My weekend wasn't fun. I am having allergies since Friday for eating too much of chicken. And I gain weight fyi. Am fatter than usual. LOL :)) can you imagine that?
Onie said.
"hala! ang lapad mo lang?"
Madamme irritably replied.
"so, hiwalay na tayo? maarte ka."
LOL :))
I finished watching desperate housewives season 1 last weekend and started season 2 after. I can't wait for weekend to watch it. I am soo loving it. See how boring my life lately? Been into dvds. I don't have plans for party even some of my hs friends are asking me to go out. I'm not in the mood. I don't know. Because of these fucking allegies. damn it! I wanna get rid of this. I do hope they'll ask me out this weekend again. Seems that I need a break! A long break?
*Darn
Jun 2, 2008
May 30, 2008
Risk I Am Taking
Have been in a long relationship for the longest time. I admit, everything wasn't perfect then. But I was happy indeed! happy figuring out if this journey we are dealing is really for the both of us, if it's really worth it to hang on or stay, if we are really destined together. We used to have fights and petty quarels before. For the longest time, I felt that I was the only one who's giving such love that everyone is looking for until the destiny find its way where he could finally feel how much i am giving or how much I am suffering.
My life was an open book to all those who know me well, wasn't my idea to make it too open though, it's really an open book for those who witnessed what's happening. It's actually hard to keep the situation within myself or with the immediate family members only, somewhat we knew everything will be spilled out as time goes by. It was no good to tell everyone about it. Because the scenario was too sentitive to share yet, eventually I came out from my acting drama that i was feeling OKAY and GOOD at that time. It happened that I can no longer take what's going on so I opt to share it with my folks. Luckily and with all the blessings from the Lord, they understood where I am coming from at that time. Knowing my rents, you won't figure out how did i manage to explain everything without them seeing becoming hysterical. :)
We are just like those normal boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. He's my best bud and my shock absorber in all aspects. Sometimes, I do have these urge of looking beyond our relationship. Yes! We get along, but I always have these thoughts of him not thinking about our future or even getting married soon. He doesn't have any idea about it since, yeah! I don't wanna pressure him as well as I don't want to get disappointed at some point. So, what happened for the longest time was only me whose hoping of walking through the isle together with all the important people in my life including him waiting for me beside his folks at the front of the priest.
People keep on giving advices whenever I am having doubts of my feelings. A lot from his friends told me to get rid of him because what his doing were not so good not only by the law but also in the eyes of The Great One above. A lot from my girl friends were telling me to break up with me. Their reasons? They got tons! and this page won't be enough for the list. :D I was frustrated then, but then again, as they say, "At the end of the day, it'll be my call". Sure!
So there, that's why I'm here still hanging around. Nothing to do but frown. hahaha! that's a lyrics from a song. Seriously though, I stick with him, because I love him dearly and the same goes with him. I know he loves me. he really does. We're very positive about it.
For so many reasons I love this man, not only because he makes me smile, but because I think he's the ONE. (naks!) not only because he treated me nice, but because I can see my future with him. I got to have this picture of my future living with him in one roof and we got kids. :) I love this man, because he completes me. :)
There are some ways to figure out you are still inlove:
♥ if you couldn't stay home without him by your side.
♥ if you still put a smile in your face regardless of what's going on with your relationship.
♥ if you don't allow wrong things he's been up to.
♥ if you are willing to risk hard things for the sake of love.
♥ if the kilig is still there despite all the situation going on.
I must say, these could also be cause of stupidity. (toinks!) BUT we have to consider things such these for us to know if we are in the right track though:
♥ if both parties are willing to compromise whenever problem occurs.
♥ if both parties are following some of THE RULES.
♥ if both of you are considerate.
♥ if God is still at the center of your relationship
some pointers to consider if you would want to break up with your partner.
♥ if you're no longer happy with the situation
♥ if you are just forcing yourself to do the deed just for the sake of doing it.
♥ if you no longer learn something new with each other.
I could be a love guru at times, but I tell you I'm still in the midst of my searching. Searching for for rights answers to sooo many questions in my mind.
I am inlove with the word LOVE. get it? yeah! am so much inlove. And I am loving the feeling :) I do hope we'll end with each other. :) I do hope I wouldn't hear again the i-told-you-so sermon part from my friends and folks!
*keep my fingers cross*
Happy weekend everyone :)
May 29, 2008
A Must Try
Thanks to my new officemate!
