... and so I love you too

irene (7/27/2009 9:44:27 AM): pare....matagal ko ng alam na baliw ka

Ikaw nga lang ata ang nakakaalam nyan. Ikaw lang din siguro ang pwede kong kausapin ng may halong katarantaduhan at pagkaseryoso, both at the same time. (Dalawa pala kayo, hindi lang ikaw.) Magkasing utak tayo na kaya mong ibaba ang lebel mo sa lebel ko. Alam mo naman ako, ung pagkanon-sense ko minsan kumokota sa isang araw. LOL Hindi pala minsan, as in palagi pala. Naiisip ko minsan, umuwi ka nalang.. Kung kaya ko lang ibigay lahat ng pangangailangan mo, sige aampunin nalang kita. Kung kaya ko lang ibigay ang kinikita mo jan, sige dito ka nalang. Pero hindi e. hahaha. Ga-sino naman ang kakapiranggot na kinikita ko sa kikitain mo jan, baka tapikin moko sa likod at sabihin, "Madam, wag kang ambisyosa.. Di moko kalinya!" LOL alam ko naman un. pinapangrap ko lang na makasama ka ulit. Dating gawi. Dating kalokohan. Dating trip. Kase kahit kelan, di ako nakarinig ng husga galing sayo. Dahil kahit kelan, di moko tinabla. Dahil alam ko, sa sarili ko, kahit ang layo mo... Mahal na mahal moko na para bang kadugo mo. Higit pa sa kapatid na buo. Di ko alam ang tawag dun. Pero ganon ko karamdam ung pagmamahal mo. Nakakatuwang nakilala kita. Nagpapasalamat ako nakatapo ako ng isang tulad mo. Isa kang treasure kumbaga! Alam kong malalim na ang samahan nato. :)

Kaya sa kasal ko, wag ka mawawala. Di ko naman pinapangako na sasagutin ko pamasahe mo, dahil ipapaalala ko sayo ung gastos na tatamasin ko sa araw ng kasal ko.. LOL Sakto na chong na dumating ka, dumating ka lang.. sakto nako dun. Sana masaya ka para saken, alam ko naman na OO ang sagot mo. Pero yun na nga. Salamat dahil inintindi mo lahat ng hang ups mo. Naging totoo ka sa feelings mo. Kung galit ka, sinasabi mo, kung buraot ka sa sitwasyon ko, may dialog ka.. Kung apektado ka sa tinatamasa ko, sumesegway ka. Kaya kahit ang layo mo... ramdam parin kita, dahil sa lahat ng message mo... gets ko kung bakit ganon nalang ang reaksyon mo sa lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ko. dahil alam ko, mahal na mahal mo rin ako, tulad ng pagmamahal ko sayo.

APIR chong! I'll see you when I see you! ;)

edi naiyak ako sa post kong to. Seryoso, taena mo.. naiyak ako :( namiss kita boi...

Random Trashed Thoughts

I've been reluctant to do this, but I think I need to. It's just that, the feeling is starting to overflow. I know sometimes, I can be a bad person you can never imagine. I know sometimes you could be clueless on what's in my mind. I know sometimes, you feel you don't know me at all. Those things... Yes, such things... I also feel the same way for you.

I hope and pray this could just be because of PMS. I'll certainly be happy to know, it's all about PMS. Hate having a period! Hate having this kind of feeling. Babe, come here, help me to calm down a lil bit.

This is one of those times, I'm thanking blogspot. Thanks for being there for me, for being a friend, for being my shock absorber! You're the bestest!

non-sense

Had a long sleep in fairness, but I am still feeling sleepless. These past few days, I am trying to remember my dreams everytime I sleep, and I got nothing in my mind. I don't understand why I'm not dreaming anymore. Was it I'm too exhausted that I couldn't remember what I dreamt about? Hah! I really don't know. If you were to ask me, yea! I fancy dreams. Any kind of dream. When I woke up, I have this moment that I shall remember what I have dreamt from my entire sleep and yea, I'm enjoying every moment of it. Do you think I'm that weird? LOL

Anyways, yea! I find it more weird now that I no longer dream everytime I sleep. I miss having kilig stuffs while dreaming, or even seeing my boyf in my dreams. I mean atleast I could see him once in a while without me visiting him.

I use to have this dream of having my man around, living in one roof and we are actually a family indeed but without a child.

