I'm broke and unhappy.
I'm poor and still am kind.
I'm shorty but am definitely sexy. yeah!!
woah! wataday! I can't write anything about whatever. I'm so not in the mood to do something else. I just wanna continue bumming around the house. I've been wishing to have a holiday in the states for like a week. I'd be the happiest creature in the planet. Needless to say, I'm bored. Bored of everything. Prolly because I'm broke. As in I got no moolah in my wallet. Plus am tired with my hair. I wanna visit the Salon in galleria. Haaay.. Waiting for 9am is like waiting for the end of the world. This is not so cool I know. It's 8:24 now and I'm about to sign off!
May 27, 2008
May 26, 2008
What I Miss Doing
I miss going to:
With Onie during:
Doing:
1. Church.
2. Sundays.
3. Attending mass.
4. Alabang Town Center.
5. Saturday s or Mondays.
6. Chilling or shopping.
7. Let’s Face It.
8. Weekdays.
9. Having my nails done or foot spa/facial.
10. Animal Shop.
11. Weekdays.
12. Buying dog food for his pets.
13. Festival Mall.
14. Saturdays or Mondays.
15. Dating
16. Bf Parañaque.
17. Saturday Nights.
18. Chilling with friends. Drinking booze all night long.
19. Las Piñas.
20. Whenever we’re free.
21. Playing billiards.
22. Along the village.
23. Everyday.
24. Doing errands or just road tripping or smoking or simply chilling.
25. His place.
26. Everyday.
27. Cuddling.
28. Out of town.
29. Holidays.
30. Just savoring the moment or travelling.
With Onie during:
Doing:
1. Church.
2. Sundays.
3. Attending mass.
4. Alabang Town Center.
5. Saturday s or Mondays.
6. Chilling or shopping.
7. Let’s Face It.
8. Weekdays.
9. Having my nails done or foot spa/facial.
10. Animal Shop.
11. Weekdays.
12. Buying dog food for his pets.
13. Festival Mall.
14. Saturdays or Mondays.
15. Dating
16. Bf Parañaque.
17. Saturday Nights.
18. Chilling with friends. Drinking booze all night long.
19. Las Piñas.
20. Whenever we’re free.
21. Playing billiards.
22. Along the village.
23. Everyday.
24. Doing errands or just road tripping or smoking or simply chilling.
25. His place.
26. Everyday.
27. Cuddling.
28. Out of town.
29. Holidays.
30. Just savoring the moment or travelling.
Long weekend
I wasn’t that excited of celebrating the holiday of the states for I don’t have any plans at all, plus I only got Php1400 in my wallet until payday. How will I manage that? Anyhow, I left the office last Friday shift at 12:30pm, yes! I have to leave that late, because before that, I had early breakfast with some of my friends from the office who were already not connected with the industry that is why I am missing them so much. So we had breakfast at Pancake House Metrowalk. Then I headed up to my officemate and got my dvd orders. I ordered:
1. 27 Dresses
2. Desperate Housewives Season 1-3
There, you could simply imagine how I spent my holidays. Yea! I indulge myself watching dvds and it made me sick. LOL Coz I didn’t have time to stretch and all that. I was really a couch potato last 2 days. It was fun though. I didn’t have the means of shopping or visiting the spa, or taking my clothes to the laundry, or having my nails done instead… Coz I’m freakin’ out of cash! LOL well, its okay. I know it’s going to be fine anytime soon because it’ll be payday on the 28th. Thank good Lord!
So what’s up with my so-called love life? Hmmm. Nothing new. Same thing happened. I went there and we day dreamt. I just love being with him except loving the surroundings! Hell I just couldn’t afford seeing him living his every single day there. I pity him so much. But there’s no way of taking him out of that place. We actually had a time scribbling on a piece of paper all the people he knew and the one’s he’ll invite to our wedding. He said, “It’ll be the most awaited wedding of the year wifey! I know it’ll be!” I smiled and let him write. All the while, I see 3 pages are already full of numbers and papers. Woah! He was once popular then! He knew a lot of people that I don’t know. I started to crack a joke. “Are those people legal?” Hahahahahhahaha! Then we laugh.
