So I Went There ...

Because I know he could remove my stress and shits. I just love my boyf for having that kind of power. HAHA. Even I'm too dizzy since I am 31 hours awake at that time. Imagine how crazy I am. LOL. But yea, he managed to wipe out my lonesome. Thanks babe. You got me there..

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OO ganyan! walang panahon magpahinga! mistula nakong ganto! at hindi na ako natutuwa.

...

I'm really not feeling well.
I just wanna rest and rest.
Or prolly I need to see you babe.

:(

I need an icecream or a cake.
I need something to cheer me up.
Or still I need to talk to you babe.

:(

I'm too exhausted.
I'm tired.
I'm lost.
I'm unhappy.
I need you here in my arms babe.
Embrace me to make me warm.
Kiss me.
Hug me.
Do not leave me.
Babe, I am missing you so much.
Please come home.
God, send him home.

:(

Dahil dito

... lumambot ang puso ko. Naisip ko bigla, kamusta ka na kaya? matagal tagal rin akong galit sayo. matagal ko narin tinatanggal ka sa isip ko. Ayoko kaseng palagi nalang ganto. Ayoko kaseng paulit ulit na mangyari to, pareho naman na tayong sawa. Alam kong hindi mo gusto to. Pero ginusto ko ba to? Yun lang. Dineneny ko lang, na lagi ka namang nasa isip ko. Hindi man ako magreply, alam mo naman ang sagot ko. Mahal parin kita, lagi namang ganon, wala naman laging nagbabago. Gusto na kita makita.

Pasalamat ka, kahawig mo si Chito. Pasalamat ka, inlove ako sa boses nya. Napangiti ako ng narinig ko ang kantang to. Una ngumiti, sunod nimamnam ko ang lyrics, basahin mo para kilabutan ka. Ang galing lang ni Chito, alam nya kung ano gusto mong sabihin saken. Syang sya ung lyrics e. Tagos sa laman ko. Simple pero damang dama ko.

Pasalamat ka kay Chito. Pinapatawad na kita. Pero di ko paren nakakalimutan ginawa mo. At hindi paren ako natutuwang anjan ka at nandito ako. Ang tagal magweekend. Gusto na kitang makita. Sinira mo nanaman ang plano ko. Damuho ka! hehe.

Sorry Na - Parokya ni Edgar

Sorry na kung nagalit ka di naman sinasadya [sabi mo nga di sadya]
Kung may nasabi man ako init lang ng ulo [ikaw pa uminit ulo! ay onga pede naman]
Pipilitin kong magbago pangako sa iyo [weh?]
Sorry na nakikinig ka ba? Malamang sawa ka na [mismo!]
Sa ugali kong ito na ayaw magpatalo [in fairness nagpapatalo ka na ng onte]
At parang sirang tambutso na hindi humihinto [vrrooom! namiss ko yun]
Sorry na talaga kung ako’y medyo tanga [ :( ]
Hindi ako nag-iisip na-uuna ang galit [ikaw e!]
Sorry na talaga sa aking nagawa [pagiisipan ko..]
Tanggap ko na mali ako wag sanang magtampo [sabi mo nga e..]
Sorry na [haaay..]

Sorry na wag kang madadala [malapit na]
Alam kong medyo nahihirapan ka [hindi mejo. hirap tlga ako]
Na ibigin ang isang katulad kong parang timang [ :( ]
Na paulit-ulit kang hindi sadyang nasasaktan [o cge gusto ko ng umiyak]

Sorry na saan ka pupunta? [sa pasig, sa bahay ko]
Please naman wag kang mawawala [hindi naman ako nawala, kahit kelan]
Kapag ako ay iwan mo mamamatay ako [weh?]
Pagkat hawak mo sa iyong kamay ang puso ko [ayun lang..]

Sorry na talaga kung ako’y medyo tanga
Hindi ako nag-iisip na-uuna ang galit
Sorry na talaga sa aking nagawa
Tanggap ko na mali ako wag sanang magtampo
Sorry na

Mahal kita sobrang mahal kita [dito ako nabaog]
Wala na akong pwedeng sabihin pang iba [meron yan..]
Kundi sorry talaga di ko sinasadya [sabagay]
Talagang sobrang mahal kita [mahal na mahal din kita]
Wag kang mawawala [...]
Sorry na [wag mo ng ulitin kase.]

