She Says...

Of all the people I could ever imagine me ranting my same old shits with.. I didn't realize that would be her--KAY. My oh-so-dear friend from the BRONX. LOL :)) (chika lang!) I've known her for like almost 3 yrs now i guess, and she's been my yosi buddy and kachikahan all the time when it comes to yeah boys, work, love life, fam, everything we could ever think of. She has this funny side and mind you she got this wits and charm. I just love how she talks and how she carries herself. She's cool, she's HOTTIE and did I mention she's a model? Hell yeah!

Anyways, I started my day with a frown a while ago for I had a bad sleep. I couldn't find way to sleep yet I was dead tired and feeling exhausted. Though I had the best laugh before going home with my colleagues, all went to down and my mood turned to what I call reality! *Sigh

Since the day I went back here, I seemingly give myself a break with all the negative vibes coming my way. I decided to set aside all the shits I've been going through and just think of my career, fam and friends. I wanted to stay happy for once. Being alone is not so cool as what I've expected knowing I came from serious realtionship. Letting go was never been easy for me since then. The feeling of having TONS OF FRIENDS aound you sometimes makes me think couldn't help me moving on.. Don't get me wrong... coz whenever I am with you guys, I feel blessed and contented, on the other hand, the feeling fades out at the end of the day when all I have is myself and the shit from my past. Yeah! That could be hard if I'll stick into my mind everything everyday! But c'mon people! How could you manage this situation? I've been dealing with this a year and a half i guess and the question hangin in my mind now is "How long this would take?"

Can someone shoot me NOW? I wanna end up everything with just a snap of my fingers, I wanna come out of this situation seeing myself not hurting at all. that's being crazy i know, but that's the only thing i am wishing for.

Move on little by little, he has to figure out his own shit first, then if by chance in the future you bump each other's face again, from there you'll know what will be next. Love will find it's way... -- Kay says.

Awwww

F*ckness :( (double the ouch! sigh)