What's up?

Wow! It's been a month since my last post. I wasn't really busy with work and social life. I was actually busy focusing with my personal stuffs.

Let me share what happened to me after Nov 24 :)

My Birthday passed without anything special. I celebrated it alone. Shopping for 2 pair of shoes at Celine, had diamond peel at Flawless, and had footspa plus pedicure at NuStyle Salon. I was contented then. I've been praying for a ME time and yea, I finally gave myself one, until my closest friends texted me and asked to chill out at Kai's crib. So there, even I had a very oily face, I still manange to went over my friend's place.

I grabbed some 20 pcs of Antonov Vodka from Puregold, Sr. Pedro's Lechong Manok and some chips. My closests friends got me cake from Contis. Thanks mga chong. :)

Sorry for the crappy pic, hehe. just had my diamond peel.

So after Birthday, we had a lots of holidays. Christmas, New Years, and there were tons of reunions, food, and booze everywhere! Naumay ako sa handaan. hehe

I was feeling happy closing year 2010. Hoping for best 2011! Love. Peace. Happiness. Bring it on, 2011! :)

After Christmas Celebration

Yea, the party didn't stop just that. After the reunion, me and my cousins had a second round party at Serve, Araneta. The place wasn't that cool. HAHA! But yea, I had fun with my cousins. :)
Here are the captured moments:


Yan nalang ang mga walang asawa na pwede gumimik magkakasama. hahaha! Phoebe (the one in blue) is my cousin's (Ryan) girlfriend. She's just soo cool to party with us even Ryan isn't around. Ryan had to go home early for he has a work the next day. Jona (the girl in violet) is Keneth's girlfriend. She's a shy type girl but knows how to party and dance like crazy when the time asks her to do so.. LOL These lovely girls ROCK! :)

Jeck, the one who surprised the clan with his dramatical entrace. NAKS! Maarte! Umeeksena! Edi ikaw na! hahahah! Srsly, I miss you buddy! Congratulations for your soon to be daughter! inunahan mo nanaman ako. may magagawa pa ba ako? haha! CHEERS!

Madam, Daisy and Jeck. Kame ang magkakaage sa magpipinsan. Oh well, mauuna na si Jeck magasawa. Si Dais, going strong with her girlfriend in Dubai. Me? I'm single. LOL

So we headed to 13th Ave after we partied at the bar. We slept till 10am I think had breakfast and started "In Between" na sugal. Sarap. Umabot sa 2400+ ang pot money! WOW LANG! Oh well, I didn't win. I didn't lose either. Bawi lang. Hehehe! Si bonjing! Bigtime! Totee and I left at 5pm. We arrive home like 6something. At home, while playing with my nephnews, Rj was calling me. I know we're goin to have a Christmas party at Tj's but the hell I'm too tired to come so I opt to ignore his calls.

Meanwhile, Rj and Sarah arrived. LOL They fetched me. E ung hindi pako naliligo? WOW lang. Inintay nila ako. I handed my gift to my inaanak Marley and we went to Tj's after which.

Here's the captured moments:

First tagay! langya! ako tong walang tulog ako pang tanggera! ano pa nga ba? haha!

Konte namin that night. Madaming di pwede. Maraming may party rin sa ibang lugar.

The ladies, WOW onte ah!

With JJ, the drunken master!

With Jon, the tatoo master-soon-to-be-dad! taray!

JAY with Sarah Mae Marbella-Payumo! Naks payat ni sarah mae oh. Hintayin natin sa Birthday ni Marley. Naks!

E ung ang agang nagkaamats si Sarah. I left at 3am ata. Tulog na si Sarah e. So I went home na! Pwede bang pumass na next time. Wala ng paglalagyan ang alak sa katawan ko. LOL hahaha!

Happy Holidays everyone! I hope you all had fun last Christmas!

