Almost goodbye for 2010

So what now? I am so bored with my life. Nothing good is happening to me. I am getting a year older on Friday. What? Should I be celebrating or what? Arg! Are you kidding me? This year was a tough one! I mean, super! I got to think, life's been fuckin' me around. Life's been so much unfair. I couldn't stop thinking why am i dealing with all these shiz! What a lame excuse if somebody would tell me, i was just an instrument for someone to realize the beautiful things in life. Come on! Again, seriuosly? Are you fuckin kiddin me? 

Everything is wrong here. My relationships. O and R. Man, they're both gone. I could prolly say, i am atleast somewhat at peace now but not really happy or feeling blah. You know, just so-so. And who's to blame this? Well what can i do? Life is what you make it, bitch! Fine! 

Everyone's askin me to throw a party! Hell no! My mind's keep on shouting this. Why do i need to celebrate? Im not happy anymore. I mean, when was the last time i felt really happy? I can barely remember. This is the most awful year for me. I am wishing for a job abroad. So God help me please. I don't wanna live here anymore. I'm not liking whatever is happening to me. Actually there's nothing to like coz yea, there's nothing happening really. Love life's fucked up. Work is bullshit. Fam is i dont know, what should i call them, mia? Perhaps yea!

I feel like living in a world with no one. I am alone in here. I am alone in my goddamn world! So suck it up and yea, celebrate with me on Sat! Thanks! Btw, im turning 27 and being 26 is full of shit!

Give me some good vibes 2011!