Chito, ikaw masyado ka! ikaw na ang propeta! :(

stressed

I was out of the office yesterday. Had a bed rest. I can't walk, I can't go infront of the computer. I'm dizzy. Everything's turning up side down :( I'm close to being helpless. Wasn't my day yesterday. :( Seems that everything were hard for me. I can barely move. I don't like the feeling.

Still, I'm mad at you. Nakikisabay ka pa, sa hirap na nararamdaman ko.

I want: I like

I'm not sure of this, but yes I want to have one. Really! As in I'm dying to have one. But I guess I'll be ready to do this after achieving my dream body, which has curves. Hah!


That cherry, (just similar to that) I'm dreaming of having one below my belly button, right. I know! HOT HOT HOT! Can't wait! But yea, I'm a lil scared!

Wolverine

We watched it earlier at Greenhills theater. It was fun. The movie was good. Logan was HOT. LOL I still don't want to go to work. I hope I didn't come back.

Here's Aisa and me waiting for our Sicilian Pizza, Meralco Ave.

WTF

You know how I feel after I read your letter? I was pissed and shocked. Well I'm still mad while writing this crap. I don't want to argue about this, but I think we need to work this out or rather let's call it quits. I don't want to make it really big issue, because for me, it's nothing really. But ofcourse I got your point, you're upset, you're disappointed, you're hurt, you feel betrayed. FINE--I knew it! But, I just want to explain my side though you're not interested anymore. You're clueless how it feels alone here in my world. Could you just think that I won't be in this situation if you are outside with me? Look, you've seen how I am being a martyr girlfriend when you were out. You see how I loved and cared for you so much way back then. Did you even hear anything about shitty stuffs about me flirting with other men? I've been so fuckin' faithful with you that I almost end up loving only you disregarding myself. Now, you're there. You're life's fucked up and I want to remind you, you are ruining my godamn life! The hell with you threat me! Lakas ng loob mong sabihin mga salitang to:

"Pag ako lumaya, mabalibalitaan ko lang na ginagago moko aiza, hinding hindi ka magiging masaya habang nabubuhay ako!"

Sana bago mo sinulat yang mga salitang yan, milyong beses mo muna pinagisipan. Dahil hindi mo alam kung gano pinasakit nyan ang ulo ko at puso ko. Hindi maganda ang mga katagang yan. Even now, I still don't believe na nasulat mo yan saken. You are unbelievable. You seem to think only about yourself. What the hell is wrong with you! Kung makasumpa ka, parang napakalinis mo. Ikaw na tong Diyos para husgahan ang pagkatao ko. Of all the people, you're the last person I would think na masasabi saken yang mga salitang yan. You made me think about our future (kung meron nga ba?), You made me think AGAIN, if I'm willing to risk for the f'n last time, You made me think if I'll accept you as my husband in the future. Kung ngayon palang na ikaw natong anjan at di ko iniiwan e may gana ka ng sumapain ako ng ewan ko sang banda mo kinuha lakas mo para masabi yan. Ibang klase ka! I told you this before. You are the only person who makes me sad and happy at the same time. Ang tindi tindi mo.

This relationship seem to be going nowhere. Ok. I admit, I'm madly deeply inlove with you. Now I'm thinking BAKEEEEEEET?

Still, I hope the best for your case. I hope makalaya ka na.

I'll Be Over You. I Should.

How will I start this? I want something different now. I dont want a dramatic exit afterwards. I want to have good goodbyes. Yet, I dont want to end this soon. But I really have to or he'll die, I'll die, or we'll die. :(

It's barely 10:30am when I woke up. Hurridly brushed my teeth, washed my face and took a fast wash and changed new clothes. Seen my lil big sis working her ass in front of the computer, reminding her not to sleep because the webcam is on. I don't want to get up. As a matter of fact, I didnt take a bath. The heat of the sun is killing me and I am still freakin' dog tired. But I need to go, and visit my man. He needs to see me. He needs company. I need to see him as well. So I oblidged.