Srsly, I dont rush about getting married and having tons of kids. Infact, after marrying my man I dream of living with him in a year without kids. (NOW, THIS IS NOT A DREAM FROM SLEEP. lol) Just the 2 of us, plus a maid, an old maid. LOL haha. Sorry bout that. Now I can say, I can't live without a helper or someone who can help me in everything. I mean stuffs around the house, the chores. I used to clean our entire house, I used to cook and I love to be at home. Now it's different, my job made my life different! You can't see me not holding keyboard now! Today, it's always been work, work and work! nothing but work. except for Saturday afternoon. It's going to be O n i e 's day. HAH! Speaking of which, damn! prolly, this is what made me decided to blog today. I am missing the half of my life AGAIN. Yesterday, I wanna visit him but I am in short shorts, so it's impossible for me to go there wearing that thang! TSK. Oh well, it's Thursday today, I mean Friday. So tomorrow, I could finally see him. I actually wanna take a leave later tonight. I wanna relax, feel my bed and have a goooood night sleep. But I don't have leaves anymore! LOL

Haaay, can you feel that month of July is kinda weird? I'm trying to think if its actually fast or it is too slow to reach the month end. God! I don't know what's bugging me. I'm getting goosebumbs and I'm shivering whenever I see the calendar from my celly. There's something in the month end that I don't know, makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time. I'm actually fearful and excited about it. What it's gonna be? I effin don't know! I swear! I hope it's going to be a good vibe! I HOPE I HOPE! *fingers crossed*

I am still on the project am talking about. Still the figures are not steady yet. I haven't done all the phone calls, and I am freakin' nervous about the date. Speaking of date, (oh this is really out of the topic okay?) I MISS DATING. Can someone ask me out on Monday? Someone, i dont know, I really don't know if the problem is one me, or the people around me. ARG! I'm soooo weird! Now back to the project... Yea, I know this is going to be fun! I know, this will be the start of a new life, and I can say I am ready to face the next chapter of my life... So there, let me finish this post by having a hanging question...

Do you guys want to earn money on just searching the net?

LOL (super off the topic and last Q ko, hayaan nyo na! weird ako today) if yes, Wait for my next entry... I'll blog about it... I wanna try it first. Ayoko naman mapahiya hehe.

I don't wanna stop this post actually, I wanna talk and talk but fudge, i know am getting non-sense again so you better cut me here, or I would share something more weird than above... LOL LOL LOL

solar eclipse

Meanwhile, while working the IT dept were screaming "AYAN NA AYAN NA!" everyone chase to the window and saw a wonderful thing up above. One of them even went outside to take a photoshoot. and here it is:

something to blog about..

I don't have a topic in mind today. I just feel like blogging, because I miss doing it. Lately, I don't have the means of ranting or whatever. I just feel tired of waiting again. You know what I mean. I don't wanna get tired but my mind tells me how tired I am now. I know, this entry doesn't have any sense at all. But lemme just do this because I am kinda pissed to some people. I wanna let this out by writing anything.. now it's getting boring again.. why i can't disclose my feelings here now..

BOO!

Kids and Movie House = LAFTRIP

Sunday is a family day!

I got up early for I was feeling hungry. So I had breakfast with my father. While we were having a cup of coffee, I suggested to take lunch outside instead. Since Dickie's family is around, we're complete at that time. We attended mass at 10:30am, Kelly was a bit naughty then. He keeps on running with other kids in the church and in the latter part, while everyone's getting a communion, he screamed because he wants to eat as well! hahaha! What a shame! Kelly's my favorite nephnew and I just can't resist this kid. I just love love him!

After mass, Kelly said... "San Punta?" I'm like... "San mo gusto?" He screamed... "Petval Mol!" FESTIVAL MALL in his own term. hehehe. So we went there. We had lunch at Kenny Rogers and decided to watch Ice Age 3. My father was a bit hesitant to come with us at the movie house. He wont like it because it's cartoons. HAh! So my mom decided to watch Transformers with him plus Dickie's hubby.

We went inside and Kelly was like... "Ninang Damba, dilim dito. Lis na tayo." hahahahhaha! CUUUUTEE! So the 3 kids were enjoying the commercial, suddenly when the movie was about to start, I saw them sleeping and we found the peace in their faces. CUUTEE. haha! When the big dinosaurs and elephants were in the big screen, I managed to wake up Kelly. He was mezmerized with all the big animals and telling me which animal it is. At the middle of the story, his mom went at the back to stop the youngest kid from crying. Kelly went at the back too! And he made a commotion! LOL He keeps on yelling my name... "NINANG DAMBA LIS NA TAYO MAY MUMU! NINANG DAMBAAAAAA! LOL

Kelly's really funny. Before that, he wants me to buy him a transformer robot. So I said, you got you own money right? OK, you buy yourself a robot. I accompany him to the saleslady and Kelly handed 1 peso coin to the lady and said... "BUMBLE BEE PO!" LOL I super love this kid!

My long weekend was fun and I wish there's always a long weekend! :)

Looking forward to a nice weekend again! Thurday na! YES!

Something disaster yet sweet!

Ok this is a late post I know. I've been coming in the office late as always and I do got a lot of extra curricular activities during days at home. So, I failed to update my lil home here in the web.