He asked me to write my own list. And we headed to making our list of our dream entourage. :) This is day dreaming I know! I tell you… I had fun! As if it was for real. As if the wedding day will be 3 months from now. He was so excited and so do I. He was asking what motif I like, or do I have any theme for the wedding or just a simple one. Oh my! I couldn’t believe Onie’s been thinking about this stuff lately. We don’t actually talk about weddings when we were still together in the real world. You get what I mean? Yea! Onie’s a typical happy-go-lucky person. Sweet but immature one. We find it hard talking about serious stuffs before, but now, what we have on plate are our future plans and I am sad and happy about it. Thinking, are these dreams would finally come true or just stay as a dream that has no room for reality? Woah! That’s harsh! I think I should stay positive with this! I don’t want any negative vibe will come my way this Monday or rather Tuesday, whatever day today. :)
I actually wanna show you the list of our entourage. I was happy about it and excited at the same time! But of course, I don’t wanna spoil the event. I don’t wanna just day dream about it! I’ll make this happen! He’ll make it happen! WE’LL MAKE EVERYTHING HAPPEN! :)
And for now,
This is Madamme… signing of…
1. 27 Dresses
2. Desperate Housewives Season 1-3
There, you could simply imagine how I spent my holidays. Yea! I indulge myself watching dvds and it made me sick. LOL Coz I didn’t have time to stretch and all that. I was really a couch potato last 2 days. It was fun though. I didn’t have the means of shopping or visiting the spa, or taking my clothes to the laundry, or having my nails done instead… Coz I’m freakin’ out of cash! LOL well, its okay. I know it’s going to be fine anytime soon because it’ll be payday on the 28th. Thank good Lord!
So what’s up with my so-called love life? Hmmm. Nothing new. Same thing happened. I went there and we day dreamt. I just love being with him except loving the surroundings! Hell I just couldn’t afford seeing him living his every single day there. I pity him so much. But there’s no way of taking him out of that place. We actually had a time scribbling on a piece of paper all the people he knew and the one’s he’ll invite to our wedding. He said, “It’ll be the most awaited wedding of the year wifey! I know it’ll be!” I smiled and let him write. All the while, I see 3 pages are already full of numbers and papers. Woah! He was once popular then! He knew a lot of people that I don’t know. I started to crack a joke. “Are those people legal?” Hahahahahhahaha! Then we laugh.
He asked me to write my own list. And we headed to making our list of our dream entourage. :) This is day dreaming I know! I tell you… I had fun! As if it was for real. As if the wedding day will be 3 months from now. He was so excited and so do I. He was asking what motif I like, or do I have any theme for the wedding or just a simple one. Oh my! I couldn’t believe Onie’s been thinking about this stuff lately. We don’t actually talk about weddings when we were still together in the real world. You get what I mean? Yea! Onie’s a typical happy-go-lucky person. Sweet but immature one. We find it hard talking about serious stuffs before, but now, what we have on plate are our future plans and I am sad and happy about it. Thinking, are these dreams would finally come true or just stay as a dream that has no room for reality? Woah! That’s harsh! I think I should stay positive with this! I don’t want any negative vibe will come my way this Monday or rather Tuesday, whatever day today. :)
I actually wanna show you the list of our entourage. I was happy about it and excited at the same time! But of course, I don’t wanna spoil the event. I don’t wanna just day dream about it! I’ll make this happen! He’ll make it happen! WE’LL MAKE EVERYTHING HAPPEN! :)
And for now,
This is Madamme… signing of…
May 22, 2008
Transformation
im getting bloody old. ;)
sometimes, I use to day dream about anything. I'm thinking about my past, my present and my future. Then suddenly I realized, boy, I'm bloody getting old and this is not fair! haha! why? Because, I see myself alone while embracing my future. It's freaking lonely thinking indeed my current situation. Yea, I am blessed with work, I have very supporting folks, I got tons of perfect friends all over the world. The only thing I'm sad about is, I am alone literally. I miss my other half again. I notice that I keep on blogging about the same old stuff and the only thing differs about it is the title alone. Sigh. How in the world I could deal with this? How many days from now, my bro will have another angel. His wife will give birth for their second child. How many months from now, my big sis will definitely give birth to her second child (i hope its girl this time). How many years from now, my other big sis will finally get married. Oh! before I forget, my lil big sis got boyfriend already. and I saw the pic. He's cute though. And I am bloody envious with them. Really! Can you imagine how happy they are?