I hand him the food I bought, he just woke up. So, he greeted me with a frown. I asked for a kiss, he gave me a pat on my cheek. WTF. He's not in the mood, while I'm ecstatic to share some stories. He said he was up early since he's waiting for me. I was like, I'm bloody tired, I hope you understand and he just gave a grin on me. WTF. I wished he appreciates how I care for him. I always do find time to visit him. I only wish he understands my situation outside. I wish sometimes he'll not think of himself for once, just for once. Living outside his world is completely different from mine.

His life:
He waits for his food to arrive. He take a bath 3 times. He writes letters when he's in the mood. He plays chess. He deals with sleepless nights and days. He scribbles. He watches TV. Chill. That's his life.

My life:
Wake up at 730pm. Go to work at 9pm or 10pm. Deal with my tasks. Deal with my bills. Deal with traffic and shits. Deal with my everyday food. Deal with sleepless days. Go home during weekends. Visit him on Saturdays or Mondays. That's my life. BORING and stressful.

So we were having a good laugh while he's sharing some thoughts, I accidentally fell asleep which made him frown again. I heard him saying, "minsan nalang tayo magkita tutulgan mo pako" I said sorry and explained I really need to rest or I'll collapse. He oblidged but ofcourse I see him frown and disappointed. So I need to deal with his tantrums and I got pissed a lil bit. We end up fighting. The next thing I knew was I was about to tell him everything about this some dude. What a crap!!!!! I made him cry. :( I feel so sorry. He asked, what am I supposed to do? Then I really answered brutally, "I wanna choose him over this shitty relationship!" Then he burst into tears. :( million tears. :(

He asked me to stop this craziness. Choose between them. WOW LANG.
I left him at 7pm. We're fine now. We're ok. We'll move on. Now I know, he'll going to remind me everyday about this cheating i just did. As for me. IT'S NOT CALLED CHEATING.

Life's too unfair

Message for you, dude:
Thanks for coming into my life. I wont reply anymore. I'm sorry. I really am sorry.

Summer's Over

I didn't know summer will end this soon. It's just May, why the fuck it's raining outside. There are few things in my life that changed so fast. First, my sched.(fuckin loser!) Second, my routine. Of course, the normal routine I'm into before will totally change because of my out-of-this-world sched. I used to have a fun fun life but because of this sudden change, I now have a super boring life. Third, I changed my url to wowlang.blogspot. haha! you lovet?

(This post supposedly published last week, unfortunately I forgot to finish for I need to deal with some tasks.)

Anyway, I'd like to share what happened last weekend.

Finally, the Cagbalete trip was successful. We had a lil trouble at first. But yea, it was fun because we are together. Yun e! I am thinking this could be our last outing for this summer. (At chaka, tag-ulan na kase.. At ano pa daw itim ang gusto ko. haha!)

Attendees:
1. Chase
2. Monic
3. Jd
4. Sioco
5. Glenn
6. Jets
7. Gen
8. Mommy
9. Karleen
10. Aiza
11. Totee
12. Gaze
13. Chamie
14. Arwin

Dami rin namin diba? Martin wasn't able to make it for some sort of reason. I hope he's fine now. I have the 1K here. Let's meet up when you're free. :)

Anyway, so there. The travel time was loooooooong. We had to take 2 buses and 1 banka ride. It took us almost 8 hours to reach the said island and to our surprise, the beach was a crap! LOL ang dagat na nauubos. kamusta? haha OK. KUMOTA AKO SA PAGKAAZAR SA CAGBALETE NA YAN. But then again, I need to enjoy this trip, or I'll be totally loser! hah! It was fun though there are a lot of idle moments since we lack activities and it is freakin' low tide. so we need to chill for a while. Naenjoy ko lang ang basagan at kwentuhan moments kasama kayo. Sana maulit pa to. Pero mukang hindi na. Dahil panay na ang ulan. Edi Bagiuo naman. Bakit hinde? hehe


To sum it up, the happiest I could possibly think was when we had our Bora Trip. It was uncomparable. REALLY!

Will post pics soooon.
Next stop? New York! Yun oh! hahaha