My lil surprise for my boyf was successful then. Totee cooked abodo the night before I visit him, which by the way, I need to pay her 200 bucks. LOL. The next day, I got up really early like 7am and prepared breakfast for babe. Longganisa and reg egg with tomatoes, cooked rice, adobo for lunch and ripe mangoes for desert! YUM!

On my way to his humble home (LOL), an insect, caterpillar like, higad for tagalog, was sitting on my fabulous bag. I don't know what to do, so I shrieked the hell out of it and threw it away using 20 bucks. LOL. I was in panic mode and my heart beat was that fast! I swear, I could have jump out of the tryk because of that stupid little creature!

I am feeling a lil bit weird while I was riding the jeep then. It was itchy all over my body and godamn the traffic was horrible! What a fuckin day right? When I arrived to his place, I saw him smiling because of the big bag I brought. I handed him the stuffs and cried because of the itch I am suffering, I showed him my skin and the pantal all over my body. I got puppy eyes then while he was grinning secretly. Hahahaha! I look so funny that time I know, but what can I do? That crappy thing landed on my bag was the culprit of the whole scenario. It ruined my day I effin swear! So babe tried to cure me with vinegar and salt. After having our breakfast, he gave me antihistamine. It was like a sleeping pill for after 5 seconds I was knocked out and fell asleep. Came afternoon, babe woke me up for late lunch. I was still really sleepy but I managed to get up. Sayang naman ang araw na yun kung itutulog ko lang.

The chicken and pork adobo was heaven indeed. Babe loved it so much! KUDOS KUTOS FOR TUTEEE! :P So we ended the day by catching up--a lot of stories and cuddling. So that's my Saturday. It was disaster somehow, but turned out sweet! :)

Peaceful weekend?

It's going to be a long weekend for me. Independence Day for the States, and thank good Lord for this. I hope this could be a very very relaxing weekend. :) Good thing, I got no schedule for some party at nights. Thank God! Because finally I'll have a nice and peaceful weekend. June was been a hectic schedule for booze and night outs. I got a lot of June babies friends. Sleepless nights, party and fun fun life. It was okay indeed, at least I know when to chill!

After this shift I'm going to BDO Magallanes branch to encash my check. YAY! My second pay from my sideline, finally! Then, will proceed to BDO Muntinlupa to open an account. Yea, this will be my second account for BDO. hahahaha. My first was closed. Have been in a roller coaster budgetting shit and I haven't deposited any amount since then, so it automatically closed. YUCK! hahaha Now, I need to have a new account.

My sister's waiting for me to drop some cash for Mary. She's borrowing some money and I'm going to lend her. Besides, I wanted to see my nephnews. They failed to visit us last weekend. The youngest got some measles, he should be feeling fine now. Oh I miss the kids, really!

After lunch, I should be going home. Actually I wanted to stay til the next day but I have work at 1pm. BOO! (Oh crap I guess I wont be able to make it at 1. Hello! I'll be signing out here by 12, how in the world I can manage to make it at 1? DUHH? haha) Anyway, I'm used to it. Prolly I could finish the work earlier so I could have the means of FB-ing. LOL I am excited about my resto there. FINE! my place wasn't that glamorous compared to others, but I'm seriously waiting for some cash to buy some furnitures and shits! hahahaha! I'm kinda enjoying it. LOL I know I suck! Yesterday, I got heaps of comments from FB that I am available elsewhere. haha! I keep on commenting on each people's profile. What's the biggie deal? LOL, Ya know, that is the only way I could connect myself to the people I love. Hey! that's how I call socializing eh? hahaha. No time to chill with friends? Why not use FB for that? LOL

Meanwhile, I'm trying to create a presentation, and it's been weeks now and still I am in the introduction part. WTH! hahahaha. Well, I'm having a hard time with VISTA. Ya know, I want to change my OS to XP instead, VISTA SUCKS TO DEATH! I effin' swear! LIke what happened to me is ALL SOFTWARE equals NOT COMPATIBLE WITH VISTA SHIT!!! hahahaha! Okay, I'm kind of over reacting. But srsly, if it wasn't that hassle to change OS, I wouldn't mind downgrading it to XP instead. VISTA = 3 programs only running in your pc. WHAT A WASTE! The hell if it's an original OS? I could have paid 100 bucks for pirated XP installer instead!

So, prolly I could manage to finish the presentation hopefully this weekend. WOW parang hindi paren. LOL

I also wanna finish all remaining episodes of Desperate Housewives, The Hills and Gossip Girls Season 2. hahahahah! I suck! Still, haven't finish them. I'm so not "IN" I KNOW! LOL. Srsly, I could just sit in my bed all night, all day just to finish those. I mean, that's relaxation for me.

