Boring Sunday

Am super bored, I was awaken today by the bell from the door because of some maintenance from the building who wanted to give such survey list. It was pathetic indeed seeing it's already 11am and I'm still sleeping deeply. Then I turned to the phone and ring my folks. Telling them I won't be able to go home today, instead will stay in the condo for I have to be in the office really early. Then I managed to cook for my brunch. :) Porckchop, 2 hotdogs, and 1 longganisa. It will be nicer if I'll eat these with you today. I went to my room, shut the door, turned on the telly & inserted Gossip Girl S1 and munched every piece of my food. Then I remembered, we don't have mineral water from the ref. So I called the delivery man to drop me 1 galon of water. So, I continued my meal. It was 3:30 pm when I thought of you again. I glance through our pictures left to my bed and started talking to you really crazy. I miss you babe. I really do hope I can text you everytime I wanted to see you more often. I had this imagination of your presence ringing the bell, walking upstairs and surprising me with yellowcab and coke. But then again, I knew it was just a perfect day dreaming. :( I went down for smoke and suddenly small droplets of rain started to fall through my face. I hate rain. It makes me more lonely :(. Then, I sat in the lobby couch and saw you passing by the glass door. You were just happy holding your car keys, wearing you old get up. trasher look, nice white shirt, baston cargo pants, and vans sneakers. God, I just miss your old look.. This feeling started killing me until I texted Gen where she was to break my perfect day dreaming. She's at Alimall and having her hair done.

I'm 24 now, turning 25 this year, living alone and having 2 jobs at a time. Meaning, I could live by my own and YES I'm ready to have my own family with you. Apparently, you are not available at the moment so I better stay here and continue what I'm doing for the longest time--to wait!

What we had last Friday-Saturday was really a blast! I felt complete though. Waking in the morning right next to you is somewhat part of my dreams. So, I was fulfilled and contented at that time.

Now, my tears just started to fall and I can't help it. It's 4pm now. I think I should better be going and take a bath. I'll attend mass today and I'll talk to our dear Lord about my prayers. I hope He'll hear what I'm saying. I don't wanna get tired of praying, waiting and loving you babe. Since January last year, I have this single prayer that I use to recite day and night, Wanna hear it from me?

"That is for you to get your freedom and be with me for the rest of or lives"

Once that prayer will come true, from then on, I'll have different prayer to recite and that will be different story to reminisce...

I love you babe. I miss you so much.

- Madamme :(

disappointed

Am no vain, am no brand conscious, could these be the reasons why I had the most horrible day yesterday?

Few from my friends know what's the reason why my Yahoo Messenger status says "super mad". Now, I'd like to tell everyone what have had happened and also to give a lil benefit for me to burst out what's making me really mad.

Yesterday, I made a good figure for my quota, boss complemented me for doing that. After which, I headed to the next room where I use to do my sideline, in short, I had a long-fulfilled-tiring day. To give myself a special treat, I went to the near-by salon just down stairs of the condo and had my favorite thing--footspa and pedicure. For the longest time, I was thinking of having my hair done. This time I want it different. I want something like the Olsen twin's hair, or Serena's look (oh she's adorable), or Rachael Grins' seductive hair, which is curly on the lower part of the strands. Then I ask the stylist, are you doing something like that even I had a treatment 4 months ago? They said YES. So I go for it. :)

The result was freakin' awful. It was the most horrible feeling in the world--when you were in the peek of your career days when everyone should look nice and gourgeous because all of you can afford the desirable things in earth which is to pamper yourself in the salon and spa, everything turned out mess as for me. :(

I can describe my hair as straight-not-curly-frizzy-thick-super-dry-eewwy-hair.

DAmn!

Then I told myself, I shouldn't go to the office like this. So I made an effort, conditioned my hair with creamsilk pink and dry it then curled it up and put some pony. If you can't understand, try to think Chunli's hair. So there, I slept over night with that annoying hair and woke up super late and got ready for work. I went to the bathroom and had a body shower. Grab my yellow top and finally pull out the pony tail i made.

Tadah! the outcome!? sayang! I don't have pic. It turned out nice. Better than earlier. Sigh..

Redhorse and The Big Buzz

After mass I had a get together with my friends to celebrate one's birthday. This guy is suppose to be my bestfriend's boo-soon-to-be-husband-on-the-next-month-this-year. Sigh. I didn't expect this coming anytime soon. I wasn't prepared. I thought I am going to become a mother first before her. Until now, the thing they announced wasn't able to sink in in my system. But hey, I'm super happy for them. But I can't just imagine this is happening. and I can't just help myself but to envy them. :(

It is somewhat true... that I hate happy couples!