Soon, I know, the perfect time will come. Soon I'll be happy. happily married with hubby with 1 kid I suppose. But he wants 2 kids, rather 3. Oh-oh! He's mean! How can I handle 3 kids! Well let's just say, I should start working hard to earn millions of moolahs. I should be rich to pay for 3 nannies. LOL. I should be rich! hahhaha!
Ok, to start this.. I'll go back to work. See yah! :)
sometimes, I use to day dream about anything. I'm thinking about my past, my present and my future. Then suddenly I realized, boy, I'm bloody getting old and this is not fair! haha! why? Because, I see myself alone while embracing my future. It's freaking lonely thinking indeed my current situation. Yea, I am blessed with work, I have very supporting folks, I got tons of perfect friends all over the world. The only thing I'm sad about is, I am alone literally. I miss my other half again. I notice that I keep on blogging about the same old stuff and the only thing differs about it is the title alone. Sigh. How in the world I could deal with this? How many days from now, my bro will have another angel. His wife will give birth for their second child. How many months from now, my big sis will definitely give birth to her second child (i hope its girl this time). How many years from now, my other big sis will finally get married. Oh! before I forget, my lil big sis got boyfriend already. and I saw the pic. He's cute though. And I am bloody envious with them. Really! Can you imagine how happy they are?
Soon, I know, the perfect time will come. Soon I'll be happy. happily married with hubby with 1 kid I suppose. But he wants 2 kids, rather 3. Oh-oh! He's mean! How can I handle 3 kids! Well let's just say, I should start working hard to earn millions of moolahs. I should be rich to pay for 3 nannies. LOL. I should be rich! hahhaha!
Ok, to start this.. I'll go back to work. See yah! :)
May 21, 2008
was marketing
I know what's bothering me now. lately, I see myself not in the mood to work. Every night, it's been as if I am forcing myself to wake up just to prepare for work. I don't know if this sounds cool but I am not happy anymore (again). Take a look at this.
That's marketing team before. Would you believe if I tell you I'm the only marketing person there who's still connected with my current employer now? Yes! They're all gone. Even the big boss there. Everyone moved out and found his/her new job elsewhere. I couldn't imagine me staying here. Once I tried leaving, another opportunity came my way--and still I wasn't prepared. Then, I came back. I loved everything about here. All the perks and the people. I got tons of old and new friends. I learned a lot about internet marketing. I love my boss now. He's too nice and smart. Yet, there's something in me that I am trying to understand, why am I not happy anymore. Was it because K left also? Was it because of the current status of the company? Nah. I think it doesn't count at all. I'd be very hypocrite if I say I don't miss everyone here. The old employees to be exact. I miss them. Ung tawanan kapag break, ung walang humpay na yosi. It's really different now.
That picture? It's too old. And its not complete anyway. We were like 18 before. And now. The new marketing team? We are 6 in a group now. Me the oldest employee, my boss of course, not new but still I came earlier than him, plus the 4 new people. They're all nice and smart. But still. I miss the old marketing team!
That's marketing team before. Would you believe if I tell you I'm the only marketing person there who's still connected with my current employer now? Yes! They're all gone. Even the big boss there. Everyone moved out and found his/her new job elsewhere. I couldn't imagine me staying here. Once I tried leaving, another opportunity came my way--and still I wasn't prepared. Then, I came back. I loved everything about here. All the perks and the people. I got tons of old and new friends. I learned a lot about internet marketing. I love my boss now. He's too nice and smart. Yet, there's something in me that I am trying to understand, why am I not happy anymore. Was it because K left also? Was it because of the current status of the company? Nah. I think it doesn't count at all. I'd be very hypocrite if I say I don't miss everyone here. The old employees to be exact. I miss them. Ung tawanan kapag break, ung walang humpay na yosi. It's really different now.
That picture? It's too old. And its not complete anyway. We were like 18 before. And now. The new marketing team? We are 6 in a group now. Me the oldest employee, my boss of course, not new but still I came earlier than him, plus the 4 new people. They're all nice and smart. But still. I miss the old marketing team!
