One Sat Night @ Absinth

Cool that I had a chance clubbin' on a Saturday night! Thanks to Aisa for the GL thingy, we are able to enter the bar without paying the entrance fee! :D Gee! I thought I'll be super stoned drunk going home then. Apparently, I had only one bottle of san mig light! c'mon! yeah I know! It's not for me. I'm a no-no for that drink but yeah, I still don't know how these people drink normally. I mean, this is my what? second time going out with them? YEAH! It's not that I usually go home really drunk-dead, I'm just used to being tipsy and all. Hehe! But yeah! I had fun, especially with the GINA hunting moments with my fave girls in row 4. God I love them! LOL

Here are the captured moments:






And here's my kawawa pic haha!

wanted perfect bf

... for geni!

LOL

requirement:

1. not uber good looking but he should know how to handle clothes LOL
2. loyal
3. a guy not named hans. SUPER LOL
4. sweet
5. caring
6. thoughtful
7. with work experience but fresh grad are acceptable. LOL
8. beach lover
9. cowboy (as in with hat) LOL
10. adventurous

for those who are interested. text me.. you know where to contact me. or drop me a line at ainie10@yah*o.com

*wink wink*

PS. Already did some guy hunting in my phonelist, some were already texted and invited for interview for tomorrow. Please do send me copies of CVs for validation.

Scheduled Interview for Tomorrow:
1. Tatu (scheduled at 1pm)
2. Jd (scheduled at 3pm)

When Jack called...

I was never a bad child, but having thoughts like cursing my parents makes it even worse, I'm not bad--Ok, I'm evil as what they are trying to imply. :(

Poor that they don't understand my point.
Thanks for the call though.. I miss you Jack.
I wish you were here.

As much as I wanted to shoulder all their financial problems at home, still I can't. I have my own bills to pay, have my own obligations to think. Why the heck we have to suffer all these consequences thinking we are all grown ups already. My 3 siblings has their own lives now, they got husbands and wife, they got kids, they have their own responsibilities that is somewhat I think bigger than what I am suffering. Being married is very very different, having a kid without a father makes it even worse. I totally understand where they're coming from, but come to think of it... I am misunderstood. They are thinking indeed I got all the pleasures in life knowing I can make more money than them. It's really annoying whenever they thought of me that way. Living in a condo wasn't my plan. And I actually don't brag about it. In fact, I was just lucky there is some girl from the internet who is very charitable to share a condo for only five thousand pesos. Do you believe it? I was actually amazed at first. So, what I did was to go for it and grab the opportunity to make my life easier travelling from home to the office.

And who fuckin says I got no responsiblities at all? That I have millions of moolahs because I'm still single and I do not have my own family to think of? Well, as far as I'm concern, I've been dealing with responsibilities for the longest time, I certainly do feel am not single at all. I help them as much as I can, but why did he drop such statement that how can I.... Errr.. I'll stop here. I love my bro. But yeah, I was hurt with what he said earlier... :(

Ok. Let me share you their point.

5K is 5K. It'll make my savings account richer every month if I'll just save it in the bank instead then live in our humble home in south.

My point is.

How can you manage commuting from one place to another, riding a bus, plus a cab after reaching megamall at night like 11pm or so. By the way, I got mugged for 3 times already while I was living in Muntinlupa then. So yeah! What can I say? Not practical and safe going back and forth from down south.

Everyone's been saying I got lots of moolahs and I'm like living happily and independently.

They don't know how hurtful it is living alone far from your loved ones and just counting days to be able to see them once or twice a week. Everybody also noticed how my pictures tell how happy I am right now even they know what's the real deal about my so-called love life and status in life. Now, I don't know how to react on that. It's a photo, what's the proper act while shooting in front of the camera? Errr.. first, you have to smile right? so what's the fuzz with all the photos i'm uploading in the net.. why people keep on asking how happy I am right now. It's just that they do not see the real emotions on my pictures, that's what they tell... what? should I frown? should I cry? You know what I mean?

Sigh..

Sad But True

In life, I've done every way of fighting, heard every painful truth, been in every heart breaking scene, and felt every dreadful feeling. I thought going through it all will then make me realize that I have to stop the fight and atleast save a little for myself. But you know what's funny? It is when I seem to be so much tired of it all, but still I can't just quit no matter how hard it is. And I have to continue hoping that one day, I'll be able to find someone who could love me not just for 'right' but 'real' ..