For some reasons, I hate myself hating them.

you know you love me, XOXO...

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I know! I love them too! and I soo love their look. Where could buy those headbands Blair's wearing. I wanna have one, no i mean three, I mean five! LOL =)) Fine, i am so over reacting. But seriously, I love this girls!

I Had a Dream

Last night I had a good sleep not until I dream about him and me fighting over the phone. I heard loud noise in the background as if he is in a party or something. Then something came out into my mouth like...

"Where in the hell are you now? Aren't you suppose to taking care of our kid while I was here sticking my ass in my fucking chair and dealing with unbelievable deadlines!? Damn it! you're so unconsiderate and what do you think you're doing? having fun and going home really late, stoned drunk? Damn! I'm sick and tired of my life.. make sure tomorrow morning, all your mess inside my house are all gone! Leave me alone with my kid! I'm so done with you!"

:( OMG! Then I woke up feeling stress and unhappy. I worry about our future, yes! I worry how in the world we can manage to be together without asking for any help from our folks. I worry how is he as my future husband. I worry how am I being a good mother. I worry where we could get all the finances for our expenses. I worry a lot, and I admit, I worry more about him.

I feel a lil bit unorganize today. I wanna talk about this with him as well. Even I know how will he react on this. He'll go like...

"Stop worrying about it babe, I promise I'll be a good husband and a good father."

Yah? sure thanks. :) Oh by the way, why are you staying here for a year and a half now? :(

Now I'm more worried than a while ago... Come to think of it, I have all the reasons right?

OK back to work. **darn

Happy Long Weekend to All

First of all, I'm disappointed. I set my alarm to 10pm so I could fix myself and be in the office before 12mn. So, it alarmed and I woke up. Suddenly, I fell asleep again and was shocked when I saw the time! It was 11:50 then. I hurriedly went to the bathroom and took a bath. Took the taxi and arrived office at 12:20am! Damn! I was 5 mins late. Darn** I'm not gonna be receiving the 3K perk (AGAIN).. I was too close to it! (haay sayang)

Goodthing...

This will be my last day for the week. :) Thank God! I'm gonna be having a 4day off. Boss managed to make Thursday, July 3 as our day off so we could have a loong vacation. July 4 is holiday for the states so we're not gonna be having work on Friday too. :) I hope I'll have a nice nice vacation. I am really excited to go home, but before heading off to Alabang, I have to go home first at the condo because I forgot to bring some clothes since I was really in a hurry a while ago! Yikes! I am feeling sooo lazy today. :(

So Happy weekend everyone :)

Incomplete though

For some reasons, I didn't try to go home last weekend and opted to stay at the condo by myself. I know staying there will kinda be a bit boring and lonesome but still I did. All I did right then was to indulge myself with Desperate Housewives Season 2-3, to reminisnce about the past, look at myself in the mirror for how many times, critisize what's with the series and how it is related to my life now, look back in the past, and finally to see what's the future ahead of me.

True. Being alone is not pleasant. I must say, it took me 7 times to think of going home in Alabang, nonetheless, I stay home and make myself busy by cleaning the entire house instead.

Saturday
I spent my day in the telly watching my fave series, then finally 4pm I realized I haven't taken any meal yet. Soon, I texted Gen to borrow dvd and she lend a helping hand by asking me what do I like for pasalubong. I was thinking of asking for food. But then again I realized it's late to ask for help because my tummy's really aching and I need to fill it in some food to make it fine. Soon, I managed to go down and grab a bite in this awesome karinderya I think. I bought porkchop sizzling and I had it take out. Btw, my housemate was home with some friends and I kinda think they had a small catching up since I saw a glass of wine and pasta going on in the kitchen. I probably do not know what time I went to sleep but I sure it was soo late.

I had a good night sleep.

Sunday
I know it'll be a long day ahead, I woke up around 8am, took a bath and turned on the telly. Yeah! that early. What can I do I have nothing to do. LOL :)) Then, I made myself something to eat. Good breakfast though. You know what I like being alone? I got to do everything on my own. I'm starting to be like an adult, you know, preparing my food, i mean my MEAL, hehe. Then, I realized there's nothing left from my last grocery. So I headed up to Ever Gotesco Mall Ortigas. Yeah, Yeah! I know it's kinda far from my house. What can I do, I'm still not familiar with the area so I went where I am comfortable and where I know everything is cheap. GOOD! Ok Actually that's the main reason. ;)

First I went to the dept store to buy some stuffs for my room and for our kitchen.
1. tv rack
2. fleece
3. vase
4. flower
5. frame and a clock
6. hamper
7. containers for seasonings
8. what do u call that? salaan? that is!

