Here We Go Again

Everybody can attest how I changed from happy-go-lucky employee to super-hardworking fat ass! At some point, I am happy and proud of what I am now, although at times, I still feel I’m kind of nincompoop when I am talking to him. Lemme just clarify this—Yeah! He said I’m good but not great, he appreciates my effort but what he needs is the output. You see, I’m not superwoman here or scientist, or magician, or freakin God to be able to finish everything in one sitting. I know he’s not pressuring us but I feel like he is. This morning, as I browse on my email, I landed on his message asking... aside from what I am doing now, how can I boost my leads? I was like… Huh?

I wanted to say…

If I have new ideas on my mind now, I wouldn’t waste time delaying on that. If I think I still have the courage of doing something to boost leads, I won’t let you waste time asking but I’ll have the initiative on doing it on my own and let you know once it was accomplished or whatever the status will be.

Don’t get me wrong. I love him! He’s cool, he’s perfect, he appreciates what I’m doing, he appreciates my existence here, but I just don’t understand after having a meeting with him yesterday morning, he’ll gonna pop me a question like this?

But still, of course, I should know where I stand here. I am just bloody subordinate who should follow and make things possible if he wanted something to accomplish right in time. I completely understand his situation. He is just excited for us to hit the 100 per day lead for fr*e search. I know once we reach that quota, he’ll be proud of me, he’ll be proud of us. Last week, we had 99 per day lead. With that, he wanted to push all our projects and work double time on all strategies we’ve been doing for ages to reach 100 asap.

This is what he said…

“Make no mistake about it --- that one more per day is the hardest to get and we DO NOT WANT to fall short.”

Can you feel the pressure too?

As for now, I have to seek help from Mr. Google how will I answer his bloody Q.

OH MAN GIVE ME A BREAK! :(