Fuuuuuck!

I'm not faking it! I'm just trying to fix things. If you only knew how heart breaking it is for me to see we're fallin apart. I need space. I even want to see a psychiatrist. I'm that desperate for this fucked up relationship. If you can't understand, then go to effin hell! We've come this far man, I know we are legend. But please take into consider the feelings I had when you left. Changes were everywhere. I changed. You changed. Feelings were changed. It's not the same anymore. You can't bring back 2007. It's all done. This is the new me. If you can't deal with it, then fuck off!

I'm freakin' out! YES! I KNOW!

The White Party

I've planned this for so long and yea, thank God, it was SUCCESS!

Invitation for the White Party

Thank you facebook, it wasn't that hard inviting people nowadays.

Who: O N I E
What: Surprise Birthday Celebration and Home Coming party
When: August 29, 2010, 8pm
Where: Central, Soldiers Muntinlupa City
How: White Party

My girls, in action (Thank you for helping me with this :))

Set Up/Plan:
Projector, sound system, balloons all over, cake, talked to the waiters, told the manager what food to prepare, check the guest list.

It was successful! I invited most of his friends, his family, my family, and some of my officemates.

His Family

My Family

High School Batch, SCS

My Girls

The Boys

PCU / PWU's Friends

Mutual Homes, Phase I & II Friends

Soldiers' Friends

My Officemates and their hubbies

Gork, Melay!

Yea, man! Jill!

Thanks Dan, Melay, Jill and Sean! Kisses ♥!

I prepared a presentation, a 10 minute video for him. It's uploaded in FB for those who want watch, click here.

Totee sang my song for O entitled, OO by Updharmadown. That's my song for him since we broke up. Apir Totee!

That's my birthday cake for him. Blew the candle before the presentation by the way.

Bought yellow cab pizzas as well. It's O's cravings. Everyone loved it! Ginawang lumpia, parang limang minuto lang ang limang box. Thanks Richard S. for the discount! Loves!

Thank you Central for the free one bottle of Tequila! Yay!

Thank you to Vanessa B. and Don Alponso D. for giving greeting videos for O. You two are the bestEST! I love you both! To the management of Central, goodjob! Sa uulitin! YAY! For those who came, to all of you who made this White party possible, Thank you so much! Kisses.

Here's my outfit for the white party

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!

I love you babe, let's get married! CHOS! hahaha

Reunited

August 25, 10pm
Left the house feeling effed up. I know he's home. I was expecting too much. Boquet of flowers, a ring, a big hug from him. He was supposed to be in my house that night, that's what I was thinking then. I cursed him so bad. He failed me once again. I went to a friend's house to smoke and curse like hell! I was about to cry and then my celly beeped.

"Andito nako. Nasa bahay ka ba?"

I called and yelled at him! haha

Thank you Lord, answered prayer. I've prayed for only one thing for the past three years and seven months. I won't get tired of thanking you, dear Lord. Thank you so much. Onie came back.

Our first ever pic after 3 years and 7 months

God's good, all the time! Now I realized, all the things were planned. Something good has to come in God's perfect time. Amen! :)

New beginning

I am thinking of deleting this account. One, because I wanted to start a new life. And two, There's a lot of good memories here about ex. But I thought of not doing so for I know this would help me appreciate good things happened in my life.

So let's begin to appreciate life. Here's the new me with the man I wished to be with for the rest of my life ;)

I knew this would going to happen...

I've been MIA for the past few weeks. A lot of shits happened. It was a roller coaster ride. Little did I know everything's going to it's right places and I thank the Lord God, He never left me since. 7 months. All done. Finished. Need to let go. R and I had the most awesome days together. I always thank him as well for being with me since January. We didn't had a major problem with regards to relationship, I can't say it was perfect but yeah, it was close to it. As I always rave about how sweet this guy and how patient he was all through out. Suddenly August came. I was in panick mode. I knew something's going to happen which R would not totally understand. The come back of the man of my life, O. Yes, my love story always have a spice on it. I'm not proud of it though. Things happened very quickly and I made a decision. To let go. R helped me fix things. He was very supportive. I couldn't think of any nasty things he did that time. He was so calm that I myself couldn't understand. Actually, those ways he was showing me made me realize how hard to choose between them. I can not have this guy again once I ended this relationship. But worst scenarios keep on buggin me. His wife, his kid, and the rest of the shits continue to flow in my mind. I had a mixed emotions. Totally sad and extremely happy. Didn't like the feeling, I swear. It's really hard but R was just an angel. He was really etra nice. He kept his temper and managed to understand every single word I uttered. Then finally, we broke up. We ended the night but my feelings didn't ended there. The story of my life--sucks to death.