How I spent Christmas

As expected, I am snoozing before the Noche Buena up until the next day. I wope up earlier than usual to prepare for our yearly Family Reunion with my Deniña clan. Time flies so fast, last Christmas we had a RED color theme for our reunion, this year, GREEN is the color.


Taken last Christmas. Held at 15th Ave?

Aww, compare my pamangkins above! They're all grown ups now! Look at Kelly, Pong and Kian. Ang cucute nila. This year we're wearing green. CUTE NO?

Here's our Family Tree. So you won't be puzzled why the hell we got a big big clan. My lolo and lola got 9 kids. My father is the 4th child.

Mixed of pamangkins, cousins, uncles and aunties

We're the first family arrived in the location. So gutom ang inabot namin LOL Aww look at us. Ayan na kame ngayon. My Kuya Glenn's really envious with this pic. I miss Jack badly. Next year, umuwi ka na! Please lang!

Here's the original Deniña kids! (Panget pakinggan, fine! Deniña siblings nalang) Uncle Romy, Auntie Edith, Uncle Lando, my tatay Efren, Uncle Cefe, Auntie Elsie, Uncle Eden, Uncle Obet and DADA. I'm actually close to all my uncles and aunties, most especially to those who lived at Pasig. I lived with them for years before and decided to stay home nalang because of lonesome (may ganon?). Anyway, my favorite auntie is uncle Obet's wife, aunt Emily. She's my second mom. Dada's a cool aunt. I love her to death.

Here's the kid's generation. All the pamangkins. So those kids are mag sesecond cousins. Ang cute. ang dami. Damn, I'm so pressured to have one of my own kids posing over there. HAH! SOON SOON! ;p

Wacky Shot

At ito ang magfifirst cousins. LOL ang dami lang. Kulang pa nga yan! OMG! Dati para lang kameng ganyang kaliliit sa taas just like our pamangkins. Now, yan na! ang daming big time jan naks! Isa nako dun! LOL charing lang ungguy!

Wacky Shot

Totee and I with our pamangkins (E ung kasing laki ko lang sila? LOL)

Keneth, Madam, Bonjing, Manang, Leenard, and Totee
That's it. Malapit ng matapos ung party. I was dog tired. I hosted the activities kase. We got tons of activities and here it goes:

: Started the program with mass
: Had lunch
: Picture taking each table per family
: Pledge money from uncles and aunties plus the pamangkins na may mga work na
: Bebe's engaged and getting married next year, around May.
: Ara's arrival, my cousin's fiance
: Games for kids, for adults and for the gurangs haha
: sponge whatever relay, stick planting shit, saluhan ng itlog, hephep hooray, bring me, singing contest LOL, too many to mention actually
: intermission number from Leenard's group (dancing with the tune of mixed songs)
: Dinner
: Martin went there (WOAH! I know!)
: Exchange gifts for the kids and adults
: The most awaited Papila tradition :)
: Jeck's surprise arrival from UAE
: Meeting for the next reunion (blue ang theme, may best in costume daw? hala!)
: Finished the program with a prayer by Melvin aka Bro. Dominic

Astig ng pamilyang to! the best talaga tayo! hehe

Few things happened before Christmas

APC FRIENDS
Apc friends had a mini mini Christmas party held at Central, Madison, Mandaluyong. At the same time, it was Martin's blow out since he had his Birthday last November. I only got 2 pics to show. (MY PICS to be exact. LOL)


I am just happy to show that my hair is getting longer. Though yea it's not that pretty, well I'll gonna have it rebonded prolly early next year, if my time permits me. ;).

HS (South Crest School) Friends
My girls had a pre-Christmas party at Chen's crib. We had this kaartehan na we had to dress up to show everyone we're all grown ups now.. See here we are after 10 years :)

That's us holding one of Chen's cocktails! We look so matured na no? hahaha

Few of my girlfriends showed up. Others we're sick. Well yea, the weather is actually horrible so everyone's suffering from illness. Like Carla's sick that time. She can't say no to us since her crib is just few blocks away from Chen's house.