Friday Night Data Get Up

OMG! Look at this one! I made that thang.. coolness. AS IN!



Babe and I weren't use to formal dinners and candle light dates. Whereas we hang out to places where we are comfortable, so that means, we gone to billiard halls, bars, not so fancy restos in metro, clubs, uhm what else? Hmm.. now I come to realize we seldomly had dates before. Because we use to chill in our own cribs and / or in our friend's homes.

When the time comes, if the situation permits us.. I'd like to try out those fancy dinners and poshy dine outs--and yeah, I'll be wearing those hot dresses and gorgeous get ups.

YEAH! I super love dressing up!

How was my Vacation?

It was holiday in the states yesterday, so meaning I got no work and it was a yey for me since I am actually begging for a vacation. After my last shift last week, I headed off to my friend's house near my crib for we are going to have my friend's bridal shower party.. I went there even without sleep at all. :) That party was fairly alright knowing we planned it for only a month I suppose. A month that we only had prolly 3 proper days to talk about it. We admit it. We were not even ready for it. But since we knew Sheryl will not stay here for long and we do not actually know when she'll come back, the option would be, do it now or never... so we opted the first one. :)

It was successful though but not as glamorous as what other bride's maids has to prepare for most of the brides. We admited we had a ver very short time to discuss everything and we lack budget so we kinda had a hard time preparing for it.

To sum it up, everything went well. Pics will be uploaded anytime soon after Sheryl or Gen upload it in their Multiply account.

After the party, I went home together with Aileen. I was really dog tired so yeah we slept right away. I was awaken by her phone. Her bf was calling then. It was 10:00 am then we decided to eat brekky. I prepared, meatloaf and 2 eggs (ooppsy, I need to replace my housemate's eggs then LOL), and rice plus apple juice. While eating, I played "My Bestfriend's Girlfriend" movie in the DVD player. It was my 2nd time watching that mushy movie. I texted Gen and ask her if she wanted to attend mass in the evening. She said yes. So we did. Attended mass at 6:30pm and met up with Martin afterwhich. We went to Gateway Mall. Thanks to them, I had a chance going there. Was my first time. haha! What can I do, I was from down south before, I have no means of going there. Geni wanted to watch this tagalog movie starring Richard Guttierez and KC Concepcion entitled, "For The First Time" LOL I don't know where it came from, but I had this unique title I had in mind that I already forgot now. hehe. So, the movie was okay. I fell inlove with Richard because he was so gwapo! lol I was actually imagining him staring at me and talking to me about US. LOL may about us? fuck! LOve stories really make me sick! :( The movie ended at 10pm.

So the heavy rain stopped, so it made me going to down south. I went to Onie's and continue my vacation with him. We had good times indeed. Time for catching up and time to discuss once again the beauty of life ahead of us. We were so excited about our life after his case. In fact, we made stories about it. I left Onie Monday evening and went to my sister's crib near to his place.

I rested well and had a chance playing with my fave nephew Kelly.
I rested well but I still want another day with my fam. I got no chance visiting our house at Muntinlupa. I just don't want to visit my folks now. :( Maybe next week, when my mood permits me.
I rested well but I still want another day bumming around.

Coolness

Try this at, http://www.photofunia.com

Check this out!

whoa! I kinda appreciate these glads I saw from http://olazapato.multiply.com , were really cool. I find it so cute but gee! the prize wasn't for me.. You know how I shop. I shop a lot. When I say a lot.. I mean mega, tons, heaps, super duper like MANY. LOL But, I don't go for those branded stuffs. For me, it's not on the brand or how much do a thing cost. It's more important on how these clothes/shoes/accessories look when I wear it. I like these gladiator sandals, :( but it costs 1295. So FAB. So EXPENSIVE.

can you call this fun-fun life?

Hmmm... Could be. I suppose.
Am still partying of course!

Though I've been acting like as if I'm a superwoman of my company and my family, I still find time having fun with my friends and colleagues. Here are some of the captured moments during the times we are having fun..


