missing piece

I miss you babe so much that yesterday, I found myself bursting into tears and whispering your name. I wished you were here beside me. I wasn't able to sleep well.

Miss you so much. :(

What's up?

353 days...

I still have lots of counting days ahead before the next year. 2008 has been actually a stressful year for me. It wasn't that bad. There's still some things I am thankful for. Last year, the house I bought was already finished and ready to occupy. That is the biggest achievement I have so far. Also, I experienced living far from my 'rents, and I still opted to come back home for I know, I still can't live on my own. It's pretty difficult especially I'm dealing with a serious problem about my love life and I do not have anyone to turn to during my down moments. So I'd rather live with my folks than being alone and crazy. LOL. Last year, babe was too serious about getting married, he has plans on his plate and he didn't know I am secretly beggining to plan on my dream wedding as well. It was difficult indeed because it wasn't a joke for us that he is in hell while I am dealing my so-called life in the real world. So, even we are eager to get married and all, we can't do anything but to stay calm and ready ourselves for the final destination.

I have so many plans right now and I am happy that I think I'm on the right track. Though I still don't have any planner yet (SUPER LOL) still I jot down everything so I could see Im on the right track.

Now, I wanted to take life seriously. As a matter of fact I am trying to be more consistent now. WOW! This is a big change for me. Working so hard and being really responsible with work is very very biggie deal for me. I dont actually say, I'm a ridiculous employee but what I'm saying is that, I am quite lazy about work and stuffs. You get what I mean? So, I began to feel more responsible since January. HAH! As of now, I don't have absents yet, even I had colds and cough last week. ;) nice!

OK. I'll stop here. Juday's on TV in Deal or No Deal. Waaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit!

Congratulations! She won P1,000,030. Beat that? Hayyy... kung sino mayayaman sila pang nananalo ng ganyan. hehe

Anyhow, I tried looking for the YES! Magazine all over the metro, it's really out of stock. Good thing, Onie has a copy. He gave me his. Thanks babe. Love you much for this! :) I had a peek to Papi's houses, from Tagaytay Highlands, to Corintians, to QC and I forgot the other one. Plus his luxurious cars. Name it! Gosh! Really can't believe he's that rich. Babe was really amazed at the same time inspired with the whole thing. He's now dreaming of having something like that. Why not? hehe.

So, we're near the middle of the month and I am so excited with the payday! LOL hahahaha I don't have any cash now. I miss malls, st. francis sq, and I miss pigging out. LOL. I need to save and continue my promise of saving money this year. I am still thinking of having another way of earning moolah. Hmmm. Any suggestions?

So there yah go, what I have on my invisible planner (LOL) for next week is to visit Flawless, for my facial, some spa near our house for footspa, pedicure, manicure, and hotoil [this is package for only 500 good deal right? ;)] and NUSTYLE salon for body massage (250 another awesome deal, i tell you, soobrang sarap ng massage here and the place was so cozy. LOVES) or I will try their other package, body scrub and body massage (2 hours) for only 600! I can't wait! Know what? This is the only gift I gave myself since November, a birthday/christmas gift to myself. PAMPERING! yah, just that? no new gadget thing for me. I'm not into that anyway. I told myself to visit flawless, noname salon, and NUSTYLE salon, consistently every month or twice. ;) . Of course, I'll still stick with my budget. ;)

Earlier, I visited Onie and I had fun. Until now, I still smell his fragrance and I can't wait to see him again. I miss him dearly.

PS. Please continue to pray for me and my babe. We needed it so much. Thanks to all. :)
LSS: "How sweet it is to be loved by you.." :)

NEW year, NEW template, FIRST post

Happy 2009 everyone!

So how was my holiday vacation (if you could call it that way)?

It was fine indeed, as expected. Nothing special was happened, except for the two reunions I attended. Christmas with my Deniña fam and New Year with my Britanico clan.



My Deniña clan


That's my Nanay's family


That's me and my sisters with our coolest LOLA

I visited my man last Dec 31. I stayed there for two hours only. I just wanna be with him before the new year starts.

I do not have anything in mind to blog... A while ago I was too excited to rant here, it faded when I started creating an account in Facebook. LOL. aryt. I'll finish first this shit.

Later. :)

my own version of karla's closet stylish shit

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Loves,
Madamme

Best Friend, Dream Boy, Fun Life

I've always been happy for every triumphs of my girlfriends. I am dying to see them blissful and contented with life. As much as I want to be by their sides during their ups and downs, they know we can't be because we have our own lives to deal with now.