Here I am wearing a polka dress. Duh? I know my theme's for New Year. Wala lang, I wanna skip Christmas kase, kaya nakapang New Year nako. Anuver? Hahaha


We brought potluck foods and Chen of course serve delish foods made by tita Annie and herself :) [I brough Amber Pancit Malabon]


Chen made cocktails. Para maiba naman daw. Tipong di kame ung nainom sa may kanto lang. haha. That's Pink Milk and Blue Margaritta I think

Meet Anne Curtis and Kris Aquino! Bakit ba? walang pakelamanan LOL

Aizeee (the single lady LOL), and Oge (in a relationship for 4 years naks!), Via Carisse (the engaged mas lalong naks!) EDI AKO NA LOSER FINE!


I picked number 1 for the exchange gifts. I got Carla's present. It's a set of body shop perfume, lotion, and body wash! Thanks dude! I loved it I'm actually wearing the scent today ;)! (and sorry for the yosi thing goin on there. LOL)


Everyone went home with Chen's giveaways! Nice Nice! Thanks Chen!

Had a fun and tiring night. I went home at 5am I guess. Karleen texted. I picked her up at VM Town Homes. We slept until 1pm the next day. :)

The next day...

Karleen, Totee and I are having lunch. Meanwhile Martin arrived with 2 box of Krispy Kreme. We went to Festival Mall with my friends. Had coffee at Starbucks and went to mass at 9pm.

Here are the captured moments:


Look at my hair, awww it's really getting longer and longer! YAY!

Steady Christmas

I remember last year we cooked a lot of food, I got tons of presents for my godchildren and family and yea I was actually preparing myself for the night. But I was too exhausted that I can't even eat noche buena with my entire fam. I was asleep the whole night and got up the next day to prepare for the family reunion. Last year, I was too depressed. Same feeling I had last December Twenty Five, Two Thousand and Seven. Very far from what I felt last December Twenty Five, Two thousand and Six. It was a blast! I have my family, my friends, I got a great job, and most especially I have my other half. It was indeed a fun fun night. When all I knew was having fun and not exactly entertaining the reality we had at that moment.

Three years have passed and somewhat I became numb with the feeling of being sad. Yea, I'm still actually a lil bit into it, but not totally depressed compared to the last 2 years. Maybe because the feeling is already in my system and now I know how to control it and I know when to ignore it. This year was still a roller coaster ride for me. Different challenges, tons of happenings, a lot of special and not so special dates. Many people I encountered. People who came and who were gone. People who stayed and whom I asked to let go. This year, blessings were over flowing. Thanks to BRO who didn't left me behind. Who stayed with me all the time. BRO, I wouldn't be this strong if I don't have YOU in my life! Thanks for listening to my rants and thanks for guiding me all through out. Without YOU, I am nothing. I can not survive without YOU.

Three years have passed, still I'm here, standing but no longer fighting. I am okay. Better compared before. I've done so many things in my life. Some I regret and some were really cherished. I love the people around me. Those who came by and to those who stayed. I've learned a lot of things and I wouldn't be this strong without all the experience I've been through.

It's one hour to go, and we'll be celebrating BRO's Birthday! We wont be having it as fancy as last year perhaps. But I'm happier now. I didn't go to mass yet, I know BRO understood how dead tired my body is. He knows in my heart and in my mind, I'm celebrating His big day full of LOVE, HOPE, and PEACE!

I might be alone again now. Meaning without other half by my side. Admitting it'll be wonderful celebrating this special occassion with someone else. But yea, I know BRO has His own reason why I'm alone. It could be:
1. He'll bless me with new partner in life.
2. Ex and I will be reconciled for the 4th time here in the outside world. or
3. BRO wanted me to take care of my parents as they grow old.

Whatever BRO plans for me, I'll embrace it whole heartedly.

One hour to go, I might not again eat with my fam same as last year. But I definitely could say.... I'm happier now. I'm more focused and I'm not gonna sleep with a tear in my eyes but a smile in my heart.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! Cheers!

