clueless

I'm not in the mood to write nor to work. I lack sleep and I couldn't manage to start my tasks right. I don't know if this will gonna be my mood until my shift ends. hopefully not, because tons of tasks are in-line.

Two sticks of cigar might be the reason why I'm feeling like this. After logging in to my YM, I felt the need of smoking right away. I missed chilling out and be relax for a moment. But the result was this... I wanted to go home and take a rest instead.

A friend texted a while ago. She arrived Philippines yesterday I think. Was excited to be with my old friends from childhood. Her boo will have a birthday bash this coming Friday. I'm planning to take a leave to be able to make it. It'll gonna be great for sure. Seeing again old faces, reminiscing everything from the past. The good one ofcourse. I'm wondering if my boss will allow me to take a leave. I don't know.

Everyone's not updating blogs since i don't know except for Gen. Good thing about blogs is that we could get updates about friend's life without seeing each other personally. But I admit, it's still better to see them and make another set of memories together than being updated because of world wide web.


Updates from my so-called friends:

She: She's getting married in 10 months time. She's obviously happy and contented with arman, work, status of living, and family. All in all, she is blessed. I am happy for her. Everyone's envious about what she's into right now, because somehow we all wanted to have a happy life just like hers. Very very proud of having a friend like her. :)

Gaze: For what I know, Gaze's been busy with www.femalenetwork.com, she just revamped the entire site. She's very very web savvy. She's trying to look for a new job currently and I hope she could find a better job than what she has at summit. She's also single and hoping to have a boyfriend as soon as possible. I tell you gaze, you have to work on it, be inspired of working out at the gym, it'll help. Seriously though, try it without hesitations of thinking about your pending work. As for now, you have to think again about your ownself. Be reminded that, yeah! We are working for a living, but we have to balance things for us to be complete. (Am I talking to myself here? hehe)

Aileen: Somehow, I don't understand her whenever she writes on her own journal. Atleast I know, there is something deep she's trying to imply, but I can't figure it out right away. This girl is very deep, and I couldn't pick up immediately what's on her mind. Not just like, Gen or Gaze, very very transparent people, who I could pin point what's on their mind and heart without saying anything. Aileen could be very very honest to everyone with regards to her feelings, I love her for being like that. Currently, she's with her boo rc boi, they're happy together, and yeah! again, they're one of those couple i hate. LOL :))remember? I hate happy couples? LOL. in work related part, she's contented of her status. Being a senior QA.. say what? senior QA! YES! and I'm proud of her! :) Great job Aileen! Being in your company is a good opportunity. As you say, you've been given a chance to travel HK for training and all that. Woah! What a great experience! Good for you! She's up to selling stuffs. Recently, I browsed on her shopping site at multiply account. Shoot I just forgot to get the link of the site. (Poor me, I don't have multiply here.) So, there yah go, that's the update for Aileen.

Mich C.: Just a while ago, I came across to her blogspot account. I don't know if she's keeping this site and dosen't want to disclose it to everybody. I'll respect her privacy and might as well not give the link of her site. Honestly, I don't know anything about her anymore. :( that's the sad part. She's at Bulacan right now and very attached with her boo at the same time. The last time we had a chance to see each other was... errr, fudge mich! when was that? *sigh* I've been bloody missing this girl. It was different when she's not around. I missed her rants, her texts, her stories bout mandu, her stories bout tut tut. hahahha! oh well, mich I just miss you. If ever you'll come across to this post, give me a shout sweetie.. coz I bloody miss you sooo much. mwah!

Irene: My ever loyal friend is located at Bahrain, and this lass got tons of job. Yeah! she's workaholic or should I say, she's doing it to be able to surpass loneliness. I'm actually not sure about it. Was like guessing coz, yes! we seldomly talk and I'm not happy about that. Currently, she's madly inlove with someone else. And as for her, they have this what we call "forbidden love affair". I am glad, we are still attached in a way. Well, I'll chose this kind of situation than being with her at Philippines without any communication at all.

Karleen: She's currentlt looking for a lady bedspace partner for this apartment located at Makati. She's about to move out for some sort of ish. Btw, we are in the same time slot. Currently working in a US base clock. haha! What else? I don't know anything about her right now other than that... Sigh for that. Because way back before, Karleen and I were like sisters in heart. Nevertheless, having been in this kind of situation wont ruin the relationship we built. Even we don't see each other, even we don't talk too much, I know, in our mind and in our heart, we'll always be ready to be available once we need someone to turn to in times of crisis--emotionally, intellectually, spiritually, or even finacially. Yes! that's Karleen.

Staynee: Stayn's been here at Phililippines for quite some time started late last last week. I'm not actually sure of the exact date, but I know, she had a short vacation here. She's been in Singapore for years now. She's an IT there, working for the Singaporeans. Whatever her reasons for not allowing us to see her during her stay was I know can be treated as reasonable. For once, I know her stay was really limited. Second, it's hard to contact everyone when all she knew was we are working on different time slots. I understand her. I contacted her thru YM - SMS. But we had no chance of getting into details. But I knew she was here, I saw some pics from a common friend and they had a lil party for her stay.

Mich R.: Karleen and I call her Minggay before. She's currently connected with accenture and working there as a programmer. She's busy being a wife to Mark and a mum to Lila as well. I have no idea of what her current situation other than what I've mentioned above. What I know is that, she's happy with work and contented being with her fam. I've read about her new blog. Minggay, yeah! I was able to access your new blog. Thanks to my sitemeter, I am able to see people who came accross my blogsite. If you are trying to keep that link. Sure thing, I won't disclose anything about it. Miss you so much. :) Mwah!

Geni: Save the best for last to my ever loyal bitch! LOL. If not that I am busy with work or something, what I do is to call or text Gen. Why? I don't know. She's the first person I turn to whenever I need someone to talk to. Whether I'd like to talk about my rants or any achievement in life or even those crazy things I am doing recently. Once my lips started to talk about rants over the phone, she'll start listening until I say.. "O sya wala kang kwenta kausap! Bye! Miss you!" Then I'll drop the phone. Yes! That's the scenario of our talks. hahaha! I hope Gen won't get tired of my crazy attitude. Because I've been trying to understand her moodswings as well! LOL no no no. Gen is a good friend indeed! Elaborating on things here won't do anything about our relationship right now. But honestly, I care about her a lot. I love Gen and I will always be right beside her through thick and thin. I may not say this as often as I want to, but I really value the friendship we are having right now.

(I don't want you guys to question about our own relationship. I mean, we all have different memories together.)

The thing about her is that, I saw a special thing about her. Her kindness, her good heart, her being human itself. Mabait na tao. Wala akong masabi in short. We could be different in a lot of things, but the thing is... We JIVE! that's it!

I am actually sad about her current stat, I know she's not happy in many ways. I am sad too, I can't always be there beside her literally because my work doesn't allow me. I am partly guilty -- But I know she would understand. If not? I don't care! LOL Seriously, Gen's been a friend just recently, year 2007 i think, but we had a lot of memories since then. As for now, I hope and pray for her real happiness. I'd be the first person to throw a party once she met her prince charming.

Whenever I read her blog, I am having two feelings. One is am happy, because I am getting updated with her life. Two, is am sad, because I got to know that she's not ok with her life now. I hope we could have another out of town trip again. Galera?

With that, we could again share each other stories and be contented and happy once and for all. I miss you guys now! I miss you MORE!