Super Advance

While me and Mich are chatting, we end up talking about planning to go to a place where there's a man dancing in a dirty manner. LOL. (Para maiba lang) Once she got here in Manila, that's one of the first things we must do LOL. We decided to have a party instead of going to a place like that. It's kinda horrifying if you'll think about it. hahah. I can't really imagine myself getting inside that place. So anyway, yea, we decided to make it for my bridal shower! LOL She'll be incharge for the BIG CAKE/GIFT. Inside, there's a man dancing like a whore! Double the LOL. haha

My idea is to invite all men who were linked with me for the past years except my boyf. So, that'll be...

Yep (nasa Germany na to e)
Diego (HS crush)
Maman (Tropa ng jowa ko to, so wag na)
Jd (APC)
Sioc (Friend thru chase)
Don (oh, pass. bf ng friend ko)
Tatu (childhood friend)
Cake (may kras saken LOL)
Martin (ex na masugid hindi joke lang feeling lang ako)
Pj (ex)
Eric (may something kame before)

Fudge! Ang dami na pala. Mich said, papilahin sila, icocompare, then sino mas lamang. Maliit out! Next! Triple the LOL here! hahahha! I can't imagine how will my boyf react on this! LOL

It was so sweet of her ♥

Last night my father got home from Bicol together with my grandma. I guess she's 80++ years old so I pity her for travelling Bicol to Manila. She'll be attending the overnight prayer meeting for El Shaddai this Saturday, so she went here in Manila. Grandma's really sweet, while I went outside my room to bless and kiss her, she told me, the only thing she pray for me is for Onie to be free as soon as possible. I hugged her and said... Yes lola, I'm pretty sure we're answered prayer. :) I am so happy she was able to remember my boyf's name, for she never see him outside. I only got to tell stories before but it was ages already. When the tragedy came across to me and my man's life, I never went to any of family reunions or any small family gatherings. I don't wanna share stories then, for I know gossips and hearsays will be on air and I might not like what will I hear if I'll join them. So I opted to stay home and alone during family gatherings. Years have passed and I was immune with all the talks about me and my man. I don't wanna get upset and affected by all those. I learned how to face the reality so I told my dearest lola about my prob. She told me, the moment I was detained at Fort Boni my mother called her up and asked for prayers. She knew everything all along. She was just silent praying for us.

Up to this date, I know she's still on it, together with other prayers for my siblings and other cousins. Bless you lola for being so wonderful and caring grandma to all of us. :) I love you soo... :)

In time, my man will see you and thank you personally for the prayers you had for me and him. I know he's not been a good and loyal bf to me, but I assure you lola, he changed a lot and I definitely wanted to be his other half. :) We'll be glad if you can make it on our wedding day, and this time, you won't ride any other bus, but will pay for your air fare instead. I love you so, and may God grant you longer life and good health. :)

Loves,
Icing (that's how she calls me)

Those were the days...

This morning, I had a conversation with Gen. We look back in the past as we see how it went as far as our relationships is concern. Funny to reminisce everything, on how my man and I became a couple, when's our first kiss, how did it happen and on how I went gaga over him. I still can't believe we are now on our 9th year of togetherness. I didn't expect everything will turned out like this. As I said before, this wasn't planned. I'm not actually inlove with him the first time I knew him. In fact, I said yes just for the sake of having a bf. (He knew about this btw, so its okay sharing stories bout this ;) )

How did I say yes?
haha! Funny e. I wrote it in a card. I said.. "From now on, you remember this day, April 10, 2000. Eto na yun!" Parang something to that effect. Yuck nakakatawa. Kadire. Sorry, I don't know anything about love before. Kaya ganyan.

When/Where was our first kiss?
It was 2000. I'm 16 yrs old then. LOL We were sneaking from my parents. He dropped me nearby our house, he was askin for a kiss. He won't leave unless I'll give him a kiss, he said. LOL I oblidged and there, under the tree, he dub his lips from mine and yea, it lasted for 4 seconds I guess. I couldn't sleep after that! LOL

Where's our first date?
Racks. Alabang Town Center. I can't remember what I wore. Sayang! LOL

What's our terms of endearment?
We got tons. hahaha
Hun/Mahal
Baby
Wifey/Hubby
Sir
Bee
Babe

Who's the boss in our relationship?
Definitely HIM!