She received her first ever paycheck in her entire life! YEY! I remember when I received mine, I was really excited that I actually forgot I have to budget it for my allowance! Good Lord! LOL I didn't know! I was too young and immature to budget. heheh! What I did was to shop and shop and shop. heheheh!
My officemate brought us to Libis and we tried the "Something Fishy" resto. Oh boy! I'm telling you It's a must try place. Very affordable.
Breakfast meal
Buffet style
Eat all you can from 12mn - 10am
For only 114.
How about that?
Boy I was really overwhelmed with the food! heheheh! I enjoyed it and planning to try it again. :)
May 28, 2008
bitterness
Goodmorning everyone!
What's good in the morning when you've learned that your great love way back from highschool is finally engaged and finally settling down anytime soon? Wow! what a shock for me when I see pictures of his and who else? The girl from highshcool also. That girl who every guys been eyeing. She's the girl next door type and I must say, she's pretty and nice. Everybody loves her. Because she's too shy and timid. she's naive and pleasant. Her personality is waaaay too far from these students of 3rd year who are known to be the mean girls and bitches! (woah! zip it! could you control your feelings? are you talking about us? my group of friends to be exact?!) Well, yeah we are not that shy and timid. Oh honestly, we are not even close to that. I was just wondering... why people get it wrong for those girls who are actually misbehaving way back high school. I mean, yeah! we are not that fan of those geeky types of students. We even don't go to class in time. I myself confess, I use to cheat in exams. We've been in detention for couple of times. But I must say, we are not that mean and if you could only knew, we are lovable indeed! I should not broadcast this thing actually, yea! we are that bitch but we don't need to take an effort to be in the horor roll list! Heck! We are smart and we don't need mountains of books to achieve such medals during recognition days. Coz what we wanted to say is that... We know how to chill and we know when to chill. That is!
Yeah! Pathetic!
Why would I emphasize things like these? haha! because a lot of people misunderstood us. Being mean sometimes doesn't mean we are evil. We just know how to express ourselves. We don't care what people might say. What important is we know when to react and we know how to respond.
Am i getting your attention now?
I am just bloody confused why these timid-shy-naive-girls are the ones who are very blessed with really good looking guys plus potentials on the side. YEAH! now I admit it! I am envious of them. I actually do not want to elaborate on things. I just want to make it clear, I adore that guy before, I even did nasty things for a proffessor just to get his name or whatever. Let's just say, letting this entry published would help me get over seeing their lovely pics on the net. haha! I was just not ready to see those. Wasn't really expecting they'll end up together. Wasn't also expecting this guy would broadcast his love and affection with this lovely lass. Yea! they look absolutely happy together. plus the fact that they look so contented with each other. Oh well, am happy for the both of them! REALLY am happy now.
What's good in the morning when you've learned that your great love way back from highschool is finally engaged and finally settling down anytime soon? Wow! what a shock for me when I see pictures of his and who else? The girl from highshcool also. That girl who every guys been eyeing. She's the girl next door type and I must say, she's pretty and nice. Everybody loves her. Because she's too shy and timid. she's naive and pleasant. Her personality is waaaay too far from these students of 3rd year who are known to be the mean girls and bitches! (woah! zip it! could you control your feelings? are you talking about us? my group of friends to be exact?!) Well, yeah we are not that shy and timid. Oh honestly, we are not even close to that. I was just wondering... why people get it wrong for those girls who are actually misbehaving way back high school. I mean, yeah! we are not that fan of those geeky types of students. We even don't go to class in time. I myself confess, I use to cheat in exams. We've been in detention for couple of times. But I must say, we are not that mean and if you could only knew, we are lovable indeed! I should not broadcast this thing actually, yea! we are that bitch but we don't need to take an effort to be in the horor roll list! Heck! We are smart and we don't need mountains of books to achieve such medals during recognition days. Coz what we wanted to say is that... We know how to chill and we know when to chill. That is!
Yeah! Pathetic!
Why would I emphasize things like these? haha! because a lot of people misunderstood us. Being mean sometimes doesn't mean we are evil. We just know how to express ourselves. We don't care what people might say. What important is we know when to react and we know how to respond.
Am i getting your attention now?
I am just bloody confused why these timid-shy-naive-girls are the ones who are very blessed with really good looking guys plus potentials on the side. YEAH! now I admit it! I am envious of them. I actually do not want to elaborate on things. I just want to make it clear, I adore that guy before, I even did nasty things for a proffessor just to get his name or whatever. Let's just say, letting this entry published would help me get over seeing their lovely pics on the net. haha! I was just not ready to see those. Wasn't really expecting they'll end up together. Wasn't also expecting this guy would broadcast his love and affection with this lovely lass. Yea! they look absolutely happy together. plus the fact that they look so contented with each other. Oh well, am happy for the both of them! REALLY am happy now.