NEW year, NEW template, FIRST post

Happy 2009 everyone!

So how was my holiday vacation (if you could call it that way)?

It was fine indeed, as expected. Nothing special was happened, except for the two reunions I attended. Christmas with my Deniña fam and New Year with my Britanico clan.



My Deniña clan


That's my Nanay's family


That's me and my sisters with our coolest LOLA

I visited my man last Dec 31. I stayed there for two hours only. I just wanna be with him before the new year starts.

I do not have anything in mind to blog... A while ago I was too excited to rant here, it faded when I started creating an account in Facebook. LOL. aryt. I'll finish first this shit.

Later. :)

Christmas Rant (AGAIN)

Christmas blues..

Why am I always feeling this for the past weeks? Christmas is just around the corner, I must be excited to celebrate it with my whole clan. But still, the feeling is different. While everybody is busy with christmas wishlist, and shopping for the noche buena next week, I am still dealing with work. Have you heard of the news that most people will have 2 weeks vacation starting next week (starting nov 24 - jan 5)? Yea. Cool right? It wasn't intended for me and the rest of the call center industry I guess. Well, lucky us, we'll receive double pays and stuffs, but still... If you'll think about it though, you'll end up ranting, WTF! It's always been merrier bumming around the house, chillin with friends during holiday season. Right? Good news for my normal friends ;)

Christmas is one of my favorite holiday of the year. But this time, I guess I'm not going to enjoy it for the second time around. I grew up celebrating this holiday with my Deniña clan. Food are great, overflowing drinks, funny games, bonding with cousins, music & bands, and tons of gifts. We also have a tradition (we call it "papila") of giving money to all children and those who are still studying or those who don't have work yet. I'll give you a hint how many are falling in line and will receive 20's 40's or 50's this year. My last count was 61. Yea, we're a big fam indeed! Yearly, we are very excited because of that. And to tell you, I already graduated being one of the "pumipila". :) Year 2005, I started working so meaning, I'll be one of those who will give money for the "papila" thing. Giving such worth to all my cousins is one of my achievement at that time. I was blessed with work and I earn more than enough so I tend to share. I love the feeling of sharing blessings to those who are in need. Another tradition is the exchange gift. For adults we have worth 100 and for children / babies, worth 50. That cheap. Yes I know. We might not receive an extravagant material thing but I tell you what, you'll feel the real spirit of Christmas. :)

I keep on saying I couldn't feel the spirit of the holidays these past few days, not until I felt the breeze of the air. Paskong pasko. Nakakalungkot lalo. But what I'm saying here is that, at this moment, Christmas is very very different compared when I was a child. I was once a caroler, I can't help but to ask my big bro to let me join him and his buddies caroling within the village. It was cool and I'm really enjoying it. Now, I seem to not hear even one caroler in our place. Weird for me. heh! So, yea, what else do I miss about the past? Of course my gifts from my godparents. Funny because I don't see them that much. I don't know them actually. Unlike my siblings they have godparents from my relatives. Me? My ninongs and ninangs are from my parents friends way back when they were in their early 30's I guess, so meaning, that was when my mom was still with Veteran's Bank and my father was still in the marines being a soldier. haha! Dude, I really don't see my godparents, but I do received gifts. They tend to send it home. Just that, no show. Even so, I appreciate it much and ofcourse I enjoyed their expensive gifts from Rustans. LOL

Of course, what I really miss is celebrating the day itself with my complete fam. Next week will be a Christmas without my big bro again. I miss him so much. He's the coolest kuya ever. I swear! I love him so much and I miss him dearly. I got teary eyed whenever he sings the song "Sana ngayong Pasko". It's his song for us each time Christmas is fast approaching. We might not have the bestest food on our table during noche buena, we might not have new dresses, we might not receive glamorous gifts from our folks, still we're complete. That's the most important for me.