Then I headed off to the supermarket. I got to buy food and my toiletries. Boy, I didn't realize I had too much, my bill was 1300 something then, and the previous from the dept store was 500 something I think. Now am being so unreasobale again. I need help here to get rid of my over expense. I should know how to value money since I am expecting higher bills to pay now. So I have to work my ass off with other job as well. Currently, I have this really nice client. But for some reasons, I don't know how in the world I'll trust him. :( He doesn't know how to transact with me through this world wide web but for all I know all his employee were living here and were all Filipinos. Well, I don't wanna spread all the details in here, what I'd like is these things to pursue, before that.. I'll be needing a laptop. Arg!

So sunday afternoon, while I was cleaning my room, Gen texted, she's asking me to along along at Sheryl's uncle's wake. We went there and got home by 830pm. Then I realized my housemate was out all day and she's still out until then. I went up and continue my series. Then I fell asleep.

Was a good sleep though.

Came Monday, I heard all the walkings around the house, sure thing, A was around. She must be preparing for work. She left and I had the means of cooking my breakfast. :) soon I started eating and watch the telly again. Then I went down to smoke. I had two sticks and finally the guy I met everytime I'm down and chilling outside the building broke the silence and ask for my name. We chatted. Funny thing though, while I was about to go to the lift, I suddenly realized, I forgot his name. What a shame! LOL :))

I cooked again for my lunch and dinner and yah, continued what I left, my series. :))

That's my weekend. I had no fun at all, but yeah, I rested really WELL. And that's my point of staying there. ;)

Orange Night at Bed Space

Last Friday, Gen celebrated her 24th Birthday (Dude, we're same age now. You're not getting any younger). Everybody followed instructions of wearing orange or yellow except for the birthday celebrant. BOOOOOOOO! (tsimuy ka tlg!)


Anyway we had fun! Thanks for a great dinner! Happy Birthday and stay unchange! I love the way you are my dear friend. :)

Here are some pics from that night:





Wish I wore shorts that time.. I don't like my attire. I think taht orange top might be better with shorts. :)

30-minute shopping @ St. Francis

I so love St. Francis Square. If I were to choose between divi, tutuban and all the tiangge here in Manila versus St. Francis? I'll go for the latter. 500 stars (*****) for St. Francis! Sometimes, it actually makes my day! When I feel alone and lonely, I go there to shop and one moment, all the sadness fades. LOL :)) I am addicted to that place. I know I should be dealing with major budget today, but seriously, I didn't pay soo much for what I shopped yesterday.

I was actually looking for a top with touch of orange to wear for Friday night. It is Gen's idea to wear orange because she has this thing with that color. I dunno. I actually hate that color :D, so I need to buy one because I don't have anything to wear. I only got one tube colored orange but it's somewhat fit for summer getaway only.

Now I stumbled upon this store and happened to see a card board that indicates major SALE!!! woah! that made my day again! You see, I'm in the middle of tiangge stores when all we knew then that everything is being sold there in a lower price compared to stores from malls but then again, inspite of that, there's still major SALE going on with this particular booth! OMG! as in OMG! thank good Lord! it was amazing. what I got is this cute lil top which only costs P150! Perfect!

Then, it didn't stop there. I went to the other side and checked my fave store where I actually bought all my skinny jeans. There, I saw a bunch of skinny jeans in different shades! Boy, I wanted to scream like hell! They got everything there, so I decided to try one of the colors, and I chose the color blue green I think ;) (sorry I'm kinda color blind at times) and it actually looks like this..


How's that? :D

Damn! If could just buy every color they got... haaaaay.

Then, I went to the 2nd floor and found this cute little slippers. Bronze with silver effect on the thong part. Basta! I know everything I bought were something else! and I know everything were in good DEAL! I just love St. Francis!

EXPENSES:
Skinny blue green (i think?) Pants - P300
slippers with silver accent on thong - P200
top with touch of orange - P150
all in all - P650

Then I went home really happy :)

Thanks K Rhodes ;)

This is a very very late post. Coz I opted to wait for the photos from shelliefurr. K got her last pay from our company so she treated us at Podium and had a breakfast at cheesecake. Here's the pics:









Noticed my order? I had a big sausage there and a garlic rice and an egg. It was really big breakfast huh! So we were like making fun of my order and we felt we actually are the Manila version of Sex and the City because of how we talk with each other. Topics will always be sex, sex and sex. ambastos nyo lang. LOL.

Anyway, here's a quotation from boss that really cracked me up. :D

1. Di bale ng pokpok masaya naman ang p*uke! LOL :))

Anyways, thanks K for a nice breakfast. I know this wont be the last... LOL :)) Miss you dearly.