May 27, 2008
bored
I'm broke and unhappy.
I'm poor and still am kind.
I'm shorty but am definitely sexy. yeah!!
woah! wataday! I can't write anything about whatever. I'm so not in the mood to do something else. I just wanna continue bumming around the house. I've been wishing to have a holiday in the states for like a week. I'd be the happiest creature in the planet. Needless to say, I'm bored. Bored of everything. Prolly because I'm broke. As in I got no moolah in my wallet. Plus am tired with my hair. I wanna visit the Salon in galleria. Haaay.. Waiting for 9am is like waiting for the end of the world. This is not so cool I know. It's 8:24 now and I'm about to sign off!
I'm poor and still am kind.
I'm shorty but am definitely sexy. yeah!!
woah! wataday! I can't write anything about whatever. I'm so not in the mood to do something else. I just wanna continue bumming around the house. I've been wishing to have a holiday in the states for like a week. I'd be the happiest creature in the planet. Needless to say, I'm bored. Bored of everything. Prolly because I'm broke. As in I got no moolah in my wallet. Plus am tired with my hair. I wanna visit the Salon in galleria. Haaay.. Waiting for 9am is like waiting for the end of the world. This is not so cool I know. It's 8:24 now and I'm about to sign off!
May 26, 2008
What I Miss Doing
I miss going to:
With Onie during:
Doing:
1. Church.
2. Sundays.
3. Attending mass.
4. Alabang Town Center.
5. Saturday s or Mondays.
6. Chilling or shopping.
7. Let’s Face It.
8. Weekdays.
9. Having my nails done or foot spa/facial.
10. Animal Shop.
11. Weekdays.
12. Buying dog food for his pets.
13. Festival Mall.
14. Saturdays or Mondays.
15. Dating
16. Bf Parañaque.
17. Saturday Nights.
18. Chilling with friends. Drinking booze all night long.
19. Las Piñas.
20. Whenever we’re free.
21. Playing billiards.
22. Along the village.
23. Everyday.
24. Doing errands or just road tripping or smoking or simply chilling.
25. His place.
26. Everyday.
27. Cuddling.
28. Out of town.
29. Holidays.
30. Just savoring the moment or travelling.
With Onie during:
Doing:
1. Church.
2. Sundays.
3. Attending mass.
4. Alabang Town Center.
5. Saturday s or Mondays.
6. Chilling or shopping.
7. Let’s Face It.
8. Weekdays.
9. Having my nails done or foot spa/facial.
10. Animal Shop.
11. Weekdays.
12. Buying dog food for his pets.
13. Festival Mall.
14. Saturdays or Mondays.
15. Dating
16. Bf Parañaque.
17. Saturday Nights.
18. Chilling with friends. Drinking booze all night long.
19. Las Piñas.
20. Whenever we’re free.
21. Playing billiards.
22. Along the village.
23. Everyday.
24. Doing errands or just road tripping or smoking or simply chilling.
25. His place.
26. Everyday.
27. Cuddling.
28. Out of town.
29. Holidays.
30. Just savoring the moment or travelling.
Long weekend
I wasn’t that excited of celebrating the holiday of the states for I don’t have any plans at all, plus I only got Php1400 in my wallet until payday. How will I manage that? Anyhow, I left the office last Friday shift at 12:30pm, yes! I have to leave that late, because before that, I had early breakfast with some of my friends from the office who were already not connected with the industry that is why I am missing them so much. So we had breakfast at Pancake House Metrowalk. Then I headed up to my officemate and got my dvd orders. I ordered:
1. 27 Dresses
2. Desperate Housewives Season 1-3
There, you could simply imagine how I spent my holidays. Yea! I indulge myself watching dvds and it made me sick. LOL Coz I didn’t have time to stretch and all that. I was really a couch potato last 2 days. It was fun though. I didn’t have the means of shopping or visiting the spa, or taking my clothes to the laundry, or having my nails done instead… Coz I’m freakin’ out of cash! LOL well, its okay. I know it’s going to be fine anytime soon because it’ll be payday on the 28th. Thank good Lord!