May 19, 2008
weekend drama
today, i kinda feel again the feeling of being "not-connected-to-anyone"haaay.. this is freakin' lonely. im sad. really sad.
wala ng natuloy na binalak
that's the fuckin' saddest part here. I almost wanted to SCREEAAAAMMM! (btw, yea.. for those who prayed for this cancellation of our beach getaway, you better get lost and try to find the exit door coz i really wanna chop your head.. you're bloody getting into my nerves!)
last thursday shift, i intended to hit all my tasks for i will ask permission to take an off on my friday shift. I'll be miles away from manila. get tanned at the beach with my so-called friends from college. so i packed my things up and ready to go. I arrived Alabang then, grabbing some cash from the atm machine, Gen texted. We have to cancel our trip. may bagyo raw! fukc that! nakakainis! if you just know how excited i am with this trip. maaawa talaga kayo saken. huhuhu. I've been looking forward to this event pero ayun. dahil sa punyetang bagyo! nagkanda leche leche! haaaaay. oh well. shit happens, that's the least i could say to calm down myself.
Gen told me to go back to ortigas/makati area so we could chill nalang somewhere there. I don't have the means of staying there with that black clouds and heavy rain. I don't wanna piss myself off because of the weather. I'd rather stay cool with whoelse? Onie nalang. I stayed at home for 2 hours with my folks and manage to fix myself and be ready to surprise hubby. He doesn't know anything about this so-called crap... the cancellation going on thingy, so might as well, take this opporunity to be with him nalang. so un, i went there, seeing his big smile on his face made my day complete. really, onie's been my paracetamol since then. He can make me cool down and take away my angst and my head ache all at the same time without doing something or just smiling back at me. just that.. i know.. it's kinda cheesy but for real.. i mean that. ;) he really is my medicine for all the fuckin' head aches i've been encountering.
I stayed there until 5am. (ok. for those who are protesting.. take the exit door pls. LOL) I know it's too much to stay there until that time, but i wanted to. That's the only time I could bond with him, that's the only time i could see him happy, that's the only time we could say goodnight with each other face to face, that's the only time i could touch him, that's the only time i can embrace him... i could still remember the lines i told him that night..
"i don't want to sleep even i am sleepless, i just wanna see your entire face looking at me.. I love you so much. Though we are dealing with this kind of situation, i am still here, I'll be yours forever hubby. Stay with me... I miss you dearly.."
Sigh... i miss him again now. if only the time permits me to stay there longer.. I will. Yes! truly I'll stay...
wala ng natuloy na binalak
that's the fuckin' saddest part here. I almost wanted to SCREEAAAAMMM! (btw, yea.. for those who prayed for this cancellation of our beach getaway, you better get lost and try to find the exit door coz i really wanna chop your head.. you're bloody getting into my nerves!)
last thursday shift, i intended to hit all my tasks for i will ask permission to take an off on my friday shift. I'll be miles away from manila. get tanned at the beach with my so-called friends from college. so i packed my things up and ready to go. I arrived Alabang then, grabbing some cash from the atm machine, Gen texted. We have to cancel our trip. may bagyo raw! fukc that! nakakainis! if you just know how excited i am with this trip. maaawa talaga kayo saken. huhuhu. I've been looking forward to this event pero ayun. dahil sa punyetang bagyo! nagkanda leche leche! haaaaay. oh well. shit happens, that's the least i could say to calm down myself.
Gen told me to go back to ortigas/makati area so we could chill nalang somewhere there. I don't have the means of staying there with that black clouds and heavy rain. I don't wanna piss myself off because of the weather. I'd rather stay cool with whoelse? Onie nalang. I stayed at home for 2 hours with my folks and manage to fix myself and be ready to surprise hubby. He doesn't know anything about this so-called crap... the cancellation going on thingy, so might as well, take this opporunity to be with him nalang. so un, i went there, seeing his big smile on his face made my day complete. really, onie's been my paracetamol since then. He can make me cool down and take away my angst and my head ache all at the same time without doing something or just smiling back at me. just that.. i know.. it's kinda cheesy but for real.. i mean that. ;) he really is my medicine for all the fuckin' head aches i've been encountering.