Ha! I'm being too serious with this post huh. Well, obviously I'm really serious and I couldn't find time to smile today. Except earlier, while I was chatting with an old best friend Anna, whom I call "Baneng", she cracked me up and I thanked her for that.

I am frustrated about this holiady season. I am missing a lot. Everything about Onie and I used to do. Shopping in Glorietta, BF Parañaque Ruins bazaar, Christmas party with friends and batchmates, reunion here and there. I miss our tradition of gift giving. Onie's really a one heck of a sushal magbigay ng gift. LOL We just didn't see this coming. I mean, the situation we are into right now. We could have been in cloud nine if this didn't happen. Well, I still couldn't say so. We might end the relationship before then. I must admit, our relationship was on-the-rocks at that time. Fights every now and then. So I don't know if in case he wasn't there, I dont know if we're still together now. We actually didn't talk about marriage then. I am so much inlove with him, that I'd really wanna do the popping of question. I'm super
dumb I know. But what can I do? Hell I'm inlove! LOL

So there. this post is already long and full of emotions. Haaay, I can't wait for Christmas and New Year. These holiday season must end already, I need to look forward to my future, to our future. I'm excited at the same time scared. I don't know, I just couldn't help, but feel scared about life after this year. Weird? hah! I know. :D

It was a blast! really!

Last night, we had our company's Christmas Party at Embassy Super Club at the The Fort. Our theme is PAST FORWARD, that is--70's, 80's and 90's. I'll show you what I wore next time. I didn't know it'll be this fun! I enjoyed it so much and I'm sure I'll miss this company next year. You know, I'm planning to move again for the second time. I'll miss the unbelievable perks, and my uber weirdo officemates whom I really love.. I'm so glad I found the perfect colleagues in you guys.

So, I didn't use my cam that much, Slrs were everywhere and I couldn't find time taking pics because I'm busy dancing with everyone. LOL So here's the only pic I could share, the man behind my so-called company....



Il show some pics some other time..

Later,
A

Resolutions ba kamo?

So Christmas is fast approaching, what's next, is New Year. This soon, I'd like to enumerate everything I want to change in me. Not that I always practice this, I am absolutely sure that this will remain as a list for the next year. Even so, I still hope I could follow this because it's for my own sake. :)

This year wasn't that good, well I expect it and still thank God for the blessings I received. After all, what happens in the past was all our fault and I already accepted the fact that we have to face all the consequences. Next year, am praying of having a good one. I honestly want to have a peaceful and meaningful 2009 as possible as I can.

(1) Too much vices and alcohol will not be tolerated. Will party ofcourse but I'll see to it that every party will have meaningful reason to celebrate not just because I wanna call it a night or whatever, soon you'll know what's the real deal why I'm trying to be more responsible.

(2) Too much expense on shopping will not be accomodated next year, (shit) I swear I need to cut down my expenses (or I could have another job to fulfill my necessities and needs LOL). Or this would totally help me expand my clothing line (un my clothing line), I mean my wardrobe. I should shop only during paydays, 1 dress, 2 tops, 1 shoes. No extra shopping in between. Whatchathink?

(3) Monitioring of my bank account will be the main priority. I need to save and save and save starting next year. All bonuses will strictly go to the bank immediately.

(4) Will try to exercise and have at least 9 hours or so sleep. Will drink tons of water a day. (yeah, I know, not sooo me, talking about clean living. Angal? Para maiba lang.)

(5) Less rice. (ok. scrap that!) lol

(6) Will try to be more organize next year. Will use my planner regularly. Make sure I'm in the right track.

(7) Onie and I will try to have more time with God this year, I know for the past years, we've been neglecting every chances that come our way. This time, we agreed on having time for Him. Saving 10% of our income monthly for Him and will try our best to serve Him in every way we can. I know, I shouldn't wait for next year. As early as now, Onie and I are trying our best to have time with Him. Believe it or not.