So what’s up with my so-called love life? Hmmm. Nothing new. Same thing happened. I went there and we day dreamt. I just love being with him except loving the surroundings! Hell I just couldn’t afford seeing him living his every single day there. I pity him so much. But there’s no way of taking him out of that place. We actually had a time scribbling on a piece of paper all the people he knew and the one’s he’ll invite to our wedding. He said, “It’ll be the most awaited wedding of the year wifey! I know it’ll be!” I smiled and let him write. All the while, I see 3 pages are already full of numbers and papers. Woah! He was once popular then! He knew a lot of people that I don’t know. I started to crack a joke. “Are those people legal?” Hahahahahhahaha! Then we laugh.
He asked me to write my own list. And we headed to making our list of our dream entourage. :) This is day dreaming I know! I tell you… I had fun! As if it was for real. As if the wedding day will be 3 months from now. He was so excited and so do I. He was asking what motif I like, or do I have any theme for the wedding or just a simple one. Oh my! I couldn’t believe Onie’s been thinking about this stuff lately. We don’t actually talk about weddings when we were still together in the real world. You get what I mean? Yea! Onie’s a typical happy-go-lucky person. Sweet but immature one. We find it hard talking about serious stuffs before, but now, what we have on plate are our future plans and I am sad and happy about it. Thinking, are these dreams would finally come true or just stay as a dream that has no room for reality? Woah! That’s harsh! I think I should stay positive with this! I don’t want any negative vibe will come my way this Monday or rather Tuesday, whatever day today. :)
I actually wanna show you the list of our entourage. I was happy about it and excited at the same time! But of course, I don’t wanna spoil the event. I don’t wanna just day dream about it! I’ll make this happen! He’ll make it happen! WE’LL MAKE EVERYTHING HAPPEN! :)
And for now,
This is Madamme… signing of…
1. 27 Dresses
2. Desperate Housewives Season 1-3
There, you could simply imagine how I spent my holidays. Yea! I indulge myself watching dvds and it made me sick. LOL Coz I didn’t have time to stretch and all that. I was really a couch potato last 2 days. It was fun though. I didn’t have the means of shopping or visiting the spa, or taking my clothes to the laundry, or having my nails done instead… Coz I’m freakin’ out of cash! LOL well, its okay. I know it’s going to be fine anytime soon because it’ll be payday on the 28th. Thank good Lord!
So what’s up with my so-called love life? Hmmm. Nothing new. Same thing happened. I went there and we day dreamt. I just love being with him except loving the surroundings! Hell I just couldn’t afford seeing him living his every single day there. I pity him so much. But there’s no way of taking him out of that place. We actually had a time scribbling on a piece of paper all the people he knew and the one’s he’ll invite to our wedding. He said, “It’ll be the most awaited wedding of the year wifey! I know it’ll be!” I smiled and let him write. All the while, I see 3 pages are already full of numbers and papers. Woah! He was once popular then! He knew a lot of people that I don’t know. I started to crack a joke. “Are those people legal?” Hahahahahhahaha! Then we laugh.
He asked me to write my own list. And we headed to making our list of our dream entourage. :) This is day dreaming I know! I tell you… I had fun! As if it was for real. As if the wedding day will be 3 months from now. He was so excited and so do I. He was asking what motif I like, or do I have any theme for the wedding or just a simple one. Oh my! I couldn’t believe Onie’s been thinking about this stuff lately. We don’t actually talk about weddings when we were still together in the real world. You get what I mean? Yea! Onie’s a typical happy-go-lucky person. Sweet but immature one. We find it hard talking about serious stuffs before, but now, what we have on plate are our future plans and I am sad and happy about it. Thinking, are these dreams would finally come true or just stay as a dream that has no room for reality? Woah! That’s harsh! I think I should stay positive with this! I don’t want any negative vibe will come my way this Monday or rather Tuesday, whatever day today. :)
I actually wanna show you the list of our entourage. I was happy about it and excited at the same time! But of course, I don’t wanna spoil the event. I don’t wanna just day dream about it! I’ll make this happen! He’ll make it happen! WE’LL MAKE EVERYTHING HAPPEN! :)
And for now,
This is Madamme… signing of…
May 22, 2008
Transformation
im getting bloody old. ;)
sometimes, I use to day dream about anything. I'm thinking about my past, my present and my future. Then suddenly I realized, boy, I'm bloody getting old and this is not fair! haha! why? Because, I see myself alone while embracing my future. It's freaking lonely thinking indeed my current situation. Yea, I am blessed with work, I have very supporting folks, I got tons of perfect friends all over the world. The only thing I'm sad about is, I am alone literally. I miss my other half again. I notice that I keep on blogging about the same old stuff and the only thing differs about it is the title alone. Sigh. How in the world I could deal with this? How many days from now, my bro will have another angel. His wife will give birth for their second child. How many months from now, my big sis will definitely give birth to her second child (i hope its girl this time). How many years from now, my other big sis will finally get married. Oh! before I forget, my lil big sis got boyfriend already. and I saw the pic. He's cute though. And I am bloody envious with them. Really! Can you imagine how happy they are?