I stayed there until 5am. (ok. for those who are protesting.. take the exit door pls. LOL) I know it's too much to stay there until that time, but i wanted to. That's the only time I could bond with him, that's the only time i could see him happy, that's the only time we could say goodnight with each other face to face, that's the only time i could touch him, that's the only time i can embrace him... i could still remember the lines i told him that night..
"i don't want to sleep even i am sleepless, i just wanna see your entire face looking at me.. I love you so much. Though we are dealing with this kind of situation, i am still here, I'll be yours forever hubby. Stay with me... I miss you dearly.."
Sigh... i miss him again now. if only the time permits me to stay there longer.. I will. Yes! truly I'll stay...
May 9, 2008
Reminiscing and Planning (at this day, I -- )
8 years ago - I skipped schooling. I was mad at my parents because I can't understand why I have to sacrifice everything for my siblings. I worked at an electronics industry somewhere at Laguna. My complexion right then was really white (because of the aircon and the graveyardshift). LOL. I had my first atm then. Received my first pay as well. And that was the year I hubby and I became couple (April 10, 2000)
This is the only old pic i have here in my pc. but that's year 2000 i think.
7 years ago - entered apc for college. Was shy and insecure because I know am older than my classmates. And I was thinking that I couldn't make it because I stopped schooling. Earned a lot of friends and am happy were still intact now. That one, we had field trip at Marikina I think. That's for Values Education subject. (WTF! we had that kind of subject? hehe) I was with my blockmates called SSE12 and our prof was Dr. Yu. The person I miss during these days that I had a friendly relationship with was Lorenzo. During late last last year I guess, we still had contacts. Since I often lost my phone, my contacts were already erased. Yeah I know that sucks!
6 years ago - I was 2nd year college then. I had favorite girls and we named our group as MACKIE. lol ;p I was excited about schooling, was enjoying every single days together. And did I mention I love wearing business attire? hahaha! that's true and I couldn't find a day having a bad hair day. I always iron my hair yeah!! really.
5 years ago - I became addicted with tong-its. I was playing with Karleen and Philip till 10pm I think. LOL and people can always spot me at "Aling Miding's" Tambayan were a lot of makukulet and happy people chill and stay up until night to share kwentos and yosi or even drink redhorse up until dawn. That pic, we were with AA and Mae. Cool hot mammas. Miss them. :)
4 years ago - 2004 - Wei shifted course and 5 of us stay at the same course. Luckily, we had good grades and good love life as well. hehehe. We had big plans by that time. We were thinking of having a business called "Hav' it ur Way". we don't really know still what kind of industry. All we knew is that the name of the company. We had big dreams back then. I dropped a subj. I forgot what it is. But the reason was because of the prof. He doesn't like me and I don't like him either. So I dropped and took the subject next term.
3 years ago - I graduated and that's our barkada pic. Nice no? I didn't realize we're about to graduate really soon. It's like, for me studying at apc seems like really fast. I was just enjoying the moment, then came graduation. Sad because a lot of people have to face the fact that they have to leave country and Irene was one of them. That's why I missed here so much.
I'll continue this tonight. Heck! It's already 4:05. I have to go. I'll be working still tonight. Sigh for me. Well it's payday. I should be cheering up here. YAY! :)
7 years ago - entered apc for college. Was shy and insecure because I know am older than my classmates. And I was thinking that I couldn't make it because I stopped schooling. Earned a lot of friends and am happy were still intact now. That one, we had field trip at Marikina I think. That's for Values Education subject. (WTF! we had that kind of subject? hehe) I was with my blockmates called SSE12 and our prof was Dr. Yu. The person I miss during these days that I had a friendly relationship with was Lorenzo. During late last last year I guess, we still had contacts. Since I often lost my phone, my contacts were already erased. Yeah I know that sucks!
6 years ago - I was 2nd year college then. I had favorite girls and we named our group as MACKIE. lol ;p I was excited about schooling, was enjoying every single days together. And did I mention I love wearing business attire? hahaha! that's true and I couldn't find a day having a bad hair day. I always iron my hair yeah!! really.