Stayn's been a very very good friend to me since my first week of college. I couldn't think of any instance we had a fight over something. We're like Whitney Port and Lauren Conrad of The Hills. HAH! :p We're in the same ellective in college and we went to the same internship. I witnessed every triumphs of Stayn, her downfall, and every heartaches she had been. We're always together and we never drifted apart until after her first job here in the Phil in San Miguel Corp. She's now residing at SG and I misses her so much. We may not have constant communication but we see to it that we could find time to catch up once in a while. This holiday, she'll visit the country and she has a very very big surprise for everybody. [not that I wanted to spoil her moment to tell everyone about it, but it's not secret anyway ;)]

So, there you have it...



My favorite girl Stayn and her perfect man, Marvin. They just look great together. and I'm telling Stayn, HE'S WORTH THE WAIT. :D I'm super happy and proud of my girl! I'll see you soon mare! A lil catch up is waiting for us. Love you so much. Can't wait to see you. Mwah!

Proud to be Pinoy...

but WTH! A Filipino Version of Twilight. C'mon! How on earth did they manage to think of a crappy telenova like this?



I don't know. I just think, this is so uncool. Shaina's pretty, Raver can dance. Sana sa ASAP nalang sila lumabas no? Guess where I found this?

Check this OUT!

Hanep. kinikilala na sila ni Perez. :D

Christmas Rant (AGAIN)

Christmas blues..

Why am I always feeling this for the past weeks? Christmas is just around the corner, I must be excited to celebrate it with my whole clan. But still, the feeling is different. While everybody is busy with christmas wishlist, and shopping for the noche buena next week, I am still dealing with work. Have you heard of the news that most people will have 2 weeks vacation starting next week (starting nov 24 - jan 5)? Yea. Cool right? It wasn't intended for me and the rest of the call center industry I guess. Well, lucky us, we'll receive double pays and stuffs, but still... If you'll think about it though, you'll end up ranting, WTF! It's always been merrier bumming around the house, chillin with friends during holiday season. Right? Good news for my normal friends ;)

Christmas is one of my favorite holiday of the year. But this time, I guess I'm not going to enjoy it for the second time around. I grew up celebrating this holiday with my Deniña clan. Food are great, overflowing drinks, funny games, bonding with cousins, music & bands, and tons of gifts. We also have a tradition (we call it "papila") of giving money to all children and those who are still studying or those who don't have work yet. I'll give you a hint how many are falling in line and will receive 20's 40's or 50's this year. My last count was 61. Yea, we're a big fam indeed! Yearly, we are very excited because of that. And to tell you, I already graduated being one of the "pumipila". :) Year 2005, I started working so meaning, I'll be one of those who will give money for the "papila" thing. Giving such worth to all my cousins is one of my achievement at that time. I was blessed with work and I earn more than enough so I tend to share. I love the feeling of sharing blessings to those who are in need. Another tradition is the exchange gift. For adults we have worth 100 and for children / babies, worth 50. That cheap. Yes I know. We might not receive an extravagant material thing but I tell you what, you'll feel the real spirit of Christmas. :)

I keep on saying I couldn't feel the spirit of the holidays these past few days, not until I felt the breeze of the air. Paskong pasko. Nakakalungkot lalo. But what I'm saying here is that, at this moment, Christmas is very very different compared when I was a child. I was once a caroler, I can't help but to ask my big bro to let me join him and his buddies caroling within the village. It was cool and I'm really enjoying it. Now, I seem to not hear even one caroler in our place. Weird for me. heh! So, yea, what else do I miss about the past? Of course my gifts from my godparents. Funny because I don't see them that much. I don't know them actually. Unlike my siblings they have godparents from my relatives. Me? My ninongs and ninangs are from my parents friends way back when they were in their early 30's I guess, so meaning, that was when my mom was still with Veteran's Bank and my father was still in the marines being a soldier. haha! Dude, I really don't see my godparents, but I do received gifts. They tend to send it home. Just that, no show. Even so, I appreciate it much and ofcourse I enjoyed their expensive gifts from Rustans. LOL

Of course, what I really miss is celebrating the day itself with my complete fam. Next week will be a Christmas without my big bro again. I miss him so much. He's the coolest kuya ever. I swear! I love him so much and I miss him dearly. I got teary eyed whenever he sings the song "Sana ngayong Pasko". It's his song for us each time Christmas is fast approaching. We might not have the bestest food on our table during noche buena, we might not have new dresses, we might not receive glamorous gifts from our folks, still we're complete. That's the most important for me.

Ha! I'm being too serious with this post huh. Well, obviously I'm really serious and I couldn't find time to smile today. Except earlier, while I was chatting with an old best friend Anna, whom I call "Baneng", she cracked me up and I thanked her for that.