Soon, I know, the perfect time will come. Soon I'll be happy. happily married with hubby with 1 kid I suppose. But he wants 2 kids, rather 3. Oh-oh! He's mean! How can I handle 3 kids! Well let's just say, I should start working hard to earn millions of moolahs. I should be rich to pay for 3 nannies. LOL. I should be rich! hahhaha!
Ok, to start this.. I'll go back to work. See yah! :)
sometimes, I use to day dream about anything. I'm thinking about my past, my present and my future. Then suddenly I realized, boy, I'm bloody getting old and this is not fair! haha! why? Because, I see myself alone while embracing my future. It's freaking lonely thinking indeed my current situation. Yea, I am blessed with work, I have very supporting folks, I got tons of perfect friends all over the world. The only thing I'm sad about is, I am alone literally. I miss my other half again. I notice that I keep on blogging about the same old stuff and the only thing differs about it is the title alone. Sigh. How in the world I could deal with this? How many days from now, my bro will have another angel. His wife will give birth for their second child. How many months from now, my big sis will definitely give birth to her second child (i hope its girl this time). How many years from now, my other big sis will finally get married. Oh! before I forget, my lil big sis got boyfriend already. and I saw the pic. He's cute though. And I am bloody envious with them. Really! Can you imagine how happy they are?
Soon, I know, the perfect time will come. Soon I'll be happy. happily married with hubby with 1 kid I suppose. But he wants 2 kids, rather 3. Oh-oh! He's mean! How can I handle 3 kids! Well let's just say, I should start working hard to earn millions of moolahs. I should be rich to pay for 3 nannies. LOL. I should be rich! hahhaha!
Ok, to start this.. I'll go back to work. See yah! :)
May 21, 2008
was marketing
I know what's bothering me now. lately, I see myself not in the mood to work. Every night, it's been as if I am forcing myself to wake up just to prepare for work. I don't know if this sounds cool but I am not happy anymore (again). Take a look at this.
That's marketing team before. Would you believe if I tell you I'm the only marketing person there who's still connected with my current employer now? Yes! They're all gone. Even the big boss there. Everyone moved out and found his/her new job elsewhere. I couldn't imagine me staying here. Once I tried leaving, another opportunity came my way--and still I wasn't prepared. Then, I came back. I loved everything about here. All the perks and the people. I got tons of old and new friends. I learned a lot about internet marketing. I love my boss now. He's too nice and smart. Yet, there's something in me that I am trying to understand, why am I not happy anymore. Was it because K left also? Was it because of the current status of the company? Nah. I think it doesn't count at all. I'd be very hypocrite if I say I don't miss everyone here. The old employees to be exact. I miss them. Ung tawanan kapag break, ung walang humpay na yosi. It's really different now.
That picture? It's too old. And its not complete anyway. We were like 18 before. And now. The new marketing team? We are 6 in a group now. Me the oldest employee, my boss of course, not new but still I came earlier than him, plus the 4 new people. They're all nice and smart. But still. I miss the old marketing team!
That's marketing team before. Would you believe if I tell you I'm the only marketing person there who's still connected with my current employer now? Yes! They're all gone. Even the big boss there. Everyone moved out and found his/her new job elsewhere. I couldn't imagine me staying here. Once I tried leaving, another opportunity came my way--and still I wasn't prepared. Then, I came back. I loved everything about here. All the perks and the people. I got tons of old and new friends. I learned a lot about internet marketing. I love my boss now. He's too nice and smart. Yet, there's something in me that I am trying to understand, why am I not happy anymore. Was it because K left also? Was it because of the current status of the company? Nah. I think it doesn't count at all. I'd be very hypocrite if I say I don't miss everyone here. The old employees to be exact. I miss them. Ung tawanan kapag break, ung walang humpay na yosi. It's really different now.
That picture? It's too old. And its not complete anyway. We were like 18 before. And now. The new marketing team? We are 6 in a group now. Me the oldest employee, my boss of course, not new but still I came earlier than him, plus the 4 new people. They're all nice and smart. But still. I miss the old marketing team!
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