5 years ago - I became addicted with tong-its. I was playing with Karleen and Philip till 10pm I think. LOL and people can always spot me at "Aling Miding's" Tambayan were a lot of makukulet and happy people chill and stay up until night to share kwentos and yosi or even drink redhorse up until dawn. That pic, we were with AA and Mae. Cool hot mammas. Miss them. :)
4 years ago - 2004 - Wei shifted course and 5 of us stay at the same course. Luckily, we had good grades and good love life as well. hehehe. We had big plans by that time. We were thinking of having a business called "Hav' it ur Way". we don't really know still what kind of industry. All we knew is that the name of the company. We had big dreams back then. I dropped a subj. I forgot what it is. But the reason was because of the prof. He doesn't like me and I don't like him either. So I dropped and took the subject next term.
3 years ago - I graduated and that's our barkada pic. Nice no? I didn't realize we're about to graduate really soon. It's like, for me studying at apc seems like really fast. I was just enjoying the moment, then came graduation. Sad because a lot of people have to face the fact that they have to leave country and Irene was one of them. That's why I missed here so much.
I'll continue this tonight. Heck! It's already 4:05. I have to go. I'll be working still tonight. Sigh for me. Well it's payday. I should be cheering up here. YAY! :)
May 5, 2008
Funny Data I sent
Check this out! =)) I made a doc for him. I told him I have a copy of his CV
B0bby P*rez
Visit me at: Blk 1* Lot 6 Phase *
Mutu*l Hom*s, M*ntinlup* C*ty
Text me at: 09*7 8836***
Call me anytime at: 850 13**
Objective: To gain more knowledge about A*za Den*ña and earn more experience about love with her.
Work Experience:
Br*nd*rs.com
Boyfriend to A*z* D.
Personal Reference:
A*za Den*ña
Future Mrs. P*rez
Kay Rh*des
Witness to our eternal love.
Hahaha!
Note: I put * so that this entry wont be able to make it on organic search of go*gle. Good job! LOL =))
These things--I know I'll be missing these moments ;)
B0bby P*rez
Visit me at: Blk 1* Lot 6 Phase *
Mutu*l Hom*s, M*ntinlup* C*ty
Text me at: 09*7 8836***
Call me anytime at: 850 13**
Objective: To gain more knowledge about A*za Den*ña and earn more experience about love with her.
Work Experience:
Br*nd*rs.com
Boyfriend to A*z* D.
Personal Reference:
A*za Den*ña
Future Mrs. P*rez
Kay Rh*des
Witness to our eternal love.
Hahaha!
Note: I put * so that this entry wont be able to make it on organic search of go*gle. Good job! LOL =))
These things--I know I'll be missing these moments ;)
Just because you didn't know
I managed to browse on some of my entries here and found two comments that I didn't notice before:
"geni said...
LOL! ive already uploaded the pixies! ang dami lang..
March 30, 2008 10:36 PM
ming said...
ganyan ka ka naman si gen ang gaze lng ang namimiss mo! :p
March 31, 2008 11:44 PM
Anonymous said...
oo nga c gen at gaze lang! hatechu!
-ayreen elque
May 05, 2008 1:40 AM
aiza said...
hmmm. may ganto palang comment dito? hindi nyo man ako naiintindihan.. hindi man kayo maniwala..
namimiss ko kayo."
There I saw two comments from Mich and Irene. They thought I don't miss them as much as I miss Gen and Gaze.
Being with these people (gen and gaze) don't mean I totally changed or I erased you guys from my friend's list. Infact, I miss you all so much. The original MACKIE group. If only I could turn back time, I'd rather stay intouch with all of you. But we all know, time doesn't permit us, and so with the situation. If only we could see each other everyday, that would be better. When was the last time I dumped you guys? I can not think of any instance I made a decision of letting you feel down because I chose to be with somebody else than being with you. (Don't you dare consider the time I left you because I chose to be with Onie. That's different story my dear sweethearts :p) So I say, being with the rest of my girls like gen, gaze, aileen, mich c, doesn't imply I do not miss you (irene, stayn, mich r, karleen, wei) at all. The situation is very very complicated. You know what I mean. Could I just ask one question though?
hmmmm. I changed my mind. I don't want to question things like that. Besides, Being a friend and choosing you all to be my friend shouldn't have a hanging question about the friendship and the relationship we have.
Real friends last forever even without seeing each other or talking with each other. By heart, by mind and by soul... I equally love all of you and treasure you til the end.
*sniff*
"geni said...
LOL! ive already uploaded the pixies! ang dami lang..
