they have their own responsibilities that is somewhat I think bigger than what I am suffering. Being married is very very different, having a kid without a father makes it even worse. I totally understand where they're coming from, but come to think of it... I am misunderstood. They are thinking indeed I got all the pleasures in life knowing I can make more money than them. It's really annoying whenever they thought of me that way. Living in a condo wasn't my plan. And I actually don't brag about it. In fact, I was just lucky there is some girl from the internet who is very charitable to share a condo for only five thousand pesos. Do you believe it? I was actually amazed at first. So, what I did was to go for it and grab the opportunity to make my life easier travelling from home to the office.
And who fuckin says I got no responsiblities at all? That I have millions of moolahs because I'm still single and I do not have my own family to think of? Well, as far as I'm concern, I've been dealing with responsibilities for the longest time, I certainly do feel am not single at all. I help them as much as I can, but why did he drop such statement that how can I.... Errr.. I'll stop here. I love my bro. But yeah, I was hurt with what he said earlier... :(
Ok. Let me share you their point.
5K is 5K. It'll make my savings account richer every month if I'll just save it in the bank instead then live in our humble home in south.
My point is.
How can you manage commuting from one place to another, riding a bus, plus a cab after reaching megamall at night like 11pm or so. By the way, I got mugged for 3 times already while I was living in Muntinlupa then. So yeah! What can I say? Not practical and safe going back and forth from down south.
Everyone's been saying I got lots of moolahs and I'm like living happily and independently.
They don't know how hurtful it is living alone far from your loved ones and just counting days to be able to see them once or twice a week. Everybody also noticed how my pictures tell how happy I am right now even they know what's the real deal about my so-called love life and status in life. Now, I don't know how to react on that. It's a photo, what's the proper act while shooting in front of the camera? Errr.. first, you have to smile right? so what's the fuzz with all the photos i'm uploading in the net.. why people keep on asking how happy I am right now. It's just that they do not see the real emotions on my pictures, that's what they tell... what? should I frown? should I cry? You know what I mean?
Sigh..
Sep 5, 2008
Sad But True
In life, I've done every way of fighting, heard every painful truth, been in every heart breaking scene, and felt every dreadful feeling. I thought going through it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight and atleast save a little for myself. But you know what's funny? It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all, but still I can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day, I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just for 'right' but 'real' ..
Sep 3, 2008
Friday Night Data Get Up
OMG! Look at this one! I made that thang.. coolness. AS IN!
Babe and I weren't use to formal dinners and candle light dates. Whereas we hang out to places where we are comfortable, so that means, we gone to billiard halls, bars, not so fancy restos in metro, clubs, uhm what else? Hmm.. now I come to realize we seldomly had dates before. Because we use to chill in our own cribs and / or in our friend's homes.
When the time comes, if the situation permits us.. I'd like to try out those fancy dinners and poshy dine outs--and yeah, I'll be wearing those hot dresses and gorgeous get ups.
YEAH! I super love dressing up!
Babe and I weren't use to formal dinners and candle light dates. Whereas we hang out to places where we are comfortable, so that means, we gone to billiard halls, bars, not so fancy restos in metro, clubs, uhm what else? Hmm.. now I come to realize we seldomly had dates before. Because we use to chill in our own cribs and / or in our friend's homes.
When the time comes, if the situation permits us.. I'd like to try out those fancy dinners and poshy dine outs--and yeah, I'll be wearing those hot dresses and gorgeous get ups.
YEAH! I super love dressing up!
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