That's all for now, I know having this shit is somewhat pain in my ass. This time, I'd like to follow it, because I know, it's not only for me, it'll be for Onie as well. :)

Later,
A

Lately...

I've been thinking of what stuffs to give for myself this Christmas. I sure do know that no one will make an effort to buy gifts for me expect for my boo who isn't capable of doing so.. because of that, (haha) am trying to make myself a lil happy this holiday season.

Just like the others, I too has a wish list, and here they are:


(1) A cool office jacket




(2) Shirt from Team Manila Website



(3) Wedge Black Shoes



(4) Nice Flats

Lately, I learned that Chuck and Vanessa from Gossip Girl are exclusively dating for real. Also, I learned that Heidi and Spencer got married already! Whew! those are smoking hot news huh.

Arrgg.. someone ruined my mood in blogging. i should've get back to work now. darn.

Christmas chuvaness

Our maid's been bugging me bout decorating the house for the holidays. Every week, she's telling me when will we put up the christmas tree and some other christmas decorations. I stayed stiff and undecided. WTH! I really dont wanna see any Christmas stuffs in our place. I know I'm being too selfish here, it's just that I'm having a hard time coping up with the scenario everytime I see Christmas stuffs in the mall or hear Christmas songs elsewhere. It's pissing me off whenever I hear "sana ngayong pasko" in the bus, or seeing a lot of Christmas tree in Ace hardware from SM Muntinlupa, the cool decorations inside ATC mall, and the nice Christmas packaging of Goldilocks. All these stuffs, I tend to be so much bitter and very affected. Inside me, I'm bursting into tears and really hoping I could atleast be happy during this season.

Earlier, I visited my elementary bestfriend's page from FS, she designed her site full of christmas chuvaness plus chrsitmas imeem. How's that? Crap. I wanna be in the mood too for Christmas, but what can I do? I can't find the means of being one.


It'll be the first week of December next week, meaning I should start of buying gifts for my inaanaks. I lost my list. But what I remember is, I got almost 15 godchildren at the moment. OMG! that was plenty huh.

1. Jed Francis (ate Lanie's son)
2. Raf Raf (ate lala's son)
3. Danny (Tony's daughter)
4. Ruth (Kuya Fox's daughther)
5. Lila (Mich's daughter)
6. Kelly
7. John Paul
8. Zyla (Ate yam's daughter)
9. Leonne (Lhen's son)
10. Tata's (daughter/son)
11. Kian Carl
12. Carla Mae (Aunt Amy's daughter)
13. Pepe (Kuya Jay's son)

So, there are my inaanaks. PM me kids ok? hahaha! Tell me what you want for Christmas! hehe

PS. I am trying to make a video for onie and I came up with ...

Who the hell cares..

... if Christmas is really fast approaching?

Shopping is the only way I could make myself somewhat happy so I need to go to the mall once in a while, but what the heck! there's already christmas songs playing all over the malls which I really can not take. Okay. I'm being too bitter about it. I honestly do not want that holiday season to come. It's just that, for me, holidays are for happy couples, and I don't belong to that crowd! I feel so awful hearing "silver bells" and "santa claus is coming to town" songs, samahan mo pa ng tagalog na... "sana ngayong pasko ay maalala mo paren ako" whatever shit songs!

ok ok. this is soo not fair!! I can not believe I'll celebrate Christmas alone for the second time! His folks promised me, we'll be together this Christmas, and okay i wanna messaged him some bitchy text messages like. "Hey, do you even know what's the date today? Do you even know Christmas is fast approaching? What happened to your promise? Again, I know you're suffering too.. BUT SERIOUSLY, IF HE'LL NOT CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS WITH ME THIS YEAR, I THINK I'LL GONNA DIE LITERALLY!"

God! I'm feeling helpless. I don't want this feeling. or should I say, i want this feeling to end!

Please NO CHRISTMAS SONGS for me, or even christmas tree or christmas stuffs! Damn it! I'm soo outta here!