March 30, 2008 10:36 PM
ming said...
ganyan ka ka naman si gen ang gaze lng ang namimiss mo! :p
March 31, 2008 11:44 PM
Anonymous said...
oo nga c gen at gaze lang! hatechu!
-ayreen elque
May 05, 2008 1:40 AM
aiza said...
hmmm. may ganto palang comment dito? hindi nyo man ako naiintindihan.. hindi man kayo maniwala..
namimiss ko kayo."
There I saw two comments from Mich and Irene. They thought I don't miss them as much as I miss Gen and Gaze.
Being with these people (gen and gaze) don't mean I totally changed or I erased you guys from my friend's list. Infact, I miss you all so much. The original MACKIE group. If only I could turn back time, I'd rather stay intouch with all of you. But we all know, time doesn't permit us, and so with the situation. If only we could see each other everyday, that would be better. When was the last time I dumped you guys? I can not think of any instance I made a decision of letting you feel down because I chose to be with somebody else than being with you. (Don't you dare consider the time I left you because I chose to be with Onie. That's different story my dear sweethearts :p) So I say, being with the rest of my girls like gen, gaze, aileen, mich c, doesn't imply I do not miss you (irene, stayn, mich r, karleen, wei) at all. The situation is very very complicated. You know what I mean. Could I just ask one question though?
hmmmm. I changed my mind. I don't want to question things like that. Besides, Being a friend and choosing you all to be my friend shouldn't have a hanging question about the friendship and the relationship we have.
Real friends last forever even without seeing each other or talking with each other. By heart, by mind and by soul... I equally love all of you and treasure you til the end.
*sniff*
May 4, 2008
I sang for hubby
I had my usual Saturday with hubby. This time, it was extra special. I sang my favorite song of Silent Santuary which is really dedicated to him--Kundiman. I sang it in his ears coz I don't want him to see me that frustrated and lonely. Suddenly, my tears fell and I burst out. He's telling me to stop and calm down but I refuse. I wanted to finish the song. I told him, every single detail of the lyrics was intended for him. *Sniff*
Glance at it and you'll see:
Kundiman
Silent Sanctuary
Para kang asukal
Sintamis mong magmahal
Para kang pintura
Buhay ko ikaw ang nagpinta
Para kang unan
Pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan
Para kang kumot na yumayakap
Sa tuwing ako’y nalulungkot
Kaya’t wag magtataka
Kung bakit ayaw kitang maawala
Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo
Wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako
Laging umaalalay
Di ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw
Di baleng maghapon umulan
Basta’t ikaw ang sasandalan
Liwanag ng lumulubog na araw
Kay sarap pagmasdan
Lalo na pag nasisinagan ang iyong mukha
Hinding-hindi magsaawa
Ayoko ng magsawa
Bahala na, ayoko muna magsalita
Hayaan na muna natin ang hatol ng tadhana
Then we stated to day dream about our future together (again). I am thinking, are these just fantasies? Would it be hard for us to see things in proper places as time goes by? Can we make this happen? I am very very excited about our future plans. I hope in time, these things will happen.
Thy will be done. :)
Glance at it and you'll see:
Kundiman
Silent Sanctuary
Para kang asukal
Sintamis mong magmahal
Para kang pintura
Buhay ko ikaw ang nagpinta
Para kang unan
Pinapainit mo ang aking tiyan
Para kang kumot na yumayakap
Sa tuwing ako’y nalulungkot
Kaya’t wag magtataka
Kung bakit ayaw kitang maawala
Kung hindi man tayo hanggang dulo
Wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako
Laging umaalalay
Di ako lalayo
Dahil ang tanging panalangin ko ay ikaw
Di baleng maghapon umulan
Basta’t ikaw ang sasandalan
Liwanag ng lumulubog na araw
Kay sarap pagmasdan
Lalo na pag nasisinagan ang iyong mukha
Hinding-hindi magsaawa
Ayoko ng magsawa
Bahala na, ayoko muna magsalita
Hayaan na muna natin ang hatol ng tadhana
Then we stated to day dream about our future together (again). I am thinking, are these just fantasies? Would it be hard for us to see things in proper places as time goes by? Can we make this happen? I am very very excited about our future plans. I hope in time, these things will happen.
Thy will be done. :)
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