I am frustrated about this holiady season. I am missing a lot. Everything about Onie and I used to do. Shopping in Glorietta, BF Parañaque Ruins bazaar, Christmas party with friends and batchmates, reunion here and there. I miss our tradition of gift giving. Onie's really a one heck of a sushal magbigay ng gift. LOL We just didn't see this coming. I mean, the situation we are into right now. We could have been in cloud nine if this didn't happen. Well, I still couldn't say so. We might end the relationship before then. I must admit, our relationship was on-the-rocks at that time. Fights every now and then. So I don't know if in case he wasn't there, I dont know if we're still together now. We actually didn't talk about marriage then. I am so much inlove with him, that I'd really wanna do the popping of question. I'm super
dumb I know. But what can I do? Hell I'm inlove! LOL

So there. this post is already long and full of emotions. Haaay, I can't wait for Christmas and New Year. These holiday season must end already, I need to look forward to my future, to our future. I'm excited at the same time scared. I don't know, I just couldn't help, but feel scared about life after this year. Weird? hah! I know. :D

It was a blast! really!

Last night, we had our company's Christmas Party at Embassy Super Club at the The Fort. Our theme is PAST FORWARD, that is--70's, 80's and 90's. I'll show you what I wore next time. I didn't know it'll be this fun! I enjoyed it so much and I'm sure I'll miss this company next year. You know, I'm planning to move again for the second time. I'll miss the unbelievable perks, and my uber weirdo officemates whom I really love.. I'm so glad I found the perfect colleagues in you guys.

So, I didn't use my cam that much, Slrs were everywhere and I couldn't find time taking pics because I'm busy dancing with everyone. LOL So here's the only pic I could share, the man behind my so-called company....



Il show some pics some other time..

Later,
A

How do you interpret dreams?

Why do I always dream about you not being nice to me, opposite of what I am expecting once you get out of that horrible place? I don't know what to think, but yea, I somewhat had a picture of you and me fighting again over same crappy thing which is MJ. I don't know. It was actually a nightmare for me. You see, we're in a group of friends chillin around, drinking booze and partying all night, when all of a sudden you left without saying a word to me. I dunno what happened next but yea, someone caught you using that shit again. WTF right? I hope this will only remain as a bad bad dream. Please do not make it hard for me when you're out. Please?

Btw, it's our 104th monthsary yesterday and I'm quite happy he didn't forget that special day. Unlike me, since I'm dealing with tons of stupid shits, I almost forgot it's the 10th day of December. How I wish you'll stay sweet and thoughtful when we get back together, or should I say, stay like that until forever. We couldn't celebrate special days together, we couldn't be together for those supposedly romantic dates, we couldn't talk and cuddle for those important days of our lives, but, I wanted you to know, you're always in my heart, you're always in my mind, wishing I could be with you everyday and every night.

I love you babe, and you know.. YOU'RE the ONE! :)
Happy 104th. Huggs

Resolutions ba kamo?

So Christmas is fast approaching, what's next, is New Year. This soon, I'd like to enumerate everything I want to change in me. Not that I always practice this, I am absolutely sure that this will remain as a list for the next year. Even so, I still hope I could follow this because it's for my own sake. :)

This year wasn't that good, well I expect it and still thank God for the blessings I received. After all, what happens in the past was all our fault and I already accepted the fact that we have to face all the consequences. Next year, am praying of having a good one. I honestly want to have a peaceful and meaningful 2009 as possible as I can.

(1) Too much vices and alcohol will not be tolerated. Will party ofcourse but I'll see to it that every party will have meaningful reason to celebrate not just because I wanna call it a night or whatever, soon you'll know what's the real deal why I'm trying to be more responsible.

(2) Too much expense on shopping will not be accomodated next year, (shit) I swear I need to cut down my expenses (or I could have another job to fulfill my necessities and needs LOL). Or this would totally help me expand my clothing line (un my clothing line), I mean my wardrobe. I should shop only during paydays, 1 dress, 2 tops, 1 shoes. No extra shopping in between. Whatchathink?

(3) Monitioring of my bank account will be the main priority. I need to save and save and save starting next year. All bonuses will strictly go to the bank immediately.

(4) Will try to exercise and have at least 9 hours or so sleep. Will drink tons of water a day. (yeah, I know, not sooo me, talking about clean living. Angal? Para maiba lang.)

(5) Less rice. (ok. scrap that!) lol

(6) Will try to be more organize next year. Will use my planner regularly. Make sure I'm in the right track.

(7) Onie and I will try to have more time with God this year, I know for the past years, we've been neglecting every chances that come our way. This time, we agreed on having time for Him. Saving 10% of our income monthly for Him and will try our best to serve Him in every way we can. I know, I shouldn't wait for next year. As early as now, Onie and I are trying our best to have time with Him. Believe it or not.

That's all for now, I know having this shit is somewhat pain in my ass. This time, I'd like to follow it, because I know, it's not only for me, it'll be for Onie as well. :)

Later,
A