Ok.. This pic isn't a party or something.. This is my team and we took a break over these yummy cereals. We headed off to "cerealicious" at Robinson's Galleria where my boss's treated us for some dessert. Mind you, he's one of the owner of this so-called store and yeah, they got tons of branches all over the metro. OK. I know I look haggard on that pic. LOL


This pic was taken when we were patying at Carbon Bar. I was wondering why I got no beer at all. LOL. Well, my colleagues for sure had fun especially T and A. LOL. They were the ones who have partners at that time. As for me? I took the exit door earlier than usual and managed to rest at my crib and planned to go home at south the next day. (I know I'm a lil boring person today compared before. LOL)


Party at Achie's Bar. A's bf had this Nocturnal Party and most of my team were invited. It was fun though, wasn't that really into gimmick nowadays, my shift doesn't permit me so this gig thing made our morning a lil better. There were body shots, a lot of booze, dancing in the ledge, picture moments and many more..


It's Aisa's bday. We had pizza, food from bancheto and trance music for our background during working hours. Boss was not around so yea, we were not that pressured to work. LOL


There, with my college friends, i super miss them. Not having a single sleep at that time, after visiting Onie, I had the means of going back to the condo and had a bath then I headed off to Decades Metrowalk to be with my batchmates. Was kinda awkward feeling. Wasn't able to drink all night though I am in the mood to drink, my body couldn't take the alcohol am suppose to be drinking, so I what happened was.. I left them at 12:15am... really too early..





Hah! I can say.. I have to give myself a break. need to party more often. I'm only 24 and I should say, I have to make my life fun and exciting in some point.. after all, I know I deserve to be happy..

I wonder where will I be this Saturday? Hmmmm.. I'll keep you posted if there's gonna be a fun fun night or morning or which ever.. :)

the shits of life

I pause from working and I start thinking about you. And it always left me a touch of sadness. It occured to my mind that once I'm dealing with work stuffs, I promise not to think about you, at least not that often than I used to. There's a heaps of tasks to do, fast approaching dealines to think and a tons of responsibilities to handle. In fact, I still lack time and am really hoping to give effort on these other stuffs that I want to accomodate as well. Aside from work, I wanted to allot time and energy with my friends, family affairs, some other hobbies such as reading (yep, until now haven't finish "can you keep a secret" novel from Geni. LOL what can I do? I have no time at all..), shopping, movie marathons, et cetera.

Thinking of whatever I am dealing right now, imagine how stressful I am having these so-called life style, you still manage to get into my system and play over my mind. You fill my awareness of every memory in our past. I can still remember every piece of our once-upon-a-times, on how your hands landed mine, every sms and phone calls, and heaps of dine outs we used to have. I seemingly reckon, you are such wonderful part of my past. And now, I continue to imagine what life could have been if you're still present and a lot of what-ifs going on in my mind.

Prior to that, Shellie and I had this talk about priorities in life over one stick of yosi, before you came into my thoughts, I was thinking of yeah--what are my real prioroties to be exact? I unconsciously say, as of the moment, it's more on my savings in my bank which is actually zero balance and I must say, this sucks big time! It wasn't my fault if I still need to help out my 'rents and wanted to spoil my siblings for whatever they wanted to have.

The moment we enter the lift, I had this bubble over my head which includes thoughts of my real priority and I think that is the reason why I still have the guts of living in this goddamn world. I actually lied to Shellie referring what's the real deal of me being in the office and continue what the fuck is up to with my everyday shit! My real priority is not the money, it's not the fuck up career, it's not my family either, it is infact, I am still existing and ready to face the consequences of life ahead of me because of you. I am waiting for you. I am waiting for your existence here in my so-called world. I am wanting your presence with every single day of my life.

There was once a friend who taught me of some things about moving on. On how the process works and how you'll go through the process itself day by day. What he said was all reasonable enough for me to get my own life and be ready for different opportunities ahead of me. There's a lot of surprices about life, not only you! At that time, I was like--yeah! That's true, that's even cool, I shouldn't make my self stucked up with such crap which really made my life worthless for almost two years. But then again, as I reached home, I had no one to talked to, I again realized.. NO! Life is about him and me being together and continue taking things slow, remembering there's-a-rainbow-always-after-the-rain just like what the song says! Shit! what's happening with me. I couldn't afford to decide on what should I focus on.. Life without him or continue embracing all the shits we are dealing with?

Darn it! Now am thinking, Forever is not real.. sigh.. :(