Of course I wouldn't miss visiting my favorite person in the world, no other than my boyf. :) I'll prolly treat him with hmmm? Pizza? Starbs? I don't know yet. He's been ranting about it. He badly wants Manhattan Pizza of Yellow Cab and Java Chip Frappuccino of Starbucks. (Ikaw na ang maluhong taga tunasan) And I love you for that :)

Or prolly I would want to have breakfast with my HS friends on Sunday. Then, attend mass.

I think that's it. Have a wonderful weekend everyone! :)

Someone's getting married...

So, I need a pair of shoes...

I'm going nuts with these shoes... I love them all!

How do you achieve or maintain balance in your life?

I've read this from Daphne's Diary, so I'm blogging about it here. I admit I have a not so balance life and I'm trying my best to have a normal one. Srsly, time is really important to me. Infact, I still need more than 24 hours just to have time for everybody. I mean, I got tons of friends, from highschool, from village, from college, and another set from other batch of scs. Still, I have my family and cousins that I am trying to deal with. And finally, I got my man who needs more than of my time and existence. I admit that work really occupies a lot of my time, but in fairness to me, whenever I know my presence is important for a certain event, I make it a point I am available. Sure I do say "pass" every now and then, I hope my friends would understand where I am coming from. :)

Care to guess what lacks me most? hehe

Here are some memories I got that make me smile:

Just last Sat/Sun, Carla had her Birthday at Parque España, Alabang. Wasn't able to make it that night. I'm srsly having a dry cough and colds. My body's aching but yea, I wanna go there and celebrate. The next day, Oge fetched me and surprised Carla! She wasn't happy am around though, LOL she's a bit tampo. So, since I am guilty, we headed to Stabs ATC and had some coffee. My treat. :) Happy Bday darling! WOW! Look at us, we are definitely all grown ups now! These four ladies I am faking with (haha) for 21 years now I guess, I certainly want to continue my life with them. The real people from day 1 to now. I love them all. That's Orange, Carla, Aiza, Marla, and Khai (shempre madami pa kameng friends, kaso kame ung solid na isang text lang.. dumadating kahit tamang tambay at yosi lang sa bulwagan o sa bahay ni khai/marla/oge)
Just a recap on my weekend, I did sleep a lot last Saturday after I went to my man. Next day, yea, I had a good laugh with my fake friends (LOL) till 530pm. Then, Carla and I attended mass. After, we went to salon for a massage. She went online and fix her fb account in the salon having my laptop. We called Mcdo for a delivery. FYI, Globe Tatoo is good, I mean, it's GREAT! The connection was amazing, I didn't expect it that way, prolly because of the location or something. I don't know. So I went home at 930pm with these colds and cough and had a good night sleep.

That's our last out of town, Oge's bday. I'm sure, I did blog about this before :)

This is my last out of town with college friends, Cagbalete Quezon. I miss them so much, specially Gaze and Gen, whom I always call whenever I need a friend. We're all busy ok? Do not just put the blame on me girls! LOL

Look at this, ang dami namin no? Even the place was not so cool, we end up happy because of kachimoyan. Wala lang, the kwentuhan and all the bonding made the trip better. :) Miss you all. Our next getaway would be on October? Tulio's hometown, Bacolod. YAY!

Just recent, I had a time to bond with them at Gen's birthday. We celebrate it at Central Bar, Mandaluyong and stopped at Center Stage for some sing along trip. I do not have any sleep yet at that time, still I opted to stay with them and chill. I miss you all really. :)

Here's my Deniña clan, we're not complete in that pic ofcourse, but that was our last getaway. We went to Pansol, Laguna. They are trying to call me now since they haven't seen me since then. Jeck, my cousin is going home from Dubai on July. I don't know if time will permit me to have fun with them. I really do hope.
My immediate family, which I don't have a latest pic, LOL I got to see all of them during Sundays. One of my happiest times when Kelly is around. "Lang penta penta Tutiiii!" Hahaha! Should I need to elaborate? hehe

Do I need to explain where I put all my idle time? HEHE Everybody knows how I love this man. Every Saturday, I got to have this real happiness when we bond. All my fears are gone and stress were subsided. Again, he's my paracetamol and I do not want to live my life without him. Not again. :) Last Sat, I brought some food from Mcdo and some sweets from Bancheto. Time is really short. We're still having a good talk about everything when I need to go home, as per the BJMPs :( f*ck them!

So yea, those are the people whom I share my life with. As much as I want to, wanna balance my time and distribute it to all of them, but of course it's impossible because we need to work. Well yea, everyone is busy right now. A lot of my friends are busy with their jobs as well.

So my current set up is like this:

and I wanna do this, but I can't because I don't have leaves LOL:


How about you? How do you achieve or maintain balance in your life?