How many times he gave me flowers?
Yuck onte lang e. Hindi maflower si onie.
4x
1 dozen white roses
1 long stem blue rose
1 dozen red roses
1 dozen red roses

What was our theme song?
Yea, may ganto talaga. hahaha
Power of two (that's the only senti song na memorize nya hahaha)

How many times we broke up?
Thrice.

Reasons?
1. Burn
2. Fed up with petty quarells
3. Flirting with someone over text ( e ako un. nagpanggap lang akong kung sino! Nahuli ko sya nyeta!)

Who's calling it quits?
Me

Who's trying to do the reconsilation?
Me LOL

I wanna continue this long story. But I got no sleep yet, so I can't find any words to say. Boo! I'm too tired to think. Will update next time :)

For now, all I can say is, I miss babe because of the conversation Gen and I had. :)

Despite what happened...

I know, I'm still blessed. Thank God! :)

Let me be happy for real :)

Ilang tulog nalang, birthday ko nanaman. ang araw lulubog, bukas mabubusog... sa chicken joy manok! at yum burger bilog! I LOVE YOU SABADO!! :D

I hate you, you know..

I don't know why you keep on haunting my mind..
Please go away..
I guess, this is the best cue where you need to take the exit door.
I'm not even liking the way you talk
the way you bring yourself
you don't even have guts to talk to me in person

I dont know what's with you
Why do i feel happy when you're around.
This is so confusing.

I don't like you.
I really don't like you.

I'm trying to convince myself you're not for me...
We should part ways now...
Because in the end,
one of us will get tired of waiting
one of us will get hurt

and im hoping, am not gonna be that one.
still.. i miss you..

:(

One Cafe Mocha for Aizeee

G: tingin ko
G: hmm
G: sige
G: lagay naten sa ganito
G: napapansin ko
G: sa starbs
G: iisa lang ang inoorder mo
G: kahit san ka mag punta
G: na kapihan
G: isa lang
G: hot mocha
a: yan ang gusto ko
a: un lang talga. pero may point ka
a: nagegets ko
a: siguro ganon akong klase ng tao
a: stick to one
G: yeah.. kahit may bago hindi mo itry
a: ung tipong pare... itry ko man iba.. balik at balik ako sa cafe mocha
a: ganon
G: hindi naman masama mag try ng flavor of the month
a: naisip ko din yan. sa coffee bean kase iba ang kape ko, machiatto hahah. dahil ibang tao ang kasama ko
a: lol
a: ang coffee bean for me, is mart*n's e
G: parang yung banana javacula.. hindi mo natry e masarap kaya yun
a: hahaha
a: so ibang kape
a: lol
G: haha
G: e yun
G: hindi ka nga nagsasawa
G: hindi ko alam kung maganda yan or panget
a: mismo
a: nde ko rin alam
a: kung tama o mali
G: o sige ganon na nga
a: maya maya ramdam ko na
a: magblog nanaman ako
a: about sa kape na yan
G: e naisip ko lang..
a: mapansin ko kase
a haha
a: balik ako ng balik sa cafe mocha
G: naisip mo ba... na what if... what if lang... iwan ka ni onie
a: parang tunay na buhay lang
G: oo kaya
G: haha
a: balik ng balik kay onie
G: ikaw e
G: yun nga.. what if pare
a: alam mo kung bakit gaze
G: ganyan ka ng ganyan
G: hindi mo sure kung nanjan sya hanggang huli
a: sa cafe mocha, subok ko na, kabisado ko na ang timpla, gusto ng panlasa ko kaya loyal ako sa kanya, hindi nya ako dinidisappoint na hindi ko sya magugustuhan dahil alam ko sa sarili ko, napamahal nako sa knya
G: kuha mo yung point ko?
a: same thing sa tunay na buhay
a: well
a: gets ko ung point mo
a: ako kase ung tao na.. i still don't regret things which i know i'll be geniunely happy kapag siya ang pinili ko
a: impyerno man o langit pagsasamahan namin
G: yeah..
a: may ganong factor
a: i can't risk the convenience na nararamdaman ko sa relationship
a: nato
a: 9 yrs isn't comparable with anything else. alam kong hindi nasusukat sa tagal o ano
a: pero 9 yrs. yun na yun
a: ano pa ba ang hindi namin naranasan
a: na sinubok na ng panahon at pagsubok
a: still
a: we're here
a: surviving
a: na
a: iniisip ko
a: sa iba
a: ??
a: ganto din ba?
a: i tried diba
G: yeah.. but are you happy?
a: ?
a: absolutely am. saturdays are my happy days
a: ano ba ang rant ko gaze
a: days, whenever im not with him
a: hindi naman ako mayaman para araw arawin ang check in
a: makasama ko lang sya
a: ang magcheck in every sat, 2 yrs and 7 mos. sobrang risky for me, at sa bulsa ko
G: yeah..
a: pero i do this.. kase dun ko nakikitang masaya ako
a: dun ko nararamdaman
a: ung happiness
a: na sana hindi na matapos
a: tao lang siguro. na napapagod..
a: nagrarant
a: pero
a: at the end of the day
a: ganun paren
a: uuwi at uuwi
a: sa knya
G: yeah..
G: nagtatry ka nga... pero babalik pa rin tayo sa hot mocha thing
G: babalik ka pa rin sa default..
a: yea
a: still
a: ganon na nga
a: bakit?
a: after tasting machiatto, o coffee jelly
a: nagiisip ako
a: may pagcocompare na nagaganap bago matulog
a: na hindi ko maalis
a: hindi ko maiwasan
a: ayoko icompare kase hindi healthy un
a: pero
G: pero?
a: ganon e. di ko maiwasan, iisipin ko. kanina, habang hawak ko ang machiatto, o java chip. hindi ako nasolb tulad ng pagkasolb ko sa cafe mocha
a: hindi ako nakuntento
a: tulad ng pagkakuntento ko sa cafe mocha
a: isipin mo nalang gaze
a: ano ba tong cafe mocha diba
a: simple
a: parang si onie lang
a: walang halong flavor na kakaiba
a: pero
a: patok na patok sa panlasa ko
G: hahahahahahahha
G: kaya nga
G: hindi ko din magets
G: :))
G: pinaka mura pa
G: sa starbs
G: mura lang yun no?
a: 120
a: yan na tlaga ang kape ko e.
a: at isa pa
a: ayoko ng ibang coffee shop
a: starbs lang
G: onga
G: korek
a: ayoko ng iba
a: siguro ganon akong tao chong..
a: i dont like fancy stuffs
a: sa simple
a: dun ako nasosolb
a: simple pero alam kong patok
a: isipin mo chong, pati sa frappe, mocha frappe
a: pinalamig ko lang
a: ganyan ako
G: :))
a: minsan gusto ko ng java chip e
a: pero
G: onga
a: ayoko parin
a: hahahha
G: sabagay
G: who am i to ask
G: wala na akong alam sa love love na yan
G: sabi nga nung isang AE mababa low EQ daw ako
G: haha

May point bako? O wala?
Di lang ako sa kape may default sa maraming bagay tulad ng:

Sa siopao sa treats
Sa trabaho (ang tagal tagal ko na dito)
Sa brand ng yosi
Sa Jowa ko
Sa pork loriat ng chowking

Madami pa na hindi ko na maisa isa dito. Pero un na nga.. Ganun akong klaseng tao, loyal ako sa mga tao o bagay na napapamahal na saken. Marunong naman akong magtry ng iba tulad sa pagdating sa pagibig, umoon the side man ako.. madami man sila. at the end of the day, sya paren at sya paren.

She's kind of part of who am I

Monday is not my favorite day in a week. Monday makes me sick, it stresses me much and I tend to be unhappy during Mondays. Today is Monday and today is the only day I had a time to read about former President Cory Aquino's death since she died. Thanks to abs-cbn's website I was able to educate myself. I was able to learn a lot of things about Mrs. Cory Aquino for being president, a mom and a simple housewife.

I was born on 1983, I am not good in history but my mother told me about a short story. It was year 1983 when EDSA was filled with thousands ang thousands of people, while everyone is doing the "L" sign which means "Laban". It was then, people were crying for the phrase "Di ka nag-iisa!" A few from my closests friends knew about this. My name "Aiza" is actually brought up with that phrase. My parents thought of a name similar or should I say rhymed with that phrase, so it became "Aiza". I know it was kinda of funny and weird, but yeah, I can say.. she's kind of part of who I am. :) So to Mrs. Cory Aquino, thanks for everthing you've done for the country, for all of us. I learned a lot just now how good person you are. Reading some articles from abscbn news' made me cry. I was touched.

May you rest in peace.

... and so I love you too

irene (7/27/2009 9:44:27 AM): pare....matagal ko ng alam na baliw ka

Ikaw nga lang ata ang nakakaalam nyan. Ikaw lang din siguro ang pwede kong kausapin ng may halong katarantaduhan at pagkaseryoso, both at the same time. (Dalawa pala kayo, hindi lang ikaw.) Magkasing utak tayo na kaya mong ibaba ang lebel mo sa lebel ko. Alam mo naman ako, ung pagkanon-sense ko minsan kumokota sa isang araw. LOL Hindi pala minsan, as in palagi pala. Naiisip ko minsan, umuwi ka nalang.. Kung kaya ko lang ibigay lahat ng pangangailangan mo, sige aampunin nalang kita. Kung kaya ko lang ibigay ang kinikita mo jan, sige dito ka nalang. Pero hindi e. hahaha. Ga-sino naman ang kakapiranggot na kinikita ko sa kikitain mo jan, baka tapikin moko sa likod at sabihin, "Madam, wag kang ambisyosa.. Di moko kalinya!" LOL alam ko naman un. pinapangrap ko lang na makasama ka ulit. Dating gawi. Dating kalokohan. Dating trip. Kase kahit kelan, di ako nakarinig ng husga galing sayo. Dahil kahit kelan, di moko tinabla. Dahil alam ko, sa sarili ko, kahit ang layo mo... Mahal na mahal moko na para bang kadugo mo. Higit pa sa kapatid na buo. Di ko alam ang tawag dun. Pero ganon ko karamdam ung pagmamahal mo. Nakakatuwang nakilala kita. Nagpapasalamat ako nakatapo ako ng isang tulad mo. Isa kang treasure kumbaga! Alam kong malalim na ang samahan nato. :)

Kaya sa kasal ko, wag ka mawawala. Di ko naman pinapangako na sasagutin ko pamasahe mo, dahil ipapaalala ko sayo ung gastos na tatamasin ko sa araw ng kasal ko.. LOL Sakto na chong na dumating ka, dumating ka lang.. sakto nako dun. Sana masaya ka para saken, alam ko naman na OO ang sagot mo. Pero yun na nga. Salamat dahil inintindi mo lahat ng hang ups mo. Naging totoo ka sa feelings mo. Kung galit ka, sinasabi mo, kung buraot ka sa sitwasyon ko, may dialog ka.. Kung apektado ka sa tinatamasa ko, sumesegway ka. Kaya kahit ang layo mo... ramdam parin kita, dahil sa lahat ng message mo... gets ko kung bakit ganon nalang ang reaksyon mo sa lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko. dahil alam ko, mahal na mahal mo rin ako, tulad ng pagmamahal ko sayo.

APIR chong! I'll see you when I see you! ;)

edi naiyak ako sa post kong to. Seryoso, taena mo.. naiyak ako :( namiss kita boi...

Random Trashed Thoughts

I've been reluctant to do this, but I think I need to. It's just that, the feeling is starting to overflow. I know sometimes, I can be a bad person you can never imagine. I know sometimes you could be clueless on what's in my mind. I know sometimes, you feel you don't know me at all. Those things... Yes, such things... I also feel the same way for you.

I hope and pray this could just be because of PMS. I'll certainly be happy to know, it's all about PMS. Hate having a period! Hate having this kind of feeling. Babe, come here, help me to calm down a lil bit.

This is one of those times, I'm thanking blogspot. Thanks for being there for me, for being a friend, for being my shock